lol! i remember the rapper clothes. i always disliked that look. i don't understand why guys would want to have their butts hanging out. with girls and their lowrise jeans, at least it's just a little peek of undies. with the guys in those days, i mean, they didn't have to move their pants to go to the bathroom i think. that's how low they were. the most ridiculous thing was that most wore belts. come on now, what is the point of a belt in that situation?
i am pretty excited because i have been doing well with food the past two days and am down a pound. yay! there's a good chance i will make my 2/14 goal at this rate. that would be awesome. i am so tired of being at this plateau.

You can do it Candice and congrats on the pound gone! You have a good motivator to keep up your momentum.

Did the shopping and stayed in the budget so bonus! Food is good and I am looking forward to friday for weigh in. I am glad the gain I had seems to be going just as quickly as it came on.
Melissa

I am antsy crazy today. We are having 50 mile an hour winds and lots of rain and luckily no snow. All 4 of my kids are quiet and calm. I can't get used to it after these last few turbulent months. I am pacing and picking at little bits of food, even tho I'm not really hungry and nothing is satisfying my need. I really feel like stuffing down a lot of food and I'm not going to do it. I've had about 10 cups of tea. I will be ok calorie wise, but my choices are lousy.
I need a beach and sunshine and a big bowl of tropical fruit and a good book. It's not gonna happen.
Laura

Laura, we have had the winds and rain for the past two days, but today was dry and calmer...though chilly. The trees out front have lost about all their branches and I need to get out there and pick them all up.

I think hubby and I are about to have "issues" though I am not sure what is going on. We normally talk all the time, 5 or more times a day, and he calls me just as often as I do him. He left out Monday afternoon and when I went to bed that night I realized we hadn't called each other, but blew it off since he had just left. Yesterday he didn't call at all, and I called him after 6PM expecting to hear he'd slept all day but he said no, and seemed very quiet and just going "uh-huh" which is his everything response when something is bothering him or he's not listening to me. I point blank asked if he forgot how to call home and he just kinda grunted, no explanation at all. Today, I decided I would wait and see if he called me and so far he hasn't (almost 8PM here). I get the feeling if I don't call him, I'll never hear from him until he walks in the front door. This is just not like him, not like us, and I have this sick feeling in my stomach like something is just not right. A friend told me that I am just reading too much into it, how do I know, etc. but I just know. Something is not right with him and my mind is going nuts thinking what it could be. I keep thinking what if he has another woman in the truck with him? Or he met someone, stopped to see an ex? I can't have those thoughts, I have to trust him, but the not calling and being so quiet when I call him just doesn't sit right. I have felt like I"m giong to throw up all day. I ate too much, but it was all healthy stuff, and I'm exercising like a fanatic because I just have to do something with myself.

I guess I should just break down and call him, but I think if I do I'm going to start screaming to know what the **** is going on with him. I hate feeling this way and don't want to accuse him of anything, that would just make him defensive, so I decided just not to call him for tonight at least. I just feel so sick and why would I feel that way if it weren't women's intuition? What do you guys think? Am i just overreacting, possibly?

Theresa

Sounds like everybody is committed and really doing well! Congrats and keep up the good work!!

I have been keeping up with reading the posts but just haven't felt like posting lately. I am doing fine food and exercise wise but I'm having a hard time dealing with other issues. Last week we found out my aunt has a large malignant tumor in her stomach that is inoperable and untreatable. Next week is the 13th anniversary of my Dad's death. I'm also just plain sick and tired of winter weather and being stuck indoors. Yes, I am very whiny and I know I just need to suck it up and pull myself out of this funk.

Lighten Up Iowa started up again today. That's what got me started losing weight a year ago. This year I'm only signed up for the workout part of it since I'm not really looking to lose more weight. It lasts for six months and should help me keep on track with exercise (I got 100 minutes today...whoohoo).

Thanks for being here...even though I haven't been posting I've looked forward to reading and seeing what everybody's up to every day. It really helps to keep me from sliding back into old bad habits which would be so easy for me to do this time of year.

Theresa when does he come home again? If you are really worried you do need to let him know but it would probably be better to do it face-to-face rather than over the phone, that way things can't be misconstrued and you can make sure he knows you aren't being accusatory and are just concerned and want to know what's going on.

How were things before he left? Any arguments? Maybe you were busy with the kids and he felt neglected? Maybe he is worrying about losing you? Or maybe he's just wishing he was home more...sometimes the tiniest things can upset people, even if their fears or anger isn't justified.


Anyway...hope you hear from him soon and hopefully you'll feel better after talking to him. I know my imagination runs wild every time I find some little thing to worry about and it usually turns out to be nothing, so I do think that we sometimes have a tendency to overreact about things. Try to relax and have a good night...and congrats on all the exercise!!!

