Yesterday really threw me.

I'm trying to get on top of things again...but it's not working today. Maybe tomorrow? Seem to be saying that everyday just now.

If I am not sleeping the hours away today, I am picking at crap food.

No exercise, no water, crap food! Yup, that makes everything better right? Why do we think that way?

Sorry I've been such a misery guts ladies. I am trying to snap out of it...I promise.

Lindor,

Thats what we are here for, so we can support each other in our best and worst times. You will get there, and we are here for you all the way.

I went for 2 walks today one for about 20 minutes to the shops and another down at the river, zigzaging up a hill and down again. At the bottom I went to check my pedometer and it said 33 steps. I had accidently reset the pedometer and have no idea how many steps I've taken today.

Kathy

Hey Lindor,

I know we are on totally different journeys, but I think I can empathise with a run of seriously bad days. I used to be the kind of person that would 'self destruct', I smoked, drank heavily and often, and ate as much crap food as I could. Thankfully, I broke that cycle of punishment. (Why do we think that helps?) Now, I do what you seem to do. I don't (wont??) exercise, eat well or anything. It comes in waves. Maybe your 'up' wave is just around the corner.

Or maybe, instead of waiting for the wave, go jump in a puddle and make your own! Maybe a good solid run will clear your head.

I hope you feel better soon hon.

Kylie

PS Ani - Thankyou for your wrap inspiration. I couldn't remember what was in it, but I grabbed some flat bread, ham, lettuce, alfalfa and chives-and-onion philly and ate that for lunch! i even had enough left over to have another one for dinner! Yay! Thankyou!

Hey all
Welcome to Kylie and i look forward to hearing about your journeys(hopefully all good). I too eat Mountain Bread nearly daily. I even make pizzas out of them...they are so yummy. They are only thin though and sometimes i use 2. I follow Weight Watchers at the moment and on there plan they are only 1/2 point whereas bread is 1 point. I mainly eat salads for lunches as i find them very filling and yummy as well. I am going to Uni as well this year.,.,.just been accepted into Bachelor of Nursing Science so i hope i can plan my lunches and dinners and breakies eh!!!!What are you doing?

Lindor....just chat to us...we will listen..i hope that helps you. Is it just the heat and no sleep that is not helping? I feel for you and can relate to "down" moments....just go with the flow and you will soon be out the other side and losing weight again soon i hope.

Me....went for a walk today(SHOCCKK). My food has been on track and water is always great but my exercise always is the last to catch up. I envy you Kathy and Littlekiwi and Barb that have got that part right. It is just the I HATE IT!!!!! It has been very hot here so that was my excuse this week. Today was a bit cooler so no more excuses and off i go with the dog(she loves it but barks at every little thing moving..she is embarrassing at times). I came home red faced and puffed and litterally fell in the pool. So I am hoping i will continue with this trend. A big gardening day tommoorow...we have a lot of land so that will take care of exercise tommorrow for sure. It gets out of control when i don't tackle it weekly and i have lots of trees that drop lots of leaves.

Anyhow guys must go and see if the fairies washed the dishes...they only have to put them in the dishwasher and i bet they didn't....they'd be in the pool those boys(fairies). I hope you are all doing well and Lindor to you.

In most respects yesterday was a good day. I walked, drank enough water - but I think I ate too many calories. I might need to write down everything I eat this week, instead of working it out in my head - because I suspect my calorie intake is creeping up a little.

You all sound like you are really motivated - good grief, even leeny is out walking the dog . YAY for all of us! And in saying that I know Lindor is going through a really hard time.

I'm feeling much better. I had a long talk to a friend of mine yesterday, and I feel like I am getting things in perspective. This week has made me realise how emotionally withdrawn I've become, and how reluctant I am to take risks. I push people away if they get too close - and have been doing so without recognising it. So hopefully I can start working on things now, and begin to move forward.

I told my friend yesterday that my aim for this year is to have a smaller body and a bigger life. And that's what I'm going to do.

I hope you are all having a wonderful weekend - and I hope Lindor is being gentle with herself.

:-)
Ani

We lost a work mate Thursday night...learned of it first thing Friday.

