I've been online dating. Albeit, too much, but I'm trying to make up for lost time.
JB: We went out on 4 dates; 3 dates too many. He took my online dating virginity so I coughed up our first couple dates as awkward because of being nervous. The 3rd date was a lot better and the 4th date was OK. But I realized that I just wasn't into him. I really wanted to be though because he was such a nice guy! We did have a 5th date planned but I cancelled the day after we planned it. I'm not proud of how I handed this, btw. I know I blindsided him. He sent me a text that said, "Fine, whatever. I'll drop off the gift I got you on your front porch sometime this week.". I wrote back that it would be inappropriate to accept the gift and he had to know that by telling me that he was going to make me feel even worse than I did. And I told him he succeeded. In actuality, he just p***ed me off. I hate guilt trips. Today he sent me text after text about how I made him feel and how I led him on and blah blah blah.
DS: We also had 4 dates; wish we had more. I saw him Saturday night and we went skinny dipping together. It had gotten hot and heavy at certain points during the date and we had a splendid time together as usual. Didn't hear from him Sunday which is fine. I sent him a text asking him out for drinks later this week. He wrote back saying he'd "love to go" but he can't because he has his kids from Wednesday night till Sunday. And he's busy tonight and tomorrow. I'm disappointed but my spidey 6th sense is telling me something else is up.
MH: We had 3 dates; 2 in one day....before he had to work and after he got off. There is an amazing physical chemistry between us and I was looking forward to seeing how things would go after a few more dates. BUT, alas, the calls and texts have been sporactic for the past 4 days.
I've had 1 other date with 1 other guy but when he asked me out for a 2nd date I declined. I have another date tomorrow night with someone new. I'm not really looking forward to it.
So where does this all go you ask? What do balls and gooey goodness have to do with anything? Well, I'll tell you!
A purchase of a HUGE meatball parm sandwich and 2 soft pretzels with melted creamcheese loaded inside them.
They are sitting beside me on my nightstand. I am in "binge position" and ready to gorge. I have been home for 30 minutes and I'm desperate for help and encouragement so I don't eat this crap. I just hit a goal for goodness sake!
It's really not about any of these guys. I like two of them a lot but my heart won't be broken if things don't work out. Disappointed, yes, but I won't be crying into my pillow over it! But darn it, dating should not be this crappy! The older I get the worse it seems to be.
I'm just feeling defeated today and dealing with a couple work and family issues on top of it. I was hoping this dating stuff would be fun and distracting but it's anything but.
Just a bad day......