So i did just that & ate whatever I want, & then some. I feel like I was always eating and nothing healthy too. All processed junk food & just plain junk!
I went up & down the entire year between 242-251 & the lowest I got in 2011 was 237 & that was on Sept 27 (yea i remember dates like a freak). I was ecstatic. But once again the need to self sabotage kicked in and I was back up to 246 & around Nov 10th Is when I decided I'm going to just start back New Years.
SO today is the 1st day back on my plan and I stepped on the scale & it read 271!
two hundred & seventy one pounds!! Like really?!?!? WOWOWI know I gain weight extremely quickly and ALOT at that but to have gained 34lbs in 3 months is just sickening. I knew I gained too bc clothes were fitting tighter & i was starting to ache alot, more then I remember aching.
I knew the # was gonna be bad just didn't think that bad. I haven't seen the 270's since April of 2010 & when I got out of the 270s I remember promising myself that was the last time I was gonna see that #.
Well I started back on my plan today, & I can honestly say I was looking forward to it. I felt like complete crap for the past 2 months, aching nonstop & feeling so sluggish & tired was catching up to me BIG TIME. I want to feel like how I feel when I eat like a pro & workout! BC that feeling is amazing.
SO I am just really sad about my weight and that I let myself get back up so high on the scale. I cant help but think if i wouldn't have gained so much weight back I would be starting at a lower point and would be that much closer to my goal of 150lbs.
Atleast I feel ready & believe that this will be it this time. No more excuses!
Thanks so much for hearing me out & listening to me ramble on.

Is there anyone else thats been in the same situation?


