I've been on/off my weight loss journey for a while (note my join date) and I find myself back at it yet again. When I think about where I could be right now if I hadn't fallen off track last summer, I get so depressed and angry with myself. And embarrassed. On Sunday, I was walking up the stairs to my apartment and I tripped. It didn't hurt much at all but I found myself in tears. I was crying so hard that I was gasping for air. As I sat there on the steps, I thought to myself "why am I crying like this??". I realized it wasn't because of what had just happened but rather because I felt so unhappy and deep down I needed that cry.

Yesterday, I logged onto 3FC for the first time in way over a year. I cared about what I put in my mouth for the first time in months. And after work, I signed up to be a member again at Gold's. I worked out and thought I was going to die both during and afterwards, yet I felt great. When I got home, I walked my dog, showered, ate dinner and when I'd normally snack on everything in sight, I didn't last night. I brushed my teeth, drank a tall glass of water, lounged and then called it a night.

I'm starting to feel happier already.

Yeah for all your positive steps!!!!!!

Congratulations on that first step. You are absolutely right, the first step is the hardest. Don't get upset about the past. We have all been there. You can't change the past so just see it as the learning experience is was.

Now you have taken that first step so take another step, then another step..... Don't look back and take it one step at a time!

Great choices! You can do this!

Awesome post, Katy05!
That's the correct attitude.

Katy05 - I agree 100%. It's amazing the momentum that can be acheived with that one first step, isn't it? Keep up the great work and congrats on the amount you've lost so far! xoxo

Way to go!! :-)) Yes, the first step is the most challenging and you're past that. Keep going! I love your attitude!

Welcome back- I'm sorry you were crying

Welcome back! I know exactly what you're saying about how much you could have lost if you hadn't gone off track. Last winter, I was 15-20 pounds away from my goal, but instead of losing it I gained 25 pounds! It's so frustrating because I could be at my goal weight easily by now and instead I'm further away then I ever was...

But, the first step is the hardest and good job to you for getting back on track!

I am a new member but I just wanted to say that I am glad you are back and I can relate.

A few years ago I was 5 pounds away from my goal then quit trying and gained all of my weight back plus some. Same with you when I think about how I could have been at my goal and not doing this all over again I get angry.

There isn't anything I can do to change it, so I just did the same thing as you. Got up, dusted myself off and started over.

I am only one day two but you gotta start somewhere!

Good luck and thank you for sharing!

Thank you all for such supportive and encouraging comments! This forum has always been amazing in that capacity.

shortandfluffy: This is day two for me as well. And I know we can do this! We've done it before, right? Our of curiousity, where in Texas do you live? If you tell me you live in San Antonio, I'd be thrilled because maybe we can be work out buddies?

woot! way to go girl

Glad you came back!

I live in Nederland.. its pretty far from you.. about 6 hours. That stinks! It would be great to have a workout buddy!

I will for sure be posting on here a lot now that I found the forum, so maybe we can help each other out on here. Accountability is a big deal for me!

I have no idea where that is...bummer! But helping each other out on here sounds great! I look forward to it!