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I'm just tired of watching what I eat, and not indulging myself whenever I feel like it. I'm tired of exercising when I don't feel like it. I'm just tired.
I think we all hit those times. One thing to think about ... and this is kind of a mantra of mine ... is that there are *tons* of things in everyone's life that we don't want to do or that we're tired of.
I'm tired of getting up every single morning and going to work. Honestly, I'd much rather sleep until noon (especially on rainy, gray mornings like this) and then get up and have a leisurely breakfast and hit the gym, and *then* go to work.
I'm tired of paying bills. It SUCKS to have a nice, comfy bank balance and then watch it dwindle down to nothing as I pay the car payment, the electric bill (which is outrageous this month), the gas bill, buy groceries, etc. I'm especially tired of having to pay these things and not have money left for getting a massage or buying those cute boots I want or going on vacation (see above about sleeping in!

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I'm tired of paperwork. Running your own business sucks sometimes. I just want to take my camera and shoot, but nooooo .... I have to figure out and pay my sales tax for the month. I have to file all those travel receipts from my trip to Denver 2 weeks ago (and I have to call the hotel and get them to fax me my folio, which doesn't match my credit card charge). I have to spend several hours doing crap paperwork to make sure my business is solvent.
I'm *really* f'in tired of doing dishes. It seems like every time I turn around there are dirty dishes in the sink, crumbs on the counter, and the kitchen floors look like something exploded all over them. I haven't even cooked that much this past week and it still looks like the Mongol Hordes came through. ARGH. I hate dishes and cleaning the kitchen!!!
The thing is ... being an adult means doing things that we don't want to do. It's the sad but true fact.

It means paying bills, getting up in the morning, taking care of kids if you have them, not spending your electric bill money on cute shoes and trips to Key West, doing the dishes and laundry, etc., etc.
To me, eating right, not indulging myself whenever I feel like it (foodwise or otherwise), and going to the gym is no different. It's not a choice I make any more. There is no "should I" when it comes to taking care of myself. It just *is* ... it's something I do because I'm an adult and it's the adult responsible thing to do.
And yeah, sometimes I'm TIRED of it. This past week especially has been really hard on me for some personal reasons (end of a cherished friendship, issues relating to my divorce, etc.), and I have been tired of life. But you get up every morning and you carry on ... and you do all these things - not because you *want* to but because the alternative sucks.
So hang in there. Eating right, exercising, and all of that ... it's all part of life. Sometimes it's fun. Sometimes it's not. But it's necessary and we do it just like we pay bills and brush our teeth and do the dishes.
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