im not sure what is up with me. this week i only lost .8 pounds. when i usually lose 3-4 pounds a week. (i know that .8 is the norm, and 3-4 that i have been getting is freak of nature) However, i cant help but think its becuase of something im doing. yet i just cant bring myself to go to the gym any more then i already do. for example- i said i was going to go today.. i wanted to go..b ut all day it was raining and crappy and i just felt so exhausted and couldnt bring myself to get out of bed. ALL DAY. and ive been feeling like this more and more, and i dont understand.
i want to lose the rest of this weight and i want to get to goal, but i feel so... lazy or something. ive been going ot the gym 3-4 times usually, and i cant help but think, if i go 6 or 7 times maybe ill lose more then .8 pounds.
not to mention everytime i get on the scale its nothing good. also.. ive noticed that when i first get on the scale and see 186.8! i cant believe i weigh that little and im so excited to keep going.. but then three days later i weigh myself the same time of day, in the morning.. ect. and now it says 188.8. i know the scale fluctuates. but i feel im sabotaging myself somehow. and even though i felt so good about my 186 before.. the longer i stay at 186 the worse it feels.
idk what is wrong with me.. this whole thing is just.... really bumming me out. and i think that could have part to do with why i want to lay in bed all day - i like its just not worth it and ill never get there. but im not even sure.