I broke down and called him. He sounded in a good mood when he answered, a chippy "hey babe." I just busted out crying and demanded to know why he hasn't been calling me. He said he is in the shop working on his truck and he knew if he called and told me that I would get mad, so he didn't call. He is right, I do get mad when he is working on the truck because it's NOT HIS JOB. He is supposed to drop the truck there and come home, they have a crew and it's THEIR job to fix it, but they are all slackers and he ends up doing it and not coming home, just leaving back out. I feel it takes away our time with him and it ticks me off. It still doesn't excuse no calls for 3 days, which he said Monday I was in a bad mood when he left so he didn't call...remember, I was on here saying I couldn't wait for him to leave, so I guess he picked up that I was annoyed with him. Yesterday he said he would have called me later, but he had slept until after 2PM and was in a hurry to get back in so he could come home so was just driving and not thinking about anything else.

Now, I feel like the world's worst wife ever. I was crying and saying he never comes home anymore, I'm tired of only seeing him one day a week, I want him to come home, etc. I was very unsupportive of him busting his a** out there and now I feel so guilty and horrible. But, if he doesn't call me sometimes how do I know what is going on? I don't, and I have a very active imagination for the worst possible scenario. I do feel like he doesn't come home enough anymore, up until Christma we always saw him 2-3 days a week, now it's 1 day. And he's coming home tonight, but has only had 2 hours sleep and has to leave right back out in the AM to get to Texas by Friday...which means he won't be home until sometime late late Saturday or Sunday. I just want him home more, and now he said I don't understand what he is doing out there, that he has a JOB and can't be here, etc. I feel horrible that I reacted this way. But sometimes it is hard to stay supportive when you don't know what is going on.

*sigh* I am a horrible, horrible wife. TOM is very close, and I am very hormonal and all that...but, he just doesn't understand that.

Theresa

Well let yourself off the hook. Why in the world would he do that KNOWING it would upset you? I am assuming he owns his truck-does he get a price break for doing the work himself? And if he works for another company, I would be complaining to the owners as to why he does the work when they are paying other employees to do it. Communication is very key to any relationship, especially when they are gone most of the week. My ex drove truck briefly (of course no money was ever sent home) He couldn't understand why I was upset he was spending all the money and also running up a huge phone bill when I was home with Joshua. the local foodbank knew me by name and broke the rules and gave us more and let us come more often. It was a very small town and everyone knew everyone and everything. It was so embarrassing for me. The best you can do I suppose is just tell him how you feel and how important it is for you to be able to talk to him-even if he thinks you aren't going to like what he happens to be doing. I think TOM should be taken out and shot. I get so over the top and even though I know what is causing it, it doesn't help the feelings level out at all. My ex always used to say women just used it as an excuse to be a *B*. Can we all see why he is my ex? LOL Take a deep breath, apologize for going over the top with him and explain why you did.
Melissa

Absolutely, let yourself off the hook. When my DH travels by himself I am always upset if he doesn't call me in the morning and night. I always think whatever he is doing or whomever he is with is more important than I am or that when he is away, we are out of his sight and mind. I know i am right because I have seen him turn a way from me when he meets someone important to him. It took me a long time and lots of screaming till he got the idea that when I am there, he is supposed to introduce me, not step away. He is so into himself that he would forget. It took massive training.
Laura

Hubby called a bit after 11 and asked if I could come pick him up. He's had 2 hours sleep in the past 2 days and knew he wasn't alert enough to ride the motorcycle. The car ride put the kids to sleep and we had a nice, calm talk. He was really great, said he was sorry and explained that they are just overloading him with the work and he doesn't want to turn down any runs because he likes the big paychecks. I told him it's not worth giving up family time for bigger checks, at least not to me. I have to get him back to the truck at 8AM and he's off to Texas for Friday, BUT when he gets back on Sunday he promised me he'll be home at least until Tues. evening because his truck will be in the shop...and I made him SWEAR that HE will not be the shopman fixing it.

We were going to buy our own truck right before fuel prices spiked, so we backed out of that plan at least for now. He is driving for a small company and the owner really is just a rich guy who knows absolutely nothing about the industry. Actually, he calls my hubby with questions about the laws and such, he knows nothing. He could have left his truck at the shop and came home, but there was only one guy working in there tonight and it would not have been ready for his run to Texas. Things get stolen out of trucks right and left at this place, so he doesn't like riding in someone else's truck, then something goes missing and the finger is pointed at him...or, his truck gets ready tomorrow sometime and they send someone else off it in, and he comes back to an empty fridge and everything else GONE. This is like his home, he has lots of stuff in there, it's like a tiny apartment so I understand this. Him doing the work on the truck was the only way to have the truck ready for the AM. I would have understood if he just TOLD me what was going on, but he said he didn't want to fight and was already so tired. *sigh* he got a fight anyway, so it backfired. He gets paid by the hour for working in the shop, so it's not like he does it for nothing.

