getting to my highest weight ever, 220. being uncomfortable in my wedding gown, having to have it taken out. that didn't make me snap, but seeing 220 on the scale did.

getting to uk size 24 x

Some of these posts make me want to cry and nod in agreement. It's such a good thread.

I think my two horror moments were: realising that I couldn't put on my favourite boots on anymore because the zips wouldn't do up on the calfs and going back to my husband's family for Xmas and being the biggest one of the "grandchildren" (of that age bracket) when I had always been the smallest.

I mean I can have all the excuses I want, and medication is probably the biggest one, but the long of the short of it is I have gained 40lbs this year and I am pretty much heartbroken about it. I think the worst thing at the moment, even though I am back on track food wise, is seeing the stretchmarks continue to get bigger :(

Mine was this summer when I went to a baseball game with my friends and it was so uncomfortable sitting there in those tiny seats. The whole time I was just counting down the time for when we could leave. We also took a picture of all of us in front of the field and I looked so huge compared to everyone. I didn't like how I looked and wanted to change it.

buying custom suits
 

:comp: Okay, so I've been trying for a while to "get fit" ... well really for my entire adult life. I guess the last straw that motivated me to get more serious about fitness is my custom suits. I invested in three custom tailored suits for work thinking that if the clothes fit better then I'd like the way I look. Nope. Didn't work that way. I got beautifully tailored suits but still wanted to cry when looking in the mirror. I am glad I have the suits because I have a professional need for these suits but I realized that my internal motivation for buying them wasn't so much about my career but my personal desire to hide my flaws. Note: I also used to also dream about plastic surgery ad nauseum as an answer to all my fat prayers. So, I've come to realize that I keep looking for outside factors to "change" me instead of looking within myself.

For those that are interested... I bought my suits from Astor and Black. I chose the fabric color, type and pattern as well as the buttons, color of the thread used to sewn on the buttons, the style of cut (collars, sleeves, etc) and the type of liner inside the jackets. I loved choosing the liners! So fun. :) It took me like 3 hours to choose everything with the help of the representative. The rep also became my personal clothier and she helps me shop for all things fashion from a specialty bras to shoes. I recommend it for anyone looking for a more polished look. I've had many compliments since buying the suits.

I should mention that I grew up on welfare and putting money into clothing was always crazy. Secondhand clothes have been my norm for my entire life. So, these suits provide me with a new perspective on my life... that I've come a long way and I can achieve my dreams professionally... so why not personally too.

Geeze, I think I had an epiphany just writing this out. Thanks for reading. :book2:

Originally Posted by schubunny:
But when I do want to go back to hike and camp again, this time I will be in the best physical shape of my life. :)

schubunny,
I hope you get your "do-over" on that hiking trip. My husband has a mountain that he could not climb called Mt. Katadin in Maine (Baxter State Park). He was so overweight that at the time he tried 3 days in a row to climb to the top of the mountain and then had to give up and go around. Ever since when we talk about his fitness goals he tells me... "Mt. Katadin all the way"... it represents so much to him. Sounds like your hike might be your "Mt Katadin". Good luck!

Oh wow alot of these ring true! Especially the one with with the worn out jeans with the thighs popping out - that's happened to me a couple times, ****, all my jeans end up like that!

My last straw was last week - I've been steadily gaining for years - when I was 60 pounds smaller than I am now I thought wow, I need to do something about my weight (remember I am only 5'1)... but that didn't happen.

Then a couple years later, I was up another 30 pounds, and I thought ok, must do something now... I had a major life change moving from CA to MA to be with my family, and I thought this is great, went to the gym everynight with my cousin for 3 months, then stopped...

Fast forward to now, 2 years later, and a wardrobe of only yoga pants, which should be burned, they do nothing but help you GAIN (at least in my world), again, I knew I had gained, I'm unrecognizable to myself in pics, but honestly had not weighed myself in 2 years - well I bought a scale and just surpassed the 200 mark. I know everyone has their own struggles, but for me that was it - 200 pounds on my 5'1 frame is too much, in 10 years I've close to doubled in size, my legs kill after walking a block from all the weight they're carrying... I remember used to being able to buy cute knee high boots, now my calves don't fit... oh boy, I avoid cameras, won't wear short sleeves anymore... Anyways, I'm trying to do a 180 here, so I appreciate the support of allowing me to ramble and get this out!!! For me it helps - thanks!

