I've been at this point in my lifestyle change so many times I can't count. It's really getting annoying. I eat really well and then comes two days of eating poorly and before I know it, it's a week later and I'm still off track and hating myself. It takes me a couple of weeks after the initial few days of eating unhealthy to get back on track. I get so angry at myself and I know that doesn't help because why do I overeat? One reason is when I am.....angry!
What is the definition of insanity according to 12-step programs? I think it is: "Doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results." I think in my mind, I believe that a few days eating off track won't kill me, but I think what happens is that I get down on myself for being off track for more than one meal and it spirals from there. I am off track right now, but see no end in sight for at least until after Christmas because tomorrow night, we have planned to have my sister-in-law over for lasagna (and I can't change that because she knows it) and then there is Christmas. The saving grace is that on Christmas, we are going to be at her house and I don't plan on bringing leftovers home.
I am totally happy with my eating plan; I calorie count and eat one bad meal a week, but it's a slippery slope into eating madness for me. Specifically, it's eating out that is bad...I can't eat out and eat healthy...when I go, ordering a salad or steamed veggies just doesn't sound appealing to me. Can you guys think of anything I can do about this? I have acid reflux too, so my stomach has been killing me lately. It was so bad yesterday that I had to eat chicken noodle soup for the lack of irritants.
Starting today, I am going to start weighing myself again (I do it every day for a week and then average out the numbers so I can get a realistic weight regardless of the fluctuations) and tracking my food in Fitday. I have planned good meals for today. Tomorrow, I am going to have salad before I attack that lasagna and hope that I can have a smaller portion of it. No bread.
I am starting to lose motivation because I've been doing this for so long and mess up over and over. The good thing, which I am happy about, is that I don't give up when I do this, I get back on track but it takes so long.
Any words of encouragement would be appreciated much, thank you all for the support you've given me so far.