Monica, if it is meant to be, then all will work out. I can't believe the nerve of some people and the offers they are willing to lay out on the table. I'm glad you didn't accept...sending good house selling vibes your way!
School started here last week. Since the first day of school, it has felt like Fall and we are having rain showers almost every day! This is a welcome relief from the past few months.

Gayle, Gayle, Gayle, thank you for your concern about me in your post. You know that I wouldn’t desert you all without good reason.

Where to begin………..it is a long sad story but I will give you the short version.

A couple of weeks ago we got a call from Dez at 4:00 in the morning. I hate those calls. She was crying and needed our help. She didn’t know who else to call and what to do. She was having a melt down. It started at work where she was having a hard time to think and then talk. By the time we picked her up to go to Emergency she couldn’t even walk properly. It was like she was drunk or stoned but she wasn’t. She said that she felt like killing herself but didn’t want to do it. She had a really tough week and I think losing her friend a month ago has been really hard on her.
Once we were at Emergency they didn’t see her til 8:30. Man that is way to long to wait. I couldn’t sit that long because my back was sore so Larry drove me home and headed back there. I got the call at 10:30 that Larry was taking Dez to a half way house. I just started to shake and couldn’t even phantom that we are going through this again with her. I know that she has had depression problems since her hospitalization but I just wished that it could be fixed. A half way house is a house that is staffed with nurses. There is therapy once to twice a day. They kept her on suicide watch for the first while.
Larry and I have been busy visiting her and trying to clean up her apartment and do some renos there for her. It was very dark in the hall, living room and kitchen. We changed the lights, I did the laundry. We put up some blinds. Through out her food that was going moldy. Tended her zoo of animals. She has two kittens a hamster and some fish. She certainly had us running.
She decided after awhile that she didn’t like it there and it just made her angry so she wanted to go home. I couldn’t believe but actually I can she doesn’t like authority and they had a lot of rules she didn’t want to follow.
Now she is home and we are trying to be there for her as much as possible. I think that she is planning on quitting the casino and finding a job closer. She will keep her other full time job that is if they still want her. She was supposed to go back to work today and they didn’t put her on the schedule for any of the days this week. So who knows if she has a job.
She is physically better but still has problems with her memory. She will need a lot of counseling. There is a wait list of six weeks before she will start.

It doesn’t end there Larry is having stress related problems at work and the doctor wants him to take time off of work. We are coming and going trying to decide what is the best to do. He is so loyal to his job he doesn’t put himself first. He is burning out and has a hard time to sleep and think. He can’t even make small decisions right now. He needs a lot more help in his department at work. He has told them but they haven’t followed through with many of his requests. So who knows where this will lead. He may take the leave starting tomorrow. He has a meeting tonight with someone that he worked with that is going to give him advice. The one big thing with taking the time is that Larry is afraid he may lose his job. I told him that I am adaptable and that I could live off $30000 so he can pump gas for all I care.
Well I better go I love you all.

Thanks Gayle!

Glad to hear back from you Dee. I knew something was going on...not like you to post and keep us updated. Give Dez a hug from me, ok? She is back at the apartment? Were they able to give her medication for her depression? I hope all works out for her, I am sending prayers. Keep us informed.
I agree with the doc. Larry needs some rest and time away from the job. If he keeps burning the candle at both ends, he will have a melt down like Dez. Plus the added stress of Dez's situation has to be weighing him down also. You guys have alot going on right now, know I am thinking of you and if you need anything at all, let me know.

Love, Gayle

Dee - I hope Dez is feeling better. This world is so hard on the kids, there is a lot of pressure. I take medication for depression and it makes a big difference. Hope all is okay. Poor Larry, sometimes the pressure just isn't worth it.
We missed you are knew something must be wrong.
We are there for you, just as you are always there for us.
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Oh my goodness Dee! You all have been through so much the past few weeks. I'm so sorry all this had to happen. I'll be keeping you all in my prayers...especially Dez. Please keep us posted on how things are going. :hug:

I've been quite the little (ahem....big) piggy these past couple of weeks. (except this past week) I'd get that big bad cheeseburger and exercise but I wasn't getting anywhere. Then my boyfriend (who is a truckdriver whom I rarely see but give him a progress report on my fat loss) asked me how much I lost that week and that kinda woke me up. I told him I ate whatever the heckies I wanted. Of course he loves me no matter what I look like but he knows how badly I wanted to lose this weight. He wasn't disappointed but he knew I would be in myself once I got the cheeseburgers out of my mind.

So I read my list again and saw my alternative which was to keep getting fatter and that was it. I was back on the wagon (or off the wagon - forget) and for the past week I've been working my fat arse off!!!! Billy's Boot Camp every other day, stretching, cardio and ellyptical on the off days with one day of rest. I ate right - high protein, low fat and I lost 3 lbs. AND....all this during my 'happy-time'. (ladies, you know what I mean!)

So today, I feel pretty! :carrot:

Glad you are back Carol! We all derail....the important thing is to get right back on track.

