Hi, I have to reach out tonight because I am having a really bad week and I'm afraid I'm going to give up.. I so desparately need an attitude adjustment ... I'm doing ok with food/exercise, I'm finding it way too hard to stay OP all day, but... I have... Throughout the day I'm always thinking that this is way too hard... I don't want to do this anymore, It's a heck of a lot easier just to eat and hide from life. But...I haven't given in... yet
On prior attempts to change my lifestyle, once I got going.. (7-10 days or so) I would coast along for months OP, without all this turmoil... then I would hit the 'ONEderland' freak out, and eat my way back to huge.. (that's a discussion for another day) During the last few weeks everytime I found myself reaching for non-plan foods Its been because I was thinking that I have to do 'this' for the rest of my life... I can't, I just can't..
I used to be able to apply a few 12-step notions such as 'just for today', or 'one day at a time' but that's not working for me right now... I've been reading the posts for the last couple of weeks and have gained strength and inspiration, and that's not working for me right now....... I need to fight to change my train of thought because I'm afraid if I stop now, I'll never try again...