I'm very new here, but so grateful to have found such a supportive place
I'm a real newbie, and haven't had much chance yet to settle in and participate - but I could really use some advice. I'm in the very early stages of getting started on losing over 100 pounds, and just decided on a direction for myself. I am determined to succeed, no matter what - but would like some advice on how to NOT let other stress derail weight loss efforts.
The thing is, my mom is incredibly ill. She has just been placed in a hospice program - we don't yet know the full details of her prognosis, but we know that the news isn't good, and I'm trying to come to terms with this the best I can. I know that some people would shake their heads that I'm trying to lose weight at a time like this, and it's hard to explain - but I know in my heart that just because she is so ill isn't an excuse for me to stop even attempting to take care of myself. If anything, maybe it's a reason - heart disease and cancer is in my family history. I have a child, and need to be as healthy as I can be, and - at the end of the day - I'd also like there to be a chance that my mom will see me finally achieving some success at this, and making a good start to a hopefully longer, healthier life. Deep down, I know my ability to cope will be greater if I'm doing things to take care of myself.
That's the logical, rational part of me.
The scared little girl part of me just wants to cry, scream, hide under the covers all day and eat nothing but whatever might make me feel better. Right now, I don't feel that I'm in danger of allowing myself to do that - but it's a strong day for me, and it's the weak days that I'm worried about. This means too much to me, and I don't want what's going on with my mom to be an excuse for me to give up on myself - but I am scared about how I'll deal with the really bad days, and would like to get some ideas of ways to cope that don't involve food.
I don't mean to be such a downer after only a couple of posts here, but could really use some advice from anyone who knows where I'm coming from, or has any ideas to share.