Everyone is doing so well that I hate to burst bubbles, but I'm so down now and I really need you.
My hubby almost killed himself Tues. He called me to say goodbye, kissed Ashley goodbye, and emailed his best friend to say goodbye. That is what caused my bp to skyrocket. If my vice principal hadn't called him to tell him that they were taking me to the doctor, he would've succeeded.
There's so much pain for him that he feels he can't handle it. I'm such a wreck and very grateful that the doctor put me off work for several days. I have to take the anxiety pills twice a day and I still can cry at the drop of a hat and keep it going for an hour or more.
My hubby moved out yesterday and is staying with a good friend of his who can keep an eye on him. (His friend is on disability and doesn't work so he told me he can watch him). Hubby is calling a counselor tomorrow to try to get the help he needs. Ashley doesn't know anything about what is going on. I'm going to talk to the counselor at her school tomorrow so they can keep an eye on her and watch for any change in behavior.
Again, I'm sorry to bring everyone down, but I so needed to talk to you.
Thanks for listening. I'm going to go have a really good cry.

Cal

Oh, gosh, cal, I'm so sorry! Whatever brought this on? Perhaps there are problems you don't know about. Perhaps it is body chemistry, as in severe depression. Wow, I don't know what to say other than I feel your pain. But, also, despite the pain of having this happen, try to find a bit of solace in the fact that you have caught it BEFORE it was too late. I'm sure you'll be able to get through this. Hang in there and strength to you, girl.

Cal, I wish I could be with you right now and just give you a comforting hug. Were there signs before his attempt? I'm so glad that he was caught in time. Oh my gosh, I don't know what you're going through but I know it must be ****. I'm so sorry you have to feel this way, and I'm sorry about Alberto having to feel this way as well. I hope he finds the help he needs for both yours, his and Ashley's sake. I wish you and your family God's blessings. Hang in there ok?

Oh my god Cal, I am so sorry. I am glad the principal called him before it was too late and you can get him the help he needs. I dont even know what to say but I want you to know that we all love you and will be here to listen and try to help the best we can.

Oh Oh Oh, Cal. Thank heavens he was stopped before he went through it. Depression is a very painful thing to endure and to see in your loved ones. Hang in there girl... and be sure to keep your blood pressure down - your family needs you too

TGIF Ladies...

Cal, how are you doing today? I don't know what kind of words to offer you other than we are here if you need us. Vent away. I really wish I could sit with you and have a cup of tea or coffee...and just have some girl talk. I know all of us would like to rally around you right now.

I spent my morning waiting for the cable repairman. They came last week and worked on the upstairs system (which is separate from mine downstairs), but apparently they disconnected my cable for the TV... I'm up and running again so I can lay in bed and watch my netflix DVD's all weekend again. My ankle turned up swollen yesterday, I can't flex it upward? I haven't been able to go walking since yesterday. I don't want to aggravate it...good grief--if it's not my heel, it's my knee....then my ankle....will it ever end? I feel so old and rickety.

Rick called from Vegas this morning and said when they landed it was 38 degrees I told him not to complain since he was on vacation!

Anywho, not planning much except rest and relaxtion. Oh, and taking Michael to a fitness expo, their karate club has a booth and they will be doing demonstrations to try and recruit new members.

Hope you all have a peaceful weekend.

Cal I am so so sorry. I wish I had the right words to say. I want you to know I am praying for you and hoping the best for you, Ashley and your husband. Please know we are all here for you.

Cal- My heart is breaking for you, Love. It's times like these that I hate the physical distance between all of us as we are all wishing we couldn rush right over and surround you in one big loving embrace and tell you that it will be okay and we are here for you. But for now this is our big hugging place and you can come in and tell us whatever is on your mind. Goodness knows you've been an ear for us to rant into and a shoulder for us to cry on. I really don't know what I can say directly to this type of situation as I am neither married nor a parent but I am your friend and I want you to know that you can connect with me right here in this room. I thank goodness that your husband was stopped before it was too late.(devine intervention, maybe ) We are all thinking of you today and hope things are on the way back up. Luv you, Babes.

By the way...


Surfdreams- Let me give you a formal hello and welcome to the forum. Look forward to chatting with you!

Okay one more thing....

Very briefly, I am a 24 years old (the baby of the bunch ) I am an army vet, a full-time college student and full time employee at The Home Depot.No hubby no kids just a pup named Niko. Okay, going to bed now!

KEMPY- I am going to pretend I didn't see what you wrote about frequently visiting Lowes.com

Good morning ladies. Hope you're having a good Saturday. We are celebrating my dad's 73rd b-day at Buca diBeppo today, I'm looking forward to eating some Linguine Fruitt di mare, my favorite I went for a short walk this morning, my ankle is still a bit swollen but held up ok. I may try it again this afternoon. We may go to see the movie Eight Below tonight. I hope Rick is enjoying Vegas right now....gosh, I wish I was there too Michael did great at his karate exhibition last night. It was fun to watch and I got to walk around the health fair too--checking out all the cool new running gadgets (heart rate monitors etc). The Great Aloha Run is on Monday and I was supposed to enter...but my knee was iffy and now this stupid ankle. Well, maybe next year for sure!

Cal, if you're reading this, know that we're thinking about you. I hope you are feeling on a more even keel today. Sending good vibes to ya :

Hi Dips, glad to see you back. Are you working this weekend? How's the pup Niko?

Hi to everyone. the never ending laundry is calling me. Gotta run. have a good one.

I wanted to thank everyone for your wonderful words of support and encouragement. My emotions are on such a rollercoaster right now...and I don't even like rollercoasters!!
Just wanted to let everyone know also that I'm still an emotional wreck, but I do try to check in and keep up with everyone. I'm supposed to go back to work on Tuesday, but I may ask the doctor for a few more days. I'm afraid that if anyone asks me how I'm doing, I may lose it again. Even with the anxiety pills every day, I still cry so easily.
I love you all and thank you again for your support.

Cal

Hi Cal... just take it one day at a time and things will look brighter. I would definitely ask for a few more days off as a medical necessity, take the time you need for yourself.

I just realized why no one may be around...they are all hunkered down in that crazy wintry weather that's going across the nation. I'm sending out some rays to you guys to heat things up

Hope you're all safe, warm and out of the cold. Hopefully the sun comes out for y'all. Take care!

Got the monday blues today but who doesn't. Got a full house as my 4 sisters and a cousin are spendidng the week at my place. Ages 11-17. At any rate, Niko is having loads of fun with all the company.

Noelle- those rays you sent must be held up in the mail because it is 29 degrees in NYC. BRRRRRRRRR. I can't stand it. I swear there is no eveidence of last week's blizard. The 2 days following brought us 58 degree weather. Then in the days following that the temp droped to the low 20s and we been here ever since. No wonder everyone is sick. We don't knwo what season it is one day to the next.

Cal- Keep your head up, preacious. Things will get better. I'm still thinking of you and I'm hoping for the best.


My weight is going up and down like you would not believe but it is going down still so it's all good. I'm down to the last month before my vacation to South Beach and I'm almost ready! More on this later...

Thanks for the welcome Dips n Twists

Hey Cal - My heart goes out to you

I hooked up today with an old friend. She asked me why I didn't attend her wedding -and I fessed up = I was too embarassed that I had gained so much weight.

I also have the Monday blues!