I won't go into the details - other than it was sudden and unexpected. I am not saying this because I want sympathy, hugs or words of 'understanding'. You don't have to say anything. I just felt you should know where I am at.

I want to get back into a routine...I want to get my life back on track. I feel I have lost control of it and I want that control back. I want the last few days erased. ****, I want the whole week erased, because I was falling off the rails before any of this happened anyway.

I want to be back where I was last Sunday.

Hi girls,

Lindor, I was wondering what had happened that had caused such a reaction. Im so sorry...and Im not saying it out of sympathy, but I really am sorry that you are going through this. Like the other girls said, we are here. We cant give you physical hugs...but virtual ones are the next best thing!!

Ani, glad to see you are feeling a bit better...and for what its worth, introspection is highly necessary from time to time as we are having to face things. Good on ya for being brave enough to do it...sometimes its so much easier for me to ignore it and then have it come bite me in the bum the next time around... Things never get dealt with if they are not faced I suppose..

How are the rest of you?? Sorry I know Im missing people, but sheesh! Ive missed a bit in the last couple of days...

Welcome to Elerine! Like Ani said, these gals are amazing, inspiring, motivating and wonderful!!

All pretty good here. Been sticking to eating plan - dont get me started...its too exhausting to explain! haha...Havent been back to walking yet, which is my next hurdle and water intake on track. I feel like Ive already lost, altho I havent stepped on the scales just yet. Im really hoping that this low-GI thing will finally get this weight moving once and for all!

Anyway, off to bed. Hope everyone is doing well and I must remember to come in everyday so that I dont lose track! Im just not getting those email reminders anymore and I forget some days (sorry ladies...happens when you have a 13-month old! ).

Night!
Britt
xxxx

Hey ladies

Well I've had a busy few days. Have taken a wee 1 bedroom flat and am moving in tomorrow. It's a tiny wee place but will be great for just me to live in. I'm so looking forward to having a whole fridge to myself - my food will never go missing!!

So I'm not going to the gym today or tomorrow, I figure that moving all the boxes up and down stairs will be plenty workout for me

Will clock in again later in the week.

Stay strong guys

Woohoo - finally the scales moved again, although it's only 800g. I'm just glad I can see some movement, after over 2 weeks of behaving perfectly!

Finished week 2 of the C25K last night - ick, means I'll have to manage 3 straight minutes of jogging this week. Ah well, we'll see.

Everyone watch TBL last night? Wasn't it gross watching them pig out at the start? Ew.

Little Kiwi, that sounds most adventurous - what made you decide to move?

Augigi - 800g is almost a kilo. That's fantastic! And I agree with you about the pig-out room in TBL. I find it really ridiculous actually. Why make them eat all that crap just before embarking on a weight loss journey? Makes no sense to me.

I almost had a Drama Queen attack at my scales this morning. I am completely fed up with them refusing to budge or flatter me. How dare they sit there on my floor and reflect nothing that impresses me? I lost nothing - in fact I gained 0.4kg, and it isn't even TOM anymore.

Hmmm… Ok then, what the last two months has revealed for me is that I appear to be very good at maintaining this weight after losing 10kg. And that's good news.

BUT

I am not happy to maintain, because 94.9kg is NOT my goal weight.

SO

Obviously the balance needs some juggling here. Clearly I need to re-think my calorie intake, and the kind of foods I eat. I'm going to find some time today to sit down and plan something different, and I may have to consider dropping calories down to around 1600 now.

Eew - discipline!

yesterday I walked for an hour, did 50 situps and 50 stepups. I drank almost 2 litres of water and I ate reasonably well. But I suspect that I'm letting a few things creep in to my eating that are sabotaging me. Yesterday I ate a bunch of grapes as well as a small Weight Watchers ice-cream. Now that I think about it… OK, discipline with food is my goal this week.

