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Good morning all!
Wow...everyone has been busy posting! I'm really glad to see everyone excited about the new month and new challenge too! I don't doubt that we'll all be able to meet this new goal! I'm tried something new for me today...I exercised first thing in the morning...walked 30 minutes! It seems like if I wait until after dinner that something always comes up or I find some excuse not to do it, so maybe I'll do better if I get it over with first thing. Just to let you all know...my youngest son deploys to Iraq on September 14th. I knew this day was coming and honestly thought I was prepared for it, but the closer it gets the more I'm beginning to think that there is no preparing for sending your son to war. Please forgive me if I seem distant or short with my replies...I'm really not myself these days. |
well it is official- There are no open gas stations within a 30 mile or more radius in our area . all of the stations say no gas and businesses are closing for the weekend as no one may have gas to get to work. some places are low on groceries- the trucks can't get to the stores. We had to get a locking gas cap because people are stealing gas right in parking lots like at walmart or taking it from your home while you sleep at night. I know it's nothing like what is in the gulf area but it's still scary. I was out yesterday at 5:30 a.m. and got gas at one of the last places open it was still 2.89
I just don't understand the priorities of our gvt. seems a big mess to me. I know here they have a price gouging law and when some gas stations were charging 3.65 a gallon they were reported . last year after the 3 hurricanes there were people arrested and went to jail for charging 5.00 a bag for ice. And fema- what a joke these days.. last year they were giving out emergency food stamps to people in need after our 3 hurricanes and they were letting people who didn't qualify go and get them- I called to see what the income requirements were and they said, oh never mind just come in we'll qualify you. I was telling them, no I need to know what you require so I don't get them if someone else really needs them more. needless to say I didn't go even if it would have helped . they weren't even looking at guidelines just handing them out and now they are billing people to get the money back.. Ok I am done too off my :soap:I think ranting is healthy and keeps us from binging due to emotional overloads.. Suzymc- (((( )))to you, your son and family. he will be in my prayers for safety. Sorry this was so long -it was either rant or eat .. and don't want to overeat.. I EXERCISED TODAY! I got up before hubby and exercised.. 40 whole minutes . plus we are doing cleaning and yard work today.. so I will get in a good workout there.. :grouphug: to all and have a good day- thanks for support- we can surpass our goal! |
SuziMc
I hope that all of us Summer Starters can be part of your support system as your boy goes off. Perhaps this will be a place where you can unwind and say whatever you need to. Also, let us know if your boy needs anything, phonecards, computer programs, stuff, etc. I know we are all here for you and will be happy when your boy is safely home again. Laura |
Well I have doen 2 hours of walking no Curves till Monday. So my walking is an hour a night and Curves is 30 min at least 3 times a week. So my goal is 25 hours of walking thats 25 day out of the 30, and 6 hours at Curves 1.5 hours a week for 4 weeks. My total Goal will then be 31 hours.
Curves =:strong: Walking = :tread: Goal 12 Curves 25 walks :tread::tread: |
Wow...what a stressful time for so many of you. You are all doing amazing to stay on track with the various things going on in your lives. Suzy I know your son will be in all of our thoughts and prayers. You must be so worried. My nephew was there at the very beginning of it all for the first 6 months, and now it is sounding like he may have to go back again. Enjoy the time you have before he leaves and then just keep thinking of what a wonderful happy reunion it will be when he comes home again.
Well....I spent my morning so far walking and now I must go clean my messy house. My brother and his family are on their way here this morning to spend the long weekend and we are having a b-day party for my Mom tonight here so I have lots of work to do. |
Thank you all for your support! My son has been in California since January (the last time I saw him) so I really won't get to see him again for close to a year from now. He'll get 30 days leave when he gets back from Iraq and is planning a trip home then. That's why I thought I had myself all prepared for him going to Iraq...I was telling myself that it's just a few more miles between us, but there really is more to it than that. I'm trying hard not to dwell on his deployment and to focus on other things and I'm trying really hard not to try to make myself happy by eating! That's what I did when he first joined the Marines...it didn't work and I packed on 25+ pounds! I sure don't want to do that again!