I wanna add to mine::

Being the fattest mum in EVERY baby/toddler group that I've been to,

Seeing my family in the summer and feeling terrible the whole time despite spending a lot of money on an outfit,

taking my son to thomas land and having to let my husband go on all but one of the rides with him, the one I did go on the attendant looked at me like dirt, not only that but I saw a lot of pictures from that trip and it was a real shocker for me,

developing carpal tunnel syndrome,

a breast cancer scare in July 2011,

my parents sharing their fears that they may one day bury me...




:( :( Many things have happened to me in my life, things I used as an excuse, a reason not to care about my weight, some valid, some not, but this last year scared me, thank you to the creater of this post, I had begun to forget how I used to feel, thanks for making me think about this, think about myself and why I'm here.


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My last straw moment seems kinda of silly compared to so many of you.. I had my last straw moment when I realized that I could no longer fit into any of the jeans in my closet. I have probably 15 pairs and can only fit into 1 of them.. So today, I took everything out that I couldn't wear and it's going to be boxed up and put in the bottom of the closet. And the beginning of next month I will go through and see if i can wear any, some are just to tight to wear, they can be buttoned but I ain't sayin it's pretty! LOL

So this is it, I will get into those jeans and I will get into those shorts are are filling up an entire drawer that I can no longer wear either! Watch out summertime!

It was a culmination of things, having to buy size 20 jeans because my 18's wouldn't fit. Not being able to enjoy going out, therefore becoming a hermit, and watching life pass by. Not to mention my health was at stake, being pre-diabetic, having high blood pressure. And to top it all off ,as if the previous wasn't bad enough, just walking from my door to the driveway was making my legs/calves burn in extreme pain, talk about being completely out of shape.

My last straw occured today with this thread:

http://www.3fatchicks.com/forum/weig...ts-20-lbs.html

My primary goal for 2012 as of today is to focus on weight loss. I'm talking about making a geniune effort for once in my life.

So many of these struck a note within me!

While there were many small things I had noticed, such as having 1 pair of pants that were so tight (even though they were stretchy) that I knew I should buy a size up but refused, wearing only plus sized clothes, weighing more than my dh...it all came to a head June of last year. My son's 2nd birthday party, which was great and fun. But, when I sat down that night to look at the pictures, all I could see was me...all 231 pounds of me that I had been firmly in denial over. I had heard about medifast, and I ordered it THAT NIGHT, and it was the start of a total change in my life.

I am so thankful it happened before I gained any more :(

I've had many last straws in my life for the past five years. The heap consists of always the same few things(clothes that no longer fit me, back pain, since last year also neck pain, lack of energy, insomnia, not going out, because I'm ashamed of how i look), but last straws keep changing ;)
This time it was the last pair of jeans that fit me, that tore on the spot where my thighs rub.
It was the last pair of pants that fit me.
I had nothing else to wear but one pair of very tight black jeans and one pair of tight blue jeans (both making a disgusting muffin top).
And now I wear those two pairs and pray for them to last me until I lose enough to fit into those that can not be buttoned up anymore. I will not buy new clothes, because my closet is full of clothes of all sizes down :D I even have jeans size 8, that fit me in 2003 or 2004 and I intend to wear them again! Really!

OMG, I'm not the only one!
 

You know when I sat on my couch doing my normal, being lazy, thoughts would go thru my mind. One thought was I am probably the only one feeling the way I geel right now. Having a little pitty party with myself but doing nothing about it.
As others have said, I have had many "final straws"! But my final straw was Christmas. I hope to the good Lord that no one got me clothes, for two reasons: 1. I don't want to be embarrased by the XL on the tag when they have to pick it out, and 2. The clothes probably would not fit because when I saw them 6 months ago at my best friends funeral (my family and I don't live in the same state) I was 15 pounds and 2 sizes lighter.
I am a photographer, but don't like to be in front of the camera, for the obviouse reasons. I am sick and tired of not wanting my picture taken. I have good hair (when I try), I have a cute face with makeup on (in my opinion), and I can dress decent; BUT, I don't like myself enough to try!
I want to not only be a bit slimmer, but I want to be healthier, have more energy, and feel better about myself; for me, my husband, my kids, and my photography business...
Thank you all for reading, I guess I had alot to say, sorry!:stress::stress::stress: