i've been thinking about this the last couple of days. not really sure how to describe it even. i'll try to keep it short though.
i've lost about 19lbs since i started in october (i've been on again off again with my diet/exercise since the holidays and i'm "on again" right now). i can see a difference when i look in the mirror and have had a few nice comments from people noticing my weight loss. my problem is that when i look in the mirror and see the difference, i still don't like what i see.
i always thought i had low self-esteem because i was fat. but what if i lose weight and still feel bad about myself and hate the way i look? i try really hard to see the beauty in myself despite my physical appearance. but i can't shake this feeling that i'll still hate my body once i reach my goal.
anyone else have feelings like this? any thoughts/ideas for dealing with it?