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suzymc~what a mix of pride and anxiety to see your son shipped out...i can't imagine. rant or ramble all you need in here to stay focused. :grouphug:
kayelle~thank you for your post on new feelings about eating. I feel like i'm doing really well since i found this forum, but i still obsess on it. Now I'm just obsessing on calories and exercise minutes. So it's a comfort to know that at some point it will just stop being so important...and i can't wait! Most of my friends are not overweight and they don't even think about food unless they're hungry and I just want to get to that level. Some of you guys are really putting me to shame on the exercise minutes already! wow! I am stoked b/c I made labor day challenge goal which was to run 2mi continously--it took me 23minute and i felt like I was pushing myself, so i'll use that pace as a measurement for other runs. I've got a 5k run in early Oct so that's my ultimate goal. I feel like a spoiled brat lately when I think about my calories or getting all my water after watching the news. The level of desperation down there is heartbreaking--and it's infuriating that there is nothing I can do to make these gov't agencies respond more efficiently. They've known for years that the systems keeping N.O. from flooding needed to be updated and funding kept getting cut. It just drives me crazy that anyone who promotes responsible environmental management is labeled, mocked, derided or ignored. I don't understand why it has to be a partisan issue! ARGH! Can someone just take some food and water to that Convention center for goodness sake!? I haven't watched the news yet today so I'm hoping more has been accomplished. Had to vent (like everyone else!). |
Does anyone have some good breakfast ideas? I am sick of eggs lol even though the girls can't seem to get enough of them.
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melissa, for breakfast i have been loving cereal or granola with yogurt. usually i use 1 c plain nonfat yogurt and use reduced-sugar jelly to sweeten it. usually 1/4 c granola, but right now i'm having one cup of kashi go lean with lite peach yogurt. i like it so much better than cereal with milk.
but there are also many ways to have eggs. if you are getting tired of plain old eggs, you could make bagel and egg sandwiches with ham and cheese. i guess i would use those really small bagels, and microwave the egg in a cup. veggie omelets are good too with egg whites. well the possibilities are endless. breakfast is my favorite meal. actually my favorite breakfast is egg and veggie scramble, cheese grits, and bacon. can't have it on the diet though. not to mention biscuits and gravy, my other fave. grrr. |
Yeah that is where I have been having a hard time-never have been a breakfast fan but I am eating it now since I started this. I like breakfast food at dinner time lol. Might try turkey bacon as it is lower in fat than regular. Thanks for the ideas-think I will get myself some yogurt and Kashi-I like that Kashi and it is really high in fiber and I believe really low in points for me too.
Melissa |
Originally Posted by SuzyMc: ****BIGGGGG HUGGGGSSS**** I cannot imagine the feeling of sending your boy to war. Hang in there and do the best you can. How long will he be over there....or do you not know? Theresa |
Suzy-please let us know if there is anything we can do while your son is away. And please feel free to post away as needed. I agree that food isn't the answer for dealing with him so far from home.
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Melra-Environmental management is a partisan issue because it costs money. You can't cut taxes to the very rich and spend money to save a wet land at the same time. Science has to be respected and people have to understand how it all works before they support green initiatives, so education is also vital, not nonsense like no child left behind, where teachers teach to the test, but real hands on learning about our good earth. I guess you can guess my politics and this isn't the forum for this so I'll shut up now.
We are going out to eat tonight. I don't like to say no to my DH when he wants to go out with friends, so tonight is another challenge for me. Usually we do alot of sharing with these friends, a bunch of appetizers for the table, and then several desserts at the end to share. I would rather stay home tonight and make something, but he worked all day and then cleaned while I was out. So I will be a good wife and go. I must keep my resolve. I have jeans that I only wore for one day 3 years ago and I would like to fit into them again soon. That's a goal too. Laura |
Laura, just keep thinking about those jeans and that when they fit again you can wear them out to eat with those friends ;) fitting the jeans will be so much better than the food!
