The past day or so, I've been feeling really hungry. Yesterday I went over my calorie budget by about 3-400 calories; not too bad, but enough to make me go "hmmmm".
So today I was feeling hungry again, but when I really stopped and thought about it, it wasn't really hunger I don't think. I think it's stress and anxiety that's making me want to eat. Work is going beyond crappy; everything is up in the air. The programming part of my job is definitely going to end, and I'll be reassigned to something else (which I may or may not like, and which may or may not pay the same). The bosses are saying NOTHING and co-workers are whispering and wondering, when they are not knifing each other in the back.
So.....there is an office a couple hours away that is loosely affiliated with ours. The leadership is strong and has a firm vision. The work environment is more stable. The head boss is someone I know and have a friendly working relationship with, and she responds positively when I have mentioned working there in the past. I have an appointment to meet her for lunch in a couple of weeks. I have scoped out houses in the area, in the same neighborhood as my favorite sister is living. I'm collecting boxes and decluttering my house and making lists as if I were moving or something and........
I realize that I am thinking of moving. It's a huge change for me because I've lived in this small town my whole life, but I think I'm ready for something new. New house, new town, new working relationships. Maybe even a new man; I like being a single girl but I am tired of being alone. And a new climate; I'm currently on the dry side of the state and I'd be moving to the rainy side. It's gorgeous there now; it's easy to love Seattle in the summer! But winter is long and gray and rainy over there.
Anyway......I think this is what is making me feel "hungry". The stress at work combined with the stressfull excitement of perhaps moving is making me want to eat. I'm relieved that I have realized that, so now I can arm myself with healthy snacks and ramp up the exercise. It's kinda funny that I've been at this for 7 months now, and it still took me a couple of days to realize that I'm NOT hungry, I'm stressed!