Ok, Im a longtime lurker and I hardly ever post (sorry! Busy mummy to 2 babies)
We recently booked a holiday for November.
And its a swimming holiday, its for our wedding anniversary. I want to be sexy in a swinsuit (and out!) for my husband. This has provided me with great motivation to get my butt into gear and really *try* harder!
Ive been eating healthier than ever, keeping to my calories and working out everyday bar sundays for over two weeks now. I did loose 2 lb last week, then it came straight back on the day after. Ive been 157 forever! It doesnt flucuate, which is awsome because usually I go up and down like crazy. But im not loosing as of yet. I think I know deep down if I just *stick* to it I will get there however slow, and the working out is making me retain water. I do actually *feel* smaller and my husband has commented on it too. He put his arms around me and went, 'whoa! your getting little!'
Because I cant see a change in the scale, Im getting very discouraged. Feeling like i'm putting a lot of work into nothing. At the same time I know its working and the scale is not an accurate reflection. But I had a very bad night (insomnia) and right now my brain is going, 'sod it! time for a pizza'.
I can think logically all I want but I really am fighting today
And I was just hoping for a bit of support, or maybe putting it down in writing would make me see thats its worth fighting. All thats running through my head today is one of you guys famous quotes: It takes DETERMINATION! Not motivation. Im trying to hang onto that, I sure as **** aint motivated today but im trying to stay DETERMINED and plough on through today and hope tommorow is a better one