Theresa |
no exercise today--I've spent all day (almost!) working on stuff for my entry in three art shows coming up. I'm hoping to make some money to redo some stuff on the house, but it will probably just go back in to supplies. Pretty sedentary day, but my calories were okay.
Breakfast ideas that don't include eggs--I never have any time or interest in making eggs unless it's on the weekend. So, during the week I end up having random stuff for breakfast and sometimes just a smaller leftover portion from dinner, unless it's a salad. Here's some stuff though: 1.whole wheat english muffin with peanut butter ( i use organic b/c it has no trans fat and no added sugar) and some fruit 2.trail mix-i mix it myself so i know what's in it 3.steel cut oatmeal 4.lowfat cheese and tomato on toast-broil the cheese on top, and fruit 5.my fave b/c it's so filling: whole wheat mini bagels (about 110 cal) w/ low fat cream cheese, a slice of deli turkey and tomato 6.whole grain triscuits, lowfat cream cheese and lox 7. cheese and fruit 8. lowfat muffins--i use a mix and substitute flax meal for the oil to add protein and fiber and i make the muffins a little smaller for about 125 calories and eat and apple or something with it. 9. yogurt and anything-fruit, granola, etc. I've also made quick smoothies with frozen banana pieces, yogurt and a shot of o.j., but that's when I'm not running behind, which is rare! Also, the best granola I've ever had I found in the organic section of the Hyvee here called Flax Granola with pumpkin seed the box is mostly dark green--it is awesome and not nearly the sugar as some of the others and the flax seed has omega-3, so even though the fat content is still high, it's the "good" fat. I had it for breakfast this morning with strawberries--it is too good and y'all should try it if you like granola! |
hi y'all. well i had to skip the gym again today but hopefully cleaning the house provided some exercise so i don't feel too bad about that. i was totally jazzed today when i found some low fat (but real!) bacon on sale for two dollars at the grocery store today. 50 cals per serving. awesome. definitely going to the gym tomorrow and monday. no excuse since i don't have anything going this weekend except church. always a challenge to get dh to go though (hate going alone). he's busier than i am, and not trying to lose weight ;)
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well i am not impressed with the bacon. it's only lower in fat and calories because it is that much smaller. grr. still tastes like bacon though.
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Thank you everyone for the breakfast ideas. Gives me alot to work with. Hard to do when you have never really been a breakfast person. Sorry to hear the bacon wasn't that great.
Mom found joshua shirts for 2 bux a piece yesterday and brought them over. I was thrilled and I took Josh for his haircut this morning and he did super! The gal who cut his hair was so good with him. I am never sure how he is going to respond to people so this was really great. Broke my heart that my ex came by at 11a to pick him up and we weren't here-NOT. He will never give me a time for pickup and just shows up whenever and I am tired of it. So I had stuff to do and went and did it. He never did pay his support last month or even ask what Josh needed for school. Ok enough crabbin' lol. Got into stuff I shouldn't have yesterday. I need to figure out something to replace that when I am stressed out-something I can do right away. Maybe I should invest in a punching bag that I can go smack till I feel better. Something to ponder about. I am back OP today though and no more slacking here for me. Melissa |
Melissa, you might try keeping some fresh veggies, already washed and cut up, in the fridge for those stressful moments when you need something quick. Nothing quicker than pulling out the bowl and going at it, and they are healthy for you. I have baby carrots and cucumbers in the fridge right now, have to eat them before they start going bad now that I think about it!
