last night, i finally opened up to my husband about my food addiction. honestly, i have never let anyone i know find out how bad it really is. its easy to talk about it online, you will never meet me, so i will not be judged.
It was probably the hardest conversation we have ever had. he knew that i ate a lot, sure, but he doesnt see me the way everyone else does. i talked for over an hour, i cried my eyes out, and he was speechless.
he said 'why wouldnt you talk to me about this before? i dont want you to hurt like this and have no one to talk to.'
Last night at midnight he took me to the local park to 'play like kids'. we stayed out until 4am swinging and sliding and playing soccer etc. i dont think anything would have made me feel better then that did.
and he woke me up this morning with 2 poached eggs, some bell peppers (my fav!!) and home made salsa. he looked me in the eye, gave me a kiss, and told me that he would always be there to help me, and that he was proud of me.
i wish i had just talked to him before, he has taken it much better than i expected. i guess i was worried that he would look at me differently, or treat me differently. but he doesnt, he just knows me that much better now.
has everyone already talked to their partner about their food addictions/binging habits etc? it seems like something that we all downplay, or completely deny. i am curious if anyone else has had to have this conversation with their partner.