You know...I came to the realization today, that I am probably not clinically depressed or bipolar or anything scary like that...
I HAD PMS!!! My period came today, taking me totally by surprise...it is a wee bit early, but thinking back a few days to a week ago, I was totally PMSing! Whew...THAT'S a relief!! I did start taking some peri-menopausal vitamin supplement a few days ago...I doubt it kicked in already! So, today...I am just little Mary Sunshine!
I worked last night...had packed my gym bag ahead of time, planning on going straight over from work, when I discovered my "visitor," so I had to come home. I figured, "Oh well...if I don't get there right away, I ain't going!" I proceeded to the computer, read a few posts, was all ready to reply, when I thought..."hmmmm...*flashback* Wasn't it just yesterday that I promised not to get caught up in posting til I accomplished something around the house AND did my exercise? Why, yes it was!" And so...I went to the kitchen and cleaned up the mess left by my darlings last night. I could have left it for them, but I needed
something...anything... to do before I could post! Once the kitchen was bright and shiny, I thought, "Well, there's still time to get over for the 9am Aquacize class...I
did promise the girls..." And off I went! The class lasted 50 minutes, so I spent the last 10 minutes doing laps. I felt fabulous afterwards!!! So good, in fact, I high-tailed it over to Shop Rite and bought some fruits and veggies and lots of good stuff. Once everything was put away~AND ONLY THEN~I sat down to post...bursting with excitement at how good I feel!
I am a moody wench on a good day...so PMS can really send me on a hormonal roller coaster!
Wow! I just rambled that story on and on, but I had to share...couldn't wait to, actually!
So...I just had a nine point breakfast...I know, a little high, but I DID work all night without nibbling! I'll finish this post and maybe lie down for a bit. I didn't get much sleep last night before work. When I tried, I felt that I couldn't rest til my bedside table was cleared off, it was that messy! So I grabbed the wastebasket, tossed a few magazines, some papers, some old lotion and nail polish, contact lens wrappers....which made it better...but not good enough...Time to get rid of this PILE of books taking up space here...
{Revelation #2 is coming...}
Let me just give you a rundown of the books accumulated there..."Potatoes, Not Prozac," "The Hunger Within," "Make the Connection," "Food for Thought," "Breaking Free from Compulsive Eating," "Sugar Busters Quick and Easy Cookbook, " AND, "Fat Flush Plan." Not to mention the Kathy Smith Walking tape(used once) and log book (never used). I thought, "What the ****...just for kicks, let's look in the closet, just to see what other weight loss gadgets I could come up with...Ready?
1. Ab Slider
2. 2 pairs of dumbells
3. 2 pairs
Jack Lalanne stretchy bands
4. 1 pair
Elaine Powers ankle weights
...not to mention the measuring tape hanging there...and we won't even go into all the exercise video tapes in my possession...or the Weight Watchers and other "light" cookbooks that I own! Come to think of it...if I looked into a junk drawer or my desk drawer, I'm sure I could find a few old WW weekly weigh in booklets. I have also joined "Lean Line", "Lifesteps," an expensive program through my job, similar to WW, I even tried "Fit America." I have received Richard Simmons' newletters, and cried at MANY of his infomercials. I have used those funky diet pills from GNC, and protein powders...I've been on the crazy three day diet where you eat hot dogs and beets and icecream. I have owned, in the past, a rowing machine, a stair stepper, a mini trampoline, various "steps" for step aerobics...
(Bear with me, I'm on a roll...I just keep thinking of more and more things!) In the past 20 years, I have belonged to: Elaine Powers, Lucille Roberts, another lady's gym that I can't remember the name of, a racquetball club, not to mention my current membership
s at the "state of the art" fitness and wellness center AND at Curves!
AND YET I WEIGH 260 POUNDS!!!!
here comes the revelation...
After all the $$$$$ down the tubes and the years spent trying, (sometimes succeeding, mostly failing) to lose weight...I have come to the realization that NOTHING WILL WORK WITHOUT THE RIGHT ATTITUDE. End of story. If I expect to lose this weight, I should expect to do the work to make it happen. All the potions and powders, pills and playthings in the world will not do the job for me if I do not adopt the mindset that says, "THIS IS IT! I'M THROUGH FOOLING AROUND, IT'S TIME TO GET DOWN TO BUSINESS AND GET THIS WEIGHT OFF, ONCE AND FOR ALL."
So that's it. I want it bad enough. So I'm gonna do it. Watch and see.
Now, I really have to get my butt in bed for a nap.
Whew! I'm spent after that mega post!