Right now I've been really struggling with my new self image. I don't know why this is happening now, I guess up until now I've always still felt fat. I think once I got into the 170's I just didn't feel fat anymore and now I'm having some kind of identity crisis. Almost like I don't know who I am if I'm not the fat girl, or the fat friend or whatever. I used to be the fattest girl in the office, now I think I'm might actually be the thinnest
I'm also just having this weird feeling about my body. I almost feel like something is missing, like I'm missing a limb or something. It is a really really weird feeling. I literally feel like I'm disappearing sometimes. I'll go to walk inbetween people in a crowd and I feel like I'm going to inevitable bump into them with my petruding gut but I slide right past without touching a thing. And when did they start giving so much more room at table in restaurants? Why is the table always so far away?
I think this last 22 lbs has come off fast and been a more drastic change in my appearance than the first 70 and my mind is just not catching up. What is more frightening to me is that I want to lose another 20-40lbs still and I really wonder how drastic of a change that is going to be and if I'm going to be feeling this way all the way to me goal or is it going to get worse?
I'm also getting really really sick of be COLD no FREEZING ALL THE TIME. Will this stop? Will my body adjust?
And I'm getting a little creaped out by the bones I can feel, my spine, my hip bones, etc.
Where is all this coming from and when will I just feel like me again? I don't want to be fat ever again, but something just doesn't feel right and I can't put my finger on it. This is temporary right?