I got 3 miles in last night, 6 miles on Friday. I have some personal goals for each area I'm working on for September, and here they are: 1. Exercise every day, even if it's just a quick 1 mile. 2. Finish milestone 5 on virtual walk = 112 miles. 3. Meet mini goal of 10 lbs. I'm not sure about #2, but will be trying very very hard. This milestone has 167 miles in it and I just want to finish and move on already! We had breakfast at MIL's this morning and she made scrambled eggs, bacon, sausage, and homemade biscuits and gravy. I had some eggs and that was all. When I got home I heated up a Lean Cuisine. It was easy since I knew the gravy was made from the bacon grease and I am still off the red meats. I don't think I want to cut out chicken and turkey so will give myself another month off the red meat. I feel SOOO much better without that, I might not need to take out the chicken. Really, I have only been eating it when we go out and I have few options, so that's not bad. Hope everyone is having a great holiday weekend! Theresa |
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OHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH I want something sweet. I want something good. I want to go down the street and have a cherry cheesecake milk shake. HELLLLPPP. It's been over a week since I had any serious cravings but I just can't shake this tonight. I have NOTHING in the house to cure this, but I want to go out and get something and I'm fighting it SO hard. I'm making supper, so hopefully eating a meal will stop this!!!!!!!!!!!
Okay, just wanted to type here before I grabbed the keys and hit the front door. Can't do it until dinner anyway, but I really don't want to give in. None of my healthy alternatives are working because I don't want them :( I'm going to eat and then exercise....YES that is what I AM GOING TO DO. Does this ever get any easier???? Theresa |
Theresa...you REALLY don't want that junk. It'll just make you feel rotten afterwards. Do you have any extra sweet fruit in the house? Pineapple? Watermelon? Try having you supper first and then exercising like you planned....exercise is a great appetite supressant for me. You KNOW it isn't worth how you will feel afterwards to go have that shake...that's why you came here and posted first. YOU CAN RESIST! I know it's hard but YOU ARE WORTH IT and it DOES get easier, it just takes time. Before you know it the craving will pass and you will feel so good that you were able to resist!
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theresa, you can do it! you don't really want that milkshake! it will get easier, don't worry. if you are craving something sweet, there are always low-cal alternatives. everyone needs something sweet now and then. how about frozen yogurt? the chain out here that's really good only has about 20 cals per oz for all their flavors (so like 100 for a small or something like that). sometimes veggies or fruit doesn't cut it (this is the case for me all the time).
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Oooh Theresa, I am with you!!! I sure hope it gets easier!! I hope you found something sweet that was good for you! I have had the same problem today, but not for sweet, for salty. I ate some Cheetos earlier, even though I know I could have found something way better :( We just need to come here and get encouragement and healthy alternatives. I know I could sit and read this site for hours-if my kids and hubby would let me!
Other than the Cheetos I have done pretty good, one waffle and 1/2 cup milk for breakfast, large salad with LF dressing for lunch. Gotta get moving on dinner before hubby gets home! Suzy-Our prayers are with you and your son! I know we are only names on a computer, but we really care and you can come here and lean on us! Vent if you need to, whatever, we are here for you!! :grouphug: I better go get dinner done!! Have a great night everyone!! Kathy |
You guys are so wonderful, you just don't know how you have all helped tonight. It's turned out to be a rough night. After I typed my panic message here I hurried supper done, then kind of picked through it because I really didn't feel that hungry. Soon as it was over and hubby was in the chair with Tyler (allie is with grandma tonight) I did hurry out with the intent on loading up on junk food. I felt like a drug addict that just HAD to have that fix or I would die. It was THAT bad, and it was a huge flashback to where I used to be all the time but DON"T want to be again.
