So, I had started a weight loss vlog on youtube... Talking about prior experiences, weight loss issues, disordered eating, etc...
I was excited to think that maybe I would have some visible readers, accountability and a "paper trail" so to speak of my progress....
It wasnt even a day or two that I had them up, I got the most terrible comments, hate mail, threats....
A lot of "You're fat, why should anyone care about what you do or think?!"
and then a lot of other comments supporting those thoughts... emails telling me to "do the world a favor and kill your fat a**", etc...
Needless to say, after having them up for a week or two, hoping for some word of encouragement, and just getting daily emails and comments of hatred of fat people who really think we are just worthless... I started to internalize it all!!! I found myself really thinking "Does everyone look at me and think I am irrevelvant? Is this what people think but won't say to my face? Am I really that awful?" So I ended up deleting my videos completely and giving up on the idea.
Has anyone ever had luck with anything like this?!






It ticks me off to no end that because of pea-brained wingnuts you no longer feel you can have a vlog and your only option is to not have one. It's like somehow, they won.
It's so hard not to take what they spew personally. It amazes me how small minded some people are. Perhaps there are other venues similar to a vlog that you could explore. Nice to know that here no one will treat you that way.