Grrr! Today started out so good. I lost 3 pounds - meeting a mini goal of 30 pounds - and it felt so great!! I was so excited
Then it all went downhill... I started a new job, and it is in the mall. I have two words for you all... Food Court... But I told myself for lunch that I would eat at Subway, drink my water and have an apple. Well, that didn't happen.
The line at Subway was soo long and my break was only a half an hour. I wouldn't have had time to get my sandwich, eat and get back to work. So anyway, what did I have? Pizza. A HUGE piece of pizza. And a small root beer. So not what I needed.
Then I got into a fight with someone very special to me - I mean, it was more like a misunderstanding, but it really upset me. So what did I do?? I turned to food. I went and got a mini bag of honey bbq Fritos, a Mountain Dew, and a Reese's Peanut Butter Cup (in the shape of a Christmas tree) I drank all the soda, ate half the bag of chips, and all of the pb cup. Why?? Because I was upset. Like that isn’t bad enough, I was upset over nothing. We ended up talking it out and it really was no big deal. Yet my eating made it a big deal…
Why do I do this? Why does food have so much control over me? I had been doing so much better. Like I said, I am now down 30 pounds, I can now wear a size 12-14, and I know I look and feel better, yet it still seems that I can’t get the emotional eating thing under control, because for every step forward, it is three steps back.
How do I beat this??