I typically have bouts with low grade depression and high grade anxiety so I'm starting off in the hole but ever since I started my lifestyle change I've been having bouts of extreme depression. Like sitting at my desk at work crying depression.
A month ago I was upset that I was overweight and scared because the doctor basically gave me the grim "you're going to die" if you don't lose the weight speech but otherwise I was happy. No, I didn't have everything in my life that I wanted but I was content with what I had.
Now? Almost a month in and I'm horribly unhappy most of the time. I'm edgy, cranky and just plain pms-y most of the time (even when it's not TOM). I hate my life, I hate that my apartment is so small and cluttered (not bad just not spotlessly clean). I hate that we never seem to have enough money. I hate that my hubs (who I love dearly) can't seem to get off his hiney and help out around the house. I'm overwhelmed by the bills, my job and just my life in general.
Usually I'm so excited about the holidays...seriously, I'm like a Christmas nut...but this year just the thought of having to navigate all the potential food minefields at family gatherings coupled with the extra work, expense and stress has me wanting to curl into a little ball and never come out.
Is this a normal part of the process? Has anyone else experienced anything like this?