We all know what denial is about--many of us were in denial before we started actively trying to lose weight, eat healthier, exercise, be healthier. So, some denial must fall away before beginning this journey, since it can't truly be undertaken without honestly facing the truth and owning up to the fact that changes need to be made.
But, I find that pockets of denial continue in my efforts, and mess me up. Currently I have two areas of denial, where I can see the truth, but I'm actually feeling very negative about the changes I think (from an honest evaluation) that I really need to make:
1. I'm not getting enough sleep on a regular basis. Getting enough sleep requires that I go to bed and actually fall asleep about 2 hours before I want to, and before the time that's natural for me to do so (I'm a super-super night person). I hate this fact. I hate it, I resent it, I loathe it. I try to squirm out of it. But trying to escape it doesn't change it. Not getting enough sleep sabotages my weight-loss and health efforts, and isn't good for my work or life performance, either. Sure, I'm doing better than I was doing 3 or 6 months ago, but I'm still not doing well enough.
2. I think I'm overeating on things that are "allowed" on my food plans, but which I truthfully know really are not great things for me personally. Just because dark chocolate is a Superfood and it's allowed on South Beach doesn't mean that -I- should have it as often as I am. I'm resentful about this right now--so resentful that just the thought of using cocoa powder instead of dark chocolate itself is annoying me. I could switch to cocoa powder in my treats instead of the dark chocolate and therefore avoid the associated fat and sugar, but dangit I DON'T WANT TO! *foot stomp*
Anyone else want to share things they are currently in denial about?