I have seriously lost control. I am obsessed with food. When I was younger I did everything I could to avoid food. Now that I'm a wife & mother of two, I have every excuse in the book about why I need to eat junk. (and lots of it) I spent my teenage and college years trying to cut back every calorie I could. I got pregnant, gained 70lbs, and here I am five years later - overweight (by a lot).
I signed up here awhile ago, got motivated, and didn't come back. I always do well for about a month and then find some excuse to stop (holiday, vacation, stress, etc) and always gain everything back (and more).
I'm tired of struggling with my food & exercise issues.
I get motivated and do great. I eat well and try to exercise. Last year I was doing Couch 2 5K! I got through the nine weeks and was running 3 miles....and then, I just stopped. seriously. just stopped. I've started kettle bell routines, stopped. I've done Walk Away the Pounds and then stopped. I have a gym membership that I'm too ashamed to use.
I look back to all the times I've started my "lifestyle changes" in the past years, and it makes me depressed. How is it that I can go weeks of doing well, slowly losing weight, and then just give it all up???
I want weight loss to be fast. I hate how slow it is.
I'm rambling. I know. I'm just sad. I just needed to type this out. I don't really have anyone to talk to about it. No on understands.
I haven't bought myself new clothes in years because I keep thinking that this next "lifestyle change" will be the one. I will lose the weight and the clothes will go to waste. So, instead I'm embarrassing myself because I'm wearing the same few clothes over and over again.
ugh. I don't know how you all stay motivated. I don't know why I can't.