Dieting made me the fattest I've ever been.

I am a believer in intuitive eating. Basically I hit the reset button and cleared myself of all the jibberish I learned about food over the last 30 years. Then retaught myself to trust my self and stop being my own worst enemy. And I stopped fighting myself every step of the way,

Books that helped:
Overfed head and anything by geneen roth.

Good luck in finding what works for you. Most people have many false starts before they find what works for them, so don't be discouraged. Just keep getting back on the horse till you stay there.