~I'm not "new" to losing weight, but I'm "new" to keeping it off. I haven't ever gotten down to my ultimate long term goal, but I've gotten about 50-60 lbs off and now I'm even higher than I ever was. BUT! I've already lost 20 lbs this year, so I'm doing good considering I just got back on it middle of August after being off for around 5 months.
What happens [with me at least] is when I hit a plateau or I don't ~see~ results [not that I don't feel a million times better] is that I just (a) give up or (b) become obsessive about it. I don't really know which one is better, but the last time I became obsessive about it; it wasn't pretty to say the least. I would cut calories to the point that I was passing out or about passing out, it was horrible. But I made myself stop and without the proper knowledge of how to eat right & how to keep "full" healthily, I gained it all back + some. -sigh-
That's been over 8 years ago, but things change. You get in a new relationship, they love you for YOU, you get married, life gets stressful, we all know the story. I'm not making excuses for myself, I know this is purely my fault & no one else's. I guess everyone just gets down on their self at one point or another and just have an "off" day. I guess today is mine.
I just want to love myself inside & out because at this point I really don't. At all.
If you made it through this, then you deserve a medal.