That is basically what I said to my potential date. Here goes...
I don't think I deserve bad treatment or anything of that nature but I don't neccessarily expect great so I stick it out alone.
Anywho, in a time of boredom and lonliness, I joined a singles website. I had thought about joining a site for plus size women BUT I am a Christian and after the "trial" offer many of the men did not put faith as a high priority. So, here I go and join the Christian singles site.
I couldnt put up my picture so whoever responded was taking a chance. Well, I started emailing and finally chatting over the phone with this fellow. He wants to "get to know me better" blah blah blah. Later he said "I don't care how you look" Finally, I said I would send a pic. BUT before I hang up the phone, I go into a ten minute apology for how I look. I reminded him that I was "chubby" (which I had said previous to this convo). We know I am NOT chubby...I'm fat. Anywho, I talked all over myself and made a complete fool of myself. Now, I didn't say I was sorry that I was fat BUT I might as well have. I kept saying that I was on a diet and trying to better myself. He kept telling me he liked me and didnt care...Yeah right!!
I sent the pic a couple days after that convo and it has been a couple days since sending the pic that we haven't talked. Enough time to feel like fool.
This is one of the reasons that I wanted to wait (until a 16) to date. Sometimes, I think I am good enough and have confidence so I hold my head up high and etc and then other times....I act a fool like this!
Maybe I should have joined the other site because right off the guy knows what he is getting and I know that he likes it...
BTW: IRL guys have tried to flirt with me but I am sooooo shy that I shun them, so internet dating is probably best for me.
Wow, this is so personal...but I knew I had to share it with you guys.
Sorry for the long rant!