Hi...
The last 6 weeks have been tough for me. Waking up exhausted with pain and dramatic swelling in my knees, ankles, feet and wrists everyday finally got me to the doctor. He did bloodwork and certain tests strongly suggest Lupus, Rheumatoid Arthritis or 'other' auto-immune or connective tissue disease and sent me to a Rheumatologist Needless to say, I was devastated. And within a few days my program was showing signs of weakening, I was slipping... I was going to work, coming home so tired and in pain, climbing on the couch with ice bags and going to sleep for hours...
I was angry at the world... because I had just started to get into a good program that I was positive about, I was exercising and not whining about it... And NOW this ! The next several weeks are going consist of medical appts... so they can figure this out, I hate being a patient !
To make a long story kinda short...... I am back to most of my old habits... I continue to eat OFF program, trying to convince myself that I can have the no sugar added ice cream and baked potato chips... I know I can, but not the whole container or bag.. I've have gained 8 pounds back... I am a mess... The ONE thing I did manage to hang on to and stay true to; is this site... I am in here a lot !! and I swear it has saved me from going right back to ALL my old habits... I just keep reading and reading...
Yesterday I woke up 'just knowing' I needed to stop the madness.. I must chose to get a strong body, a weak body will only make symptoms worse.. I felt strongly that I should try a more structured plan (currently counting cals).. (It was like taking your glasses off to clean them and saying to yourself, Geez, how was I seeing through those) Today I went to the library and picked up Fat Smasher book and started reading... Then read all I could here, and on-line.. I'm going to try it... I want to do this... I feel good about my decision and I'm going for it ! I'm hoping it will help with symptoms and give me some energy back so I can get moving again...
WISH ME LUCK !! Thanks for reading...
The smashing starts Friday !!