Aww, you're the bestest, Diva..thank you so much :hug::hug::hug:

because last week i went to buy a bench sweater wore it once and ended up with 3 holes in itt! 100 dollar swater and i was forced to bring it backk,i cried for the hole day thinking i wasent good enough so buy christmas im getting that friggan BENCH SWATER!

I was tired of:

Saying I wasn't hot wearing sleeved t shirts and long jeans out in the sun even though I was scorching but would never go out in a tank and shorts..

Feeling like my bfs could and should get better than me

Feeling disgust at myself when I try on clothes, only getting what fits and not what looks cute

Going out to see my friends in what is my standard outfit, jeans, and a loose black top, hoping nobody will notice I wore this outfit way too much.

Lying and saying I hate the beach and pools, and dreading going to Vegas because people will want to hit the pool, and I'll lie and pretend I'm tired or want to gamble.

Not eating in front of friends/guys as though I'm fooling them!

This time around it's all about my health, mental and physical. To stop to bad thoughts from creeping in.

Along the way I get to get:
My wedding band back on
My clothes to fit again, instead of squeezing in.
To wear the boots I bought last year and could not wear because my calfs were too big
A better attitude about my. Was getting to the point were I did not care about appearence.

Onderchick. Maybe your BF needs his eyes checked! :D I'd KILL to have your skin. I think you're VERY pretty!

I am loving this thread. I keep thinking of things to add. I figure the longer my list, the harder it will be to quit, right?

DH and I are planning a trip to Hawaii for the Spring when he returns. It will be the honeymoon we never had. Being confronted w/Waikiki Beach should help motivate me! :lol:

Also. collarbones. I haven't seen mine in ages. I want to see my collarbones.

Aww Jamie, how sweet! Thank you very much :hug::hug:

Hawaii is a motivator for sure :D

My ulterior motive is to set a good example for my daughter. I don't want to be the 'fat mom.'
I am also looking forward to buying clothes! Cute clothes, that look good on me, instead of just buying anything that fits.

I'm trying to get into that bikini baby!!!! YEAH!!!!

I want to wow my entire family and look freaking amazing in my clothes. Yup, I am VERY shallow about this. I also want to get my boobs done and want the weight off first.

I got (eventually!) firm and committed because I had an important role in a theatre play (I'm an amateur actress :))... and my character was supposed to be astonishing beautiful (this was important also for the whole story plot)... and even if I was repeating myself "if they gave you the role, it means that you ARE beautiful, or at least that you can PRETEND to be beautiful"... I thought I wouldn't be very relaxed and comfortable on the stage without losing a little bit of weight. I didn't want to be on the stage at the premiere in panic thinking "OMG, I feel chubby and my character is supposed to be *commonly* beautiful... what will the audience think?".

AND

I'm also trying to go vegan! :carrot:
for ethical reasons. and I want to show people around me that it CAN be done and that being vegan can also make you beautiful. So maybe I can convince someone else to go vegan. :D

i can actually find clothes i like now so thats not really a factor for me. Mostly, i want to beable to move around like i used to. Chase my dogs, run after Frisbees and be able to do it for more then 10 minutes. Go up and down stairs better, not get winded when i walk or quickly exert myself.


These things are huge for me. i'm not looking for perfection in my body but i do want to get things out of life that i can't at this point.


Oh yeah, and the whole fat face thing bums me out. my hair looks cute but i've got a fat face. :(

Mine is simply that i dont want to spend the rest of my life dieting and thinking about food and everything else, i want to be able to trust myself around food and know that i can eat sensibly and not have to have it occupy my thoughts every waking hour im fed up of having to think about it and dont want to be 50 looking back thinking i wish i had done something about it when i was 20 yaknow.

Same as was said earlier - I've always been overweight, and I want to see what I look like without all this extra padding.

This is a hard one for me- the main reason is to get my health back and get off all these meds, the other is to feel better look great of course!
The one thing about my body that bothers me so much is my tummy, my husband has not seen me without clothes in over a year. I change in the bathroom and during sex I keep a pillow or sheet near me in case he puts his hand near my stomach. I want that insecurity to go away. I want to feel attractive and carefree at that time. There I said it and I hope it was not too much information. My husband told me once that he feels like the only thing on my mind during sex is him gettimg near my stomach and that he loves me and that I am perfect to him. It made me feel so ashamned because he was right, it was on my mind the whole time. I miss feeling uninhibited the most.

What's your ulterior motive?


Well I have a few...

Myself ! I have realized that I need to get healthier for me, myself and I :)

Also because I want to look better for my Hubbs, he married me at this weight but I want him to be proud of me.

And last but not least, I want to run with my Aunt in the Marine Corps Marathon in honor of my cousin and I will need a lot of working up to that point because it's a whopping 26 miles ! It take a few years, but I will get myself in shape to be able to do it !