Well, I have to drive across town to the grocery store and on the way I started thinking about what has me in need of a binge...I'm an emotional eater so I knew there was a cause for this. Well, through the drive I put my finger on it. Hubby is going to buy a motorcycle and tonight while we were driving home from MILs he started talking about us riding together and said he wants to get me some leather pants, some chaps, and that he thinks I'll look amazing on the back of a motorcycle. I was excited about this, thinking with the weight I've lost before long I will look HOT in some leather pants. And that's what brought on the need to binge feeling. Due to some things in my past I have always had this sense that to be pretty, or sexy, or just to be seen womanly brings trouble, it brings bad things. Fat is the ultimate way to cover up, isn't it? It's like hiding who you are beneath a whole other person made out of blubber...and no one wants to look at you. Same reason when hubby says he loves me how I am and still finds me attractive, that used to make me eat all night...subconscious message: you're not fat enough yet! He still wants you!!! Okay, so just the idea of going into something new, wearing biker chic clothes, that just set off those internal thoughts and the urge to eat is what I've always done when it comes to that. Well, I came home and dropped the junk food on the kitchen table, locked myself in the bathroom and cried myself silly in the bathtub. Hubby thought something was seriously wrong with me, but I told him no, that for once I am just dealing with emotions instead of stuffing them down and ignoring them. For once, I am figuring out what is REALLY going on inside my head instead of running from it. I realized through all this that I"m not just excited about him getting this motorcycle, I'm terrified about what changes it will bring for me. I know they are dangerous and I worry about what if we wreck and our children are left alone? What if I DO look hot on a bike and hubby isn't the only one who thinks so? Most importantly, can I handle the attention that weight loss and this combined might bring my way? I don't like attention on myself, would much rather sit back and quietly go unnoticed. I definitely have issues with men looking at me with any sign of attraction. I just have to deal with it, get beyond it. I've been hiding these emotions and fears most of my life and it is time to just deal with it. I am so proud of myself though, because I didn't eat the junk food. I don't even want it now because I know what's going on and I've dealt with it in a more mature, healthy fashion. Okay, I've dumped enough on y'all for one night. I still feel like just crying my eyes out so I guess I have more dealing to get through. But at least by the time I get through this, the weight will be off for good and I am confident of that this time. I have never dealt with the issues before, so I feel like I've broken a milestone here in this journey. When I came back here and saw all the support I was so happy to have found you all. You are such a huge help. It would be hard to deal like this all alone. Theresa |
ooh theresa,I hope you did NOT get the milkshake..how about keeping some ff yougurt and some fruit in the freezer?? If you have a blender or smoothie maker you can make your own and it'll be healthier for you..
One of my fav's is to take some ff plain yougurt and skim milk, I put a 1/2 tsp of peanut butter in and a zip of chocolate syrup and and whirl away.. has some fat as it has PB in it but it's a good treat and helps when my family is tanking on ice cream- I also make sf/ff choclate pudding and have it with coolwhip free and it helps kill my chocolate cravings.. we had a great BBQ but I ate too much. Nothing bad just too much of good foods. I had extra grilled veggies when I was already full... I am stressing some - my oldest has to move out of her BF's cause all they do is fight. He is always mad at her - she told her dad not to tell me so I couldn't find out she has decided to move becasue she does'nt want to hear my opinions. So I again need to let go and let her find a place to live that she can afford and keep my nose out of her business, but I worry about stupid stuff like can she find a place? what will she do if she can't? and I worry that the BF is mad at her alot.. My first hubby was so abusive and I deal with abused women at work so I panic at certain signs. :( I don't know if they sell this bacon around anyone else But Gwaltney brand sells a bacon that is only 1 -2pts. per serving for WW and is low in calories and fat.. It's in a green box, I don't have any in the fridge so I don't know the exact name. I think it tastes good and I crumble some in a few scramble egg whites with a handful of veggies and pack it into a pita. I hope everyone is having a great weekend- some places are getting gas deliveries and places have milk again so things may be looking up.. Night all ! :) And I hope it does get easier.. for all of us. |
I will aim for a loss of 4 lbs and a 8 hours of exercise for the month.
Right now I able not able to 10 hours of exercise a month because I am working 50 hours/weekly and returned to school with 5 classes. |
you are awesome thersea! it's so amazingly hard to have to deal with these kinds of issues but you are hanging in there. i am so proud of you!