Before all this happened, I was doing my gazelle and watching BL and it hit me: I need to tone my arms so when i reach goal they aren't flabby. I've noticed on all the women on that show that their arms are big and flabby even though the rest of them are skinny, and I don't want that, it's obvious. We have a blowflex like thing, walmart knock off actually, but it's in the garage collecting dust so I got busy and rearranged the entire computer room into what will eventually be my little gym. it was a LOT of work, taking out an entertainment center and putting the TV on a small stand to make room, then getting that HUGe thing from garge to computer room. This big ol' computer desk will be next, when I find a treadmill or elliptical or something to put in it's place. This is going to be so fun, i can't wait to work out in here!!!

Theresa

Glad to hear you got things worked out. It's always good to talk things through. Don't feel bad about the fight...it's so easy to jump to the wrong conclusions when things don't quite add up and he should have told you what was going on so you didn't have to worry. I've been married almost 17 years and there are still times we have a huge argument over some tiny little thing just because of a communication lapse that caused me to worry. Doesn't happen very often anymore, but there are still occasions when it does.

I worried about my arms, too. I've been doing some circuit training aerobics workouts with free weights and I actually have some muscles now! Not huge muscles and I still don't have extremely strong arms, but the muscles are there and they are visible. This weekend I'm going to try to find heavier free weights...the ones I've been using are getting too easy.

KayElle, I want muscles in my arms too! That is something I have never had. I have very, very strong legs and extremely weak arms. Lots of flab, not much else there. I'm hoping using this machine will help, though I threw out the paper with all the different exercises shown on it a long time ago and now I'm kicking myself because I'm not sure what all to do with it. Hubby will show me when he gets back in, but I'll play with it and do whatever I can figure out until then. We used to do this together, a year ago when we first bought it, and I loved watching him sweat and work, and then we just stopped, because it was unaccessible out there. Well, now it's not and I'm hoping he will start doing it again as well, he really needs to lose weight for health reasons.

Okay, I have to go be mean and wake people up. The alarm went off and I am the only one who got up, hubby said he'll leave at 9 instead, so if I don't start now he will be in bed all day. I hate waking him up knowing he's had very little sleep and will be driving all day.

Theresa

Theresa, I'm glad you and hubby talked things out. I fully understand what your going through, my hubby did long haul the first 2 years we were married. It's tough sitting at home waiting for a phone call, (this was before cell phones got cheaper to use than regular). Now he's home all the time because of his injury, so life changes quickly sometimes.
I need to do the arm exercises too. My doc said the only way to get rid of my tendonitis is to make the muscles stronger than the joint. Hard to do when the joint is so sore it hurts to pick up a soda. Somehow I have got to start as the tendonitis is getting worse, it wakes me up sometimes.

Lunchtime experiment is in progress, had a yogurt this morning and a jello sf pudding instead of meat and veggies or large salad. I'm going to give it about 2 weeks to see if there is any real difference.

I got to see my neice and nephew yesterday. We don't have any children so they are very special to us. My nephew is 3, he grabbed my dh around the neck and said "I wuv you Unca Bill". That made the big lug cry!!! Nephew had a new phrase that he was using every chance he got on my mom. "Don't freak out Dranma" (he has a lisp) My neice is 9 months old and is an absolute doll, such a happy baby. It was a great day, although I was the one crying when we left! I stayed up most of the day and was super tired, but it was worth every minute.

Hubby sent off for info on a bowflex, he's thinking about turning our everything room into an exercise room. He has lost a lot of muscle in the last year and has decided to try and do something about it. I hope he is serious because it would be so nice to work out with him at home.

Well it's my day off before a 40 hour weekend at work, so lot's to get done.
Have a great day everyone!!!!

I am glad everything is smoothed over Theresa. I need to dust off the bike here too and get some videos popped in the machine. i am sure the girls would love to excersize with Nanna. This head cold is still killing me though and I shudder everytime I have to lean over. Tomorrow is weigh in day and I am stoked for it. I haven't been this excited to weigh myself in quite awhile. I may still make my birthday goal to be under 200. That driver's lisence pic is spurning me on to stay OP.

Oh Loser Boyfriend was released from jail last night so now we will see what Katy does about it and if she is serious about being away from him or not. She keeps saying she is coming to see the kids and then not showing up. She has put back on a couple pounds so hopefully she has quit using again. Still no prego test and she just isn't following through with things.
Melissa

Melissa-I wish he could get locked up forever. Can you buy a preg test and get her to pee on it, so at least you will know what's happening?
My arms are my weakest area also. I tried grabbing a bar at the gym and ketting go with my feet and I thought I would die, the pain in my arms was so intense. The trainer said, well try again in a few weeks. Ha
Laura