2 months til my wedding day, tired of diets and i work in a bakery!
 

yes. That's me.
I've posted before about my struggles. Here they are:
-i work in a delicious bakery. Poor choice of jobs....
-I love everything in that bakery.
-my wedding is in less than 2 months now. Stress is creeping on me.
-I like my shape now. But i'm not completley happy with it.

Here's my fear. I will be too busy and stressed out, from the wedding, and moving into my apartment, to maintain my diet goals. --(I'm going to try to do the Jillian Michaels 30 day shred while eating 1200 to 1500 cals). All my life i've dreamed of some big event, like prom, my next birthday, whatever, where i was the shape/size i wanted to be. The size i've never been in my entire life. I'm scared that i won't get that change in time. I won't feel perfectly beautiful like i want to. Even on the most important day of my life.
So the question is..do i let this fear get to me? Do i use this fear as an excuse to work out like mad? Is that stress good?
I've never wanted something so bad...and i've made amazing headway the past year and a half. I'm so close to my goal...if i look in the mirror and hold in my stomach just a little..and turn this way a little..bam. I'm thin. fit. Only 20 or so pounds away.
i know i can do it. because i've done it before. But I feel like, when the day to day happenings, happen, i forget that i'm supposed to be "on a diet". and i'll screw up.

Sincerely, the lifelong caterpillar.

P.S. Here is me, in my wedding gown when i tried it on the other day. Getting it hemmed. Forgive the vacant expression lol...http://i1203.photobucket.com/albums/...ins/dress2.jpg
I can't wait to see me all dolled up with hair extensions..lol

You should keep a journal. You've got a nice prose and if you can lose weight while working in a bakery ... Wow impressive'

Wow, such a beautiful dress. You look stunning.

i actually have a little tiny book i keep in my purse, of a sort of weight loss journal. Not of my food logs but of how i feel. I usually write something about every two weeks or so.

thank you so much..i really hope i feel stunning when the day comes

You can do it! I fell off the wagon a couple months before our reception, but lost it by looking at my dress for motivation! :)

Have a great time at your wedding! Dont be stressed out. Stress is one of the culprit in gaining weight. So always be cheery and think of that dress whenever you feel like wanting to eat the good stuff at the bakery! :)

Holy crap, you already look amazing! Keep on trucking. If you want it so badly, keep working for it until the end. You deserve to be thin and happy on your special day. That's not to say that you should work out until you hurt yourself or try some fad crash diet, but keep up with your healthy changes and I'm sure whether you hit goal or not, you'll look great and have good reason to feel super proud of what you've accomplished.

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There's someone who used to post on here a lot but hasn't been around recently. I think her ID was Baker23. Look up some of her posts and especially goal stories. She's a baker and very motivating with her accomplishments You might just find some extra motivation and see that it CAN be done. :)

Wow, you are doing amazing. I would be over 500 lbs if I worked in a bakery:(