and also brave ;) i would be scared to death to be on a motorcycle. or wear chaps, even if i was at my goal weight :lol: what are y'all planning on doing for the holiday? anyone dreading bbqs and pie out there, or do we all have plans in place for dealing with the temptations of yummy holiday-type food? i am cooking carne asada bbq with dh tomorrow, so i am planning on 325 cals of two tacos with the fixins i like. not too bad. going to stay away from tortilla chips with guacacream though. gosh i love that stuff. maybe there is some way to make it low-cal. sounds like you have a lot on your plate allie! busy schedule! good luck with meeting your exercise goal though. i'm sure that's plenty with all your activities. |
Originally Posted by Purplefirefly: Well that about sums up my absense for the past couple of weeks. I started into the downward spiral of bad eating and finding every excuse not to exercise. I don't know what the actual trigger was - possibly people noticing that I had lost some weight. It seems ridiculous that compliments would cause me to do the opposite of what got me them in the first place. Shouldn't I be happy and proud of myself for finally taking steps to get my body to a healthier state? One suggestion someone wrote when I first wrote of my spiral when it was beginning to happen was to make a list of all the reasons to lose the weight and then place them on the refrigerator as a reminder when I feel the urge for the fix. After I exercise this morning that is exactly what I intend to do. |
hey theresa, my post posted right after yours and I was in the middle of a second post when we lost power. I am so proud of you and your decision NOT to binge! You rock!
As I said above my ex hubby was abusive and one of his abuses was that I had to look a certain way- I had to keep at a certain weight, my hair and makeup had to be just so and I had to dress very proper (no jeans in public) If another man even glanced at me , he took it out on me, it was my fault. When he was gone on 6 month deployments I would eat what he wouldn't let me eat when he was around for 3 months and then I would do whatever it took to lose the weight in the next 3 months. It took me 8 years before I woke up and left. it's been 17 years since the divorce and I still have issues with eating. I gave up drinking 18 years ago and I gave up smoking cold turkey 10 years ago and I can't seem to let go of the eating issues. I know my now hubby (we'll be married 10 years in Feb.) has no problem with me , my weight or losing any weight. I still have fears that if I look better/ lose weight he may get upset with me if someone else pays attention to me , even though I know he won't. He's not like that at all- So I understand where those feeling may come from. I have such bad cravings that I shake and get mean or I cry, try to convince myself 1 cookie, candy bar, "d" word won't hurt and I have to battle NOT to eat it. - just like a person going thru withdrawls. my dr. said it can last up to 3 months. if you eat one food that triggers your cravings it starts all over again. Jeane welcome back!! You can jump back on the wagon and get going again. :cheer: Cadwell - i have a recipe for Lf guac- have to look it up and post later. I think we used LF sour cream and although the avocado has fat it is a good fat, like those good omegas etc.. I am dreading the BBQ at inlaws to a point- Grandma makes like 3 kinds of cake and they always have munchies out.. I did get LF hot dogs for us so that'll help and I bought baked lays for me and made a big salad so that will help too- Have good day everyone. |
Originally Posted by : Originally Posted by : Jeanne ~ I wondered where you were! Welcome back! Theresa ~ Good for you! I'd say you're over one really big hurdle! |
Theresa- You are terrrific, to be able to stop and think and try to figure out what is driving you is so great. and if you can do it this time, you will be able to do it next time.
You have really turned a corner. I think we all have issues with men looking at us. Sometimes it makes me feel good and sometimes I hate it. My dh used to try to support me in my food issues. Then it became me against him and I would sneak and eat when I was annoyed with him. I felt like I was defying him. Now we don't discuss it at all. I'm sure he has noticed that I am eating differently, but he is absolutely quiet about it. Only one of my friends knows I'm trying and we hardly talk about it. I don't want attention drawn to me. I keep thinking about how huge I look in my son's wedding photo proofs. I hope that by the time the albums are printed, (they have paid for a mother's album for me that will be lots of our family, including me, ) I will look a bit different and I won't be too miserable. BTW-I don't try too hard to find substitutes for foods I like. If the substitute is going to make it taste really different, I would rather have a small amount of the real thing. I bought little Dove Bars thingys. They are 60 calories and so good and not makebelieve ice cream. I'd rather have that than 60 calories of ice cream substitute stuff, that ultimately is disapointing. Laura |
Welcome back