Good mornig to all.The weekend has begun and isn't it great?After having to work swing shifts for so many years I enjoy the weekends so much.
I am sorry I have not been very encouraging to anyone but It is hard when you are doing as badly as I am.Everyday lately has been a "Starting over day for me" I know many of you know exactly what I am talking about.
It is hard to come here when a person is down in the dumps because we don't want to put a dampr on things for those that are doing good.Plus I think we want to wallor in our own self pity for awhile.That is just human nature.
I come here everyday and try to at least say hello.I have made some friendships here that I think will always remain with me.Friendships that I did not think could be made long distance.Boy was I wrong.I now have "adopted daughters" that I worry about just as much as my birth daughters.And I have sisters that are closer in some ways than my own sisters (except for my oldest sister who has always been like a 2nd Mother to me and who I adore altho I fail to tell her that sometimes)
So you will have to continue to put up with me.
Know that I am here for any of you if you need me.I just am not very good company these days.
Sorry this is so long but hay it let me practice my typing.Now if I could do it without looking that would probably be much better.
Hope everyone is having a good weekend.Those of you like Summer in the mountains stay warm.Those like me stay cool
Thinking of you everyday.

Wow, that's me protecting my eyes from the reflection off of the snow!!!! There was about an inch on the grass and it still hasn't all gone away. The highest today has been 30 and I don't think there's hope for anything higher. I'm at 10,000ft and I've heard some lower elevations got more than us, so I best not complain. Bring on the Indian Summer any time!!!

Had to use the clothes dryer today and I love to hang outdoors. That was a bummer to have to do that so early in the year. Just let the dog in and haven't missed the balls hanging from the fur either. Our friends get a kick out of how we wipe her feet each time she comes in. Hey, it keeps the carpet cleaner.

Eleni, I love the angel you attached!!! I'm right along with you on the eating thing. Wish I could be with you soaking up some of the warm sun!!!!

True Confession time: There is just myself and daughter at home this weekend and I was absolutely HORRIBLE yesterday. Had a total carb pig out...carton of ice cream, pan of brownies, flour tortillas and cheese. No protein at all other than the little in cheese, but the fat in that cancels that out, sort of. No veggies!!!! Today isn't much better. It's like there is no one around to see what I am doing so I'm going to eat whatever I want and not care. Isn't that awful????!!!!!!?????? Wish my daughter could yell at me, but she can't.....wow, that just hit me...[sob].... {she is severely disabled for those that don't know}

OK, enough of that. This is turning out to be a sad day and it shouldn't be. It is the start of a new weekend and there won't be too many summer ones left.

Hope everyone else has a better day than me. I am going to have some chicken and that should help curtail the sweet tooth. Take care

TOPS Hugs,
Summer

Hi All,

I am back finally. But not doing good with the weight thing. I weigh more now then I did when I started tops last november. That isn't good. I pigged out at the buffet last night and tonight. That is over now. I am ready to get down to business and get back to me. I haven't been there in a long time.

Me and my husband have had our hands full with his mom and getting things settled for her. She was in the hospital for a week and we or should I say I had to arrange for a visiting nurse and a home health aid for her. Plus the whole family got together last weekend and cleaned her whole house for her from top to bottom. We took out 2 truck loads of garbage. So we did a lot of work. That is why I haven't been here. I have been busy with that situation. She is doing great now. But resisting the help but she was told by the family that she doesn't have a choice. At least the whole family is behind this idea this time. We tried this approach a year ago and it was only my husband and one brother. So it didn't work. There are 9 altogether in his family so they were out numbered. She had mini strokes and a sugar attack because she was bleeding internally.


I have not worked now in 4 weeks. My boss has been very good about the situation. But I am getting back to my routine starting tomorrow and I am not answering the phone during the day anymore so I can get some work done and get a paycheck again. That will be nice let me tell you.LOL It is just that I get calls all day long about the situation and they expect me to work miracles and fix everything. Hey people I am only one person I would like to scream to them.LOL So I will let the answering machine pick up and let john (my husband) deal with it from now on when he gets home from work.

