As of this moring I am 1 lb from 100 lbs lost.
Part of me is so excited and proud of myself and the other part of me is horrified that I let myself get to a point that I needed to lose that much weight and that if I could let myself get that big, I could do it again.
I also don't feel like when I see that magic number appear on the scale that I'm going to give it the credit it deserves...that I'll just be like ok...well 30 more to go, let's get crackin' (not a bad attitude, but I really feel like it needs something more than that).
One good thing that happened today though was that when I saw 169 scale I thought Awesome! 1lb to go to 100 AND I'm in the 160's, let's go jogging! So I went for one of my typical 5-6 mile walk/jogs and instead of jogging the 2 miles I usually do and walking the rest I jogged 4! It was a bit of a struggle, but I did it because I REALLY want to see 168 on that scale tomorrow. I'm trying not to too get my hopes up though because this was a pretty big loss week for me and per my trend the loss is probably through and I'll stall for the next week or two (TOM is next week too).
Anyway, I just don't know how to feel about reaching this goal and knowing that the journey is almost over and a new one is about to begin - maitenance! I'm not sure why I'm scared of maitenance, I've picked a weight loss method that is so easily transferred to maitenance (calorie counting) and I know what to do...but I'm just terrified of regaining. I really hope that because I had to lose so much and I know what it was like to be heavy that I will recognize if that scale starts to creep forward that I'll need to make adjustments immediatly...Anyway this is a whole other thread and I can see this one is gettting wordy - Thanks for listening!