I try to talk to people about it too much, but on the inside I am thinking food, exercise, calories, fat, carbs, vegetables, recipes ALL THE TIME!

I'm sort of conflicted. One of the reasons I don't talk about it is because I am embarrassed BOTH that I need to do something so much more in depth and restrictive than my thinner friends but also for buying into the whole "I am fat and fat=unhealthy and bad and I need to punish myself til I am thin' mentality. It's all always on my mind tho, you aren't alone!

My best friend since 6th grade is total fitness/healthy eating nut with a great body. We live five states apart these days. A few years ago we took a vacation together when I was at my heighest weight and due to recovery from long illness, was at my lowest fitness I had ever been at.

Living with her 24/7 after so many years I found myself getting annoyed at how "obsessed" she was. Checking food labels on everything, having me look for a place to refill her water bottle as soon as it was empty, taking opportunities to stretch. Even brushing her teeth multiple times per day.

Initially I felt a bit smug that I wasn't "that shallow". But then looked at how she looked and what she as able to do compared to how I looked and felt. I didn't take action then, but the thought stuck with me when I decided to tackle losing 100 lbs. Last Spring, when I was about 80 lbs. down I was back home and we went out to dinner and I told her what I had been thinking then and thanked her for setting a great example.