I have gained back a few pounds which may or may not be fluid. I was doing really well counting calories but the last week has been bad as far as binges go. Since nursing school started I stopped going to the gym because I was either in too much pain or didn't have the time/babysitter. I feel hopeless right now. I went to my podiatrist and he wants me to wear walking boots on both feet... If I do that then I will have to drop out of nursing school, quite frankly I have no idea what to do. My health comes first of course but my situation is complicated, not being in school will really mess up my living/financial situation. I have had these foot issues for around 6 months and my previous doctor did a shotty job of treating the problem, now this doctor is trying to pick up the pieces. I need to lose weight for my health, it will help with the pain. I am having an issue not eating for comfort... I need to kick this bad relationship I have with food. Life isn't getting any simpler and I need to learn to cope in a healthy way. Beginning in this moment I will not CHEAT MYSELF, by overeating. I hope that I can get back on track. Thanks for listening, feeling very torn right now.

Did you tell your doctor about your concerns about wearing the boots? (I don't know what those are) I would think he would be able to provide some sort of alternative for you at least until you're out of nursing school.
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Thanks for the reply Vex, I am definitely going to run something by my doctor tomorrow I have done the alternatives with progressive degeneration of my condition. He let me go another month (this past month) without them to see the progression but at my recheck yesterday he thinks the sooner I do it the less permanent damage, though there are no guarantees. I am thinking that maybe I can try wearing the boots at all times except on clinical days where I will wear the braces that I wear on a daily basis now... Need to run that by him and see if that will completely cancel out what the boots will be doing the rest of the time.
The worst part is that I decided on nursing school after a lot of trepidation. My previous doctor said that she would get me healed up before school started but that didn't happen. Nursing school wasn't really my dream, though I do know I will be good at it. I am questioning whether or not it is a smart decision to get into a profession that I will spent majority of the time on my feet since I already have some permanent damage that causes chronic pain. I am relatively new to being in pain on a day to day basis and I notice that I am becoming progressively more depressed. My mom picked me up some St. John's Wort to see if that will help lift my spirits.
Another issue is that I am really starting to notice how much "bigger" I am than everyone else (there are some people in school bigger than me but not many), which I feel separates me even further from the norm. Just feeling sad and BLAH.

Talk to your school. We had a student a year behind me in a wheelchair, and accommodations were made for her to get through clinicals.

Thanks for sharing Callahan, I am definitely going to go to the "Health Requirements" person and see what she says. We shall see, now to conquer my anxiety about talking to her lol.... I'm a mess.

Spoke to school and since the walking boots may cause an issue with risk management i will be wearing my braces to clinical... guess i can make do! makes me nervous getting into a profession that requires near perfect health!