My Dearest Dee, I am sending prayers your way that Dez gets back on track again. Have you thought about letting her come home for a bit, or would that be too much on both you and Larry? I know what a tough time you have had over the years. Please email me if you need anything or just want to talk. I love you! I do think Larry needs the rest, too!

Carol-Glad you're back.

Gayle-Sorry I haven't been around. Becky is leaving today! Things will never be the same. I know you, Dee, Suzy, Debbi, Sherry and Vicki have all been through it, but it's very hard when it happens to you. I am so sad today. We'll be going up on Fri with the rest of her things.

Love to you all.

Gayle ~ Boogie, boogie, boogie! :carrot: :cb: :dance: :dancer:

Carol ~ Welcome back and congratulations on the 3 pounds lost! :carrot:

Shelley ~ My thoughts are with you today! :hug:

Shelley {{{HUGS}}} Liz still lives here at home so I haven't had to suffer yet of a child leaving home. The way it looks, she will be here way into her 40's....LOL! I am thinking of you over the next few weeks. LOVE!

Suzy, your one hot little boogie, boogie mama! Keep up the great weight loss!

Good Afternoon All,

Dee - Glad to see you are alright, I too was worried about you !!! Your husband needs to listen to his doctor, that's what they went to school for. The company never cares about GOOD employee's as long as they are doing more then their share. I hope he follows his doctor's advice. I am not sure who DEZ is but I am guessing she is your daughter. I am sending prayers to all of you.

Carol - WTG on the 3 lbs. Keep going we all know you can and wll do it.

Shelley - I have been through a daughter leaving 4 times and each one was harder. Now my oldest granddaughter (she lived with me for her first 4 yrs ) is off to college. I think I miss her more then my own, mostly because even in high school she was here almost every week for something. It's hard to let them go, but remember they NEVER really leave us, they are just growing and isn't that what we want for them. The first time she comes home for a week-end it will be like she never left. Good Luck.

That couple that made that crazy offer on the house, called and made a new offer today, don't know what it is but told my agent to hold off showing it to me for a day or so because I have another showing tonight at 6:30. I know the right person will come along. I have made up my mind that if it is to be,,,,the house will sell, if not I just hope to get some of my $30M back on the house I am building.

Hope all the rest of you are doing well, been to the gym 3 times this week, think I might take tomorrow morning off and just walk the streets.

Monica

P.S. We Are getting really long again,,,,,we miss are LEADER, hope she had a GREAT vacation.

YEP, where the heck is Cheryl? Off running around yet? No time for us girls? Get your little rattlesnake eat'n *** back here and start a new thread young lady! {{{SMILES}}}

Good luck on the showing Monica. I am a firm believer in everything will work out as it should.

I am a TV star! I will be on the local news tonight! It is a story about selling liquor to underage minors. We have had a couple sting operations and the store has passed with flying colors. We have checked ID's and caught all of them. The news came in today and wanted to do a story about the good stores who actually do catch and won't sell to under age drinkers. You might not recognize me though...his best shot was the one of my butt as I waited on a drive through customer. I also asked him if he could edit 30 pounds off...we'll see...

You girls are the best. I knew that you would understand. Larry is still at work and of course putting in more time than he should be.

Gayle you are too funny. Little miss movie star.

Monica you are right Dez is my 20 year old daughter. She has been through a lot in the last five years. From date rape to suicide atemps and drugs. I just ach for her.

Shelley I am sending a big hug your way. I was really sad when Jay left dispite how we would fight.

Suzy I bet you are not wanting to count the days til Travis leaves. I know that has to be hard. Thanks for the support.

Janice is it still hot over there? Our evenings are cooling down but the days are pleasent. Thanks for being there for me.

I know I am forgetting a bunch of you but I am thinking of you. I have to run. It is Larry's birthday today so I am having a steak dinner with the kids. I have to go get it ready.

Love to you all.

Shelley - It will all be okay. They have to spread those wings and fly. I am lucky Amanda only flew to the house next door. You are in my thoughts and prayers.
YEsterday I was watching the birds at the birdfeeder and noticed a very large hawk sitting on the fence. I thought that was really strange as we live in town. Then he swooped down on the bird feeder and took one of the little birds that was eating. I was devastated. I love watching the birds and squirrels and didn't know I was creating a feeding ground for other predators.
Dee- I hope things are better today for you, Larry has to take it easier. I know its hard to do but hopefully he will see that it is taking a toll on him.
Welllll , I went to weigh in today. I haven't gone in four weeks as I have been in binge mode. I gained 10 pounds back over that four weeks. I changed my ticker and now I'm back to fourteen to lose instead of four.
My arthritis is really bad right now and my whole body is inflammed. I can hardly move my hands or bend my knees. I felt good for a couple of months and forgot how bad it can be. My rhuematogist (spelling) is on holidays for the past couple of weeks so I couldn't get in until next Wednesday for a cortisone shot. Guess I will you suffer it out until then.
When it started to flare I started to eat and now looked what happened.
Oh well enough whining, I am trying to get back on track and lose this weight once and for all.
Suzy - How are you doing. Staying away from the cookies and ice-cream?
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