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my suit of armor was also polished and impenetrable
This was said in another thread by CountingDown, and it makes me think. We all have these suits, I think, to protect us from the world. What I've heard from maintainers on these forums, though, is that there comes a moment when that armour is chinked or outright shattered, and the pain. frustration, anger, whatever emotions we're hiding from get through. When the armour breaks is when the changes come. my suit of armor was also polished and impenetrable
I have realized, as I've said in other posts today, that I'm entirely numb. I'm cut off from everything--I go through my days and yes I have my petty frustrations and my minor joys, but the deep, huge, cumbersome emotions don't get through. I'm so blocked off that I don't really feel anything deeply. I think this needs to change.
The question is, HOW? Once you've learned to cut yourself off from your emotions, how do you open back up? How do you know what to do with them when you're feeling them? To get even more basic than that, how do you identify the feeling in the first place?
This is something I'm thinking about, and I think it holds an important piece of understanding myself and changing who I am and how I live. I want this change, but I don't know how to get it. Any ideas?
How do I actually feel my emotions?