Hey chickadee's,
I've become a lurker again, and need to snap out of it, you gals are so good a responding to each other, I need to stop sitting in the outfield and join in.
I've been feeling quite crappy lately, I don't know whats going on with this body of mine, I feel like I'm totally PMSing, but I had my period last week, even though it was due today, and I'm still spoting a bit, so I don't know what's going on with TOM. As well as I'm so tired, and my allergies are really bothering me. I took a Reactin the other night, and yesterday I couldn't keep my eyes open and work, and I find when I take this med, I become *****ier than ever, so I don't want to take the med. I guess I'll just have to go back to the Doctor and ask what else might work for me. Any of you gals suffering from allergies, what kind of medicine do you take??
Food has been terrible the last couple of days, we had a BBQ at work on Tuesday, and had tons of food, so I ate till I felt sick, and yesterday, we tried to get rid of some of the left overs, and I ate way to much again, and we still have tons left over, I'm currently snacking on some pickles as we speak, we still have a couple dozen smokies left and some hamburgers, there frozen, so hopefully no one decides to BBQ again today. I just don't know how to say NO..
But I did step on the scale today, to see what kind of damage I've done, and my weight is still the same, so It gave me the incentive to make the most out of the rest of the week. I want to have another loss on monday.
Went and visited some friends on Sunday, we haven't seen them in along time, and my friend had commented me on my loss and said she could really see it in my face, said I was looking good. So that's always nice to here, actually if you look at my face you wouldn't think I'm over weight, I don't have a doulble chin and have good cheek bones, I can actually see my hollowing under my cheekbones, when I use to have chubby cheeks. I don't want to get satisfied, and stay at this weight, I want to be able to wear shorts by the end of the summer, and not feel ashamed. Would love to get a tan on this white body.
Oh yeah, on Monday, I went for a walk, I think I walked 2.5 miles, and I felt good, I was walking fast, and didn't have any pains in my shins, and my legs and calfs weren't aching. Last year, when I started walking I could barely walk any distance with out my shins killing me. I would like to do this walk at least 4X a week, so keep on asking me how the walking going.
I saw some pictures at my mom's house, of my son's birthday in Sept, I look huge, (yes I know I am huge) but it really brings things into perspective, I looked totally different than the image I have in my head. I looked awful, and I don't want to look, awful. I want to be pretty, and feel pretty, diffently will use these pictures as before pictures, it really shows the weight.
Son started soccer this week, and I think he really will enjoy soccer, I'm not to fond of being a hockey mom, but I think I can live with being a soccer mom, and it cost's alot less.
DF fiance has been working out of town the last couple of night so I haven't seen him since Monday. I like having a break from him every now and then, lately he can't seem to keep his hands off me, and Is constantly telling me how much he loves me and what he wants to do to me, and sometimes all this attention really gets on my nerves, I can't give the guy a kiss, with out him wanting something more. I can't imagine what It would be like If I was 100lbs, lighter, we'd never leave the bedroom if it was up to him.
Okay gals, I'm at work so I better do something productive,
TA TA for now,