I'm worried that I'm turning into one of "those girls" that looks in the mirror and sees a fat girl when everyone else sees a skinny girl. And I'm frustrated that I can't seem to satisfy myself, I always want to "just lose 5 more pounds."
My original goal was 150. Then 145. Now I'm close to 140, but I'm pretty convinced that I'm going to 135. I won't be surprised if I'll want to get to 130. It's not that I want to be a twiggy stick figure, but I'm not going to lie, I want to be thin. Not underweight, but thin. I've worked so hard to get this far, why quit if I'm not completely satisfied? I don't want my ribs to be poking out or to fit into 00's or anything of the sort. Please don't think I want to starve myself down to nothing, and I'm well within the healthy BMI range (I could theoretically go all the way down to 120, but I hiiighly doubt I would want to).
My friends say how thin I am, and how I should stop losing now, but they don't see me naked, I still have a ways to go! I have been strength training for a few months now, and that's made a lot of difference to my overall shape. But there is still a lot of fat covering the muscles. And this isn't me with self-deprecating goggles, I can still grab rolls, lol.
I dunno, I know that I'm smaller now and each pound makes a bigger difference, so maybe I'll be happy at 135. Has anybody ever felt like this?