I have been having a super super hard time with cravings this weekend. Oh man, I can't even write it in words. I have been trying to stay busy...reading and watching movies. My family is in sabotage mode. The kids are all about muffins and ice cream and even DH (who doesn't even like sweets)bought tootsie rolls when we went on treats for family (minus me
) run. I really was just gonna get the dog something (she looked bored for the first time in 10 years, so I thought I'd spoil her). But not one thing for me, and it literally hurts right now. I'm achy and jonsing. I've been dealing with a headache for a week and I can't even be sure if this isn't psychosomatic. All I know is I WANT donuts and cake and I want them bad.
But with each day I don't cave into it, I feel a little more successful, although it hasn't shown on the scale in a month. I've had intestinal trouble for the same length of time, so I'm wondering if something is going on. I am trying so hard to stay positive, even haven't written to you all just so I didn't sound like a drag. And I'm not even sure why I'm doing it now.
Maybe I'll encourage someone down the road, IDK. I really don't, but I'm here, I'm fighting the cravings, the discouragement, the saboteurs, myself...it's so hard and at this point I don't even know if I'll see results, but I've got this mentality that I've got to do this because I deserve it...I deserve good health. To say I deserve anything has been the hardest triumph in my life so losing weight because I deserve should be a little easier
I hope you all have a wonderful week. Stay positive!