...that you KNEW you needed to change and you WANTED to change and you actually stuck with it?
I've had lots of moments that I "woke up" and said, "yes, today I am changing and I will be different!" but they've never really stuck long term.
I just saw a picture of myself from my friend's engagement party. OMG I look TERRIBLE! I've never looked so bad! I was shocked to see it. I was disgusted. I was horrified. I couldn't look away. It was like a TRAIN WRECK.
Earlier today (before seeing the pics) I bought a couple sets of dumbbells, a medicine ball and a stability ball. I guess seeing those pics (and imagining myself in my bridesmaid's dress in January) made me.. I dunno. I never thought I looked like THAT. But I do. And I'm upset.
I'm hoping that this OMG!!!! moment will stick with me forever. I don't want to be the fat girl. I want to be myself again. I want to prove to everyone that I CAN be thin. No one ever believes that I ever WAS thin. But I was. And I want to be thin and healthy again so I can feel proud of myself.

Hang in there! One day at a time! 
I asked myself out loud, "When will I have had enough?" And the answer was never. I knew if I didn't make some changes, I would end up dead, and I am serious. 