:-)
Ani

Hey all

Lindor...i know what you are feeling as we lost a work mate this week too. It was on the news and all as he was bashed to death walking home...a quiet guy and too young to go so it was a shock to all. So care for yourself and keep thinking about you and your goals

Ani...i am the same. When people get too close i push them away. I think mine began when my son got sick when he was a baby. People would stop me in the street and comment "we must catch up for a coffee"...they never meant it. I was "too hard" with all my "issues" so i pushed them away. I had no time for other people as my life was too full with medical stuff...it was all too hard. I still have medical issues with my kids and DH and i still only let people in when they push so hard i no they really must be able to cope with all my crap. Those people are few and far between. Soooo...i must let others in at times but it is hard when i never seem to have enough time for me let alone someone else
Also ani...have you thought that you may not need as many calories now that you are smaller 10kg smaller your body has got used to that amount and knows exactly that is all it needs. You need to shock ti and change your foods and amounts i think...just a thought...

Me...still on track but am getting sick of this game. I suppose we all are. I watched TBL last night and thought they were all disgusting pigging out. Do people really eat that way? I think not and how embarrassing on TV. Did they forget or was it for shock value?Probably!!!
Just vaccummed all the house, mopped and cleaned the showers so i had a good workout in another way today. Am helping a friend today looking for a unit after her husband of 25 years left her for another woman. She is in a state as you can imaging so i am trying to be a good friend and support her.

Must away...will check in tonight...behave all

TBL: Evidently the contestants were given a small breakfast at 6am and then starved (rumour has it) for the rest of the day, until confronted with all that food. That said, I couldn't binge like that, it was so horrible I couldn't watch it.

Lindor, we are here for you still, and if you want to get on track again, join me in getting at least half an hours walk in each day. I've got a goal to reach 10000, but I'm starting at half an hour. That and drinking water. But take your time and heal yourself emotionally.

Leeny dont envy me when it comes to exercise. Until I'm in the zone, and finally want to exercise, I hate it as much as the next person. Tomorrow will be a challenge cause I have to work for I dont know how many hours, and probably wont get a chance to exercise unless that storm does come through and it cools off some. I'd go before dd goes to school, but I cant exactly leave her home alone, and I have enough to do anyway.

Sorry I haven't mentioned everyone, you all sound so motivated. Keep up the good work.

Hey

Acheivement: I started the C25K program yesterday. Its the one where, over 8 weeks, you build yourself up to running 5km (about 1/2hr) without stopping! WooHoo! Mick is in on it too, so it's really good to have a buddy to do it with.

I was spammed this today from Blackmores. It might be something you've heard before, but I thought it might be useful to include it. It's just info about deceptive food labels.


http://www.blackmores.com.au/News/De...ArticleId=8744

Ok, well thats it for me today. Ate 2 peaches all day, then 1/2 rockmelon, now a poached chookie breast with beans for tea. YumYum!

Kylie

Kylie, make sure you eat enough calories so your body doesn't think it's in starvation mode! I think it's about 1200-1500 calories.

I was sick of losing small amounts the past few weeks, so I'm doing the "wendy plan" this week - alternating my WW points. Today was my "super high day", which was great haha.. hard to eat enough for that though.

I am doing the C25K as well - just did Week 3, Day 1 today; so up to 3 mins running. Long way to go, but it's very doable. Have slowed my run speed down to 6.8 - 7 kph and getting much less pain in the ankles and shins. It's a great feeling of achievement to make each week though!

Hey Kylie, can I ask why you're eating so little? By my rough calculations that's less than 1000 calories, and it isn't really enough food.

I'm not sure if you know this or not but your body needs around 1200 calories a day just to function (breathe, digest, sleep and perform its cellular jobs). If you go below that - except for occasional days - your metabolism is going to slow right down and it will be tough to lose weight.

It's not my business - and please don't get offended - I want you to have a wonderful weight loss journey, and I think under-eating will make it harder for you. Don't be surprised if you feel starving hungry tomorrow!

Augigi you sound like you're going really well. Fantastic work! I can't wait to see how your weight loss goes over the next couple of weeks.

leeny, you made me think with your post. And I reckon you're right about me needing less calories. I ate 1500 today, and I'm going to really try to go between 1500 and 1600 for two weeks and see what happens.

I must tell you I'm having a tantrum right now. I'm sitting here with an icepack on my achilles tendon . It hasn't really resolved itself since I was whinging about it months ago - but I won't let it sabotage my weight loss.

I'm stubborn like that!

:-)
Ani