I spent today cleaning my own house. It is filthy I haven't had a chance to do any heavy cleaning so it had to be done. I figure I would get my house in order first and get caught up on the laundry which I did all day today then concentrate on me again.

I am starting over again tomorrow. Just like you eleni.

Eleni,

I know you are struggling also with staying on track. We just have to make up our minds to do this. Tomorrow is the day for me. I am sick of putting it off. I am getting bigger everyday and I am back in my size 18's and nothing fits. So it is time to get serious again now that summer is over and get to my goal once and for all. I know you can do this we all can with support from one another. Pick up your chin and smile and start tomorrow fresh. I am with you and we can do this. Sorry I couldn't talk the other day when you called. Johns brother just came in and the doctors were calling all day long that day. I wish I had a chance to talk longer. But next time I promise. I have to get another phone card but it won't be until thursday now. You have what it takes and you can do this. Let your husband help you.

Summer,

Thank you for the call today. It really meant a lot to me. It felt good knowing that there are others out there struggling like myself with the weight. But you sacrificed a lot to get to your kops status and I know you can keep it. You just have to get back on track and get on the low end of your leeway so you are not having a heartattack everyweek wondering how you are doing. You can do this I know you can. With all the stress in your life and you can acheive kops you can sure maintain it girl. You need to start dating richard again and get back on your bike. Like you told penny before get off your butt and get moving and drink your water. I have to start drinking my water again tomorrow also.

Christie,

Girl what can I say 1/2 # is nothing. It could be water. You can get that back off again. You have to get back to basics again yourself. Join me and I will start my WW tomorrow and you have to get back to somersizing. You know it works for you so you should get back to it. Then you can get to the low end of your range and get where you really want to be and not have to stress everyweek either. I know you can do this. I can't even get to kops and you did. So I know you have what it takes. You worked too hard just like summer and you guys can't lose status now. Start getting tough with yourself and do this and you will be happy in the end.

Penny,

How is the house building coming along. I can't wait for you to get your computer up and running again in your new house so we can chat again. I sure do miss you girl. I hope all is well. Email sometime. I let you down because I didn't get back on track like I was going to but my butt is going to get moving tomorrow for sure. I am ready to shed these pounds and get smaller and happier and healthier.

Angel,

Thanks for thinking of me. Yes we had a great time on vacation and it was killing me to be without a computer let me tell you. I felt like my life was put on hold and I couldn't talk to anyone. Thankfully I met eleni which is a great person and had some other numbers so I could call people. My 3 year old daughter learned to swim without her floaties while in florida. She loved it so much she cried to stay. She didn't want to come home.

She started preschool on thursday. She had a great time. I just have to get used to the routine and remember to go pick her up.LOL It is new for me also to drop her off and have to go back and pick her up. She is only away from me once a week usually except for last week. Then she wasn't with us much while we were taking care of things with johns mom.

Hey someone was right. I had a talk with my husand before we came home from florida and told him that he had to start supporting me with my diet. That he couldn't keep forcing food on me. I don't think he realized that he was doing it. He said I don't do that and I said yes you do. So he even did the hollywood 48 hour diet with me. He lost 10 lbs and I lost 6 lbs. So we are going to do it once a week like they suggest and I will do WW for the other days. Then I am sure to make it to goal. I just have to get back to doing everything. I have been terrible and I know it. The show is over and it is time to get down to business. I know I can do this and so can't the rest of you.

I am going to go for now. I have missed a lot and don't know what is going on with everyone and I don't have the time to read all the past posts. So bare with me. I am looking forward to getting to know all the new people here.

I am going to start trying to post on a regular basis again. That is what helps me the most.

Have a great night everyone and it is so good to be back.

Sherri