I have an addictive/obsessive personality, period. from overeating as a kid and adult, to NOT eating but twice a week as a teen, to alcohol as my 1st marraige was dissolving up until a couple years ago, to now, I fear, working out. The last one doesn't sound bad, but I'm worried of hurting myself. It is SO hard for me to stop for a day and just let my body rest.
Just the other day I told my DH, after spending 3 hours working out (1.5 hrs in morning, 1.5 hrs evening), that it's a good thing I never got into drugs because I would be dead by now. It's why I won't take a vicodin or other painkiller when prescribed (never got it filled when I had my wisdom teeth yanked). I don't want/need one more battle. It's like anything I can grab ahold of or control, I take it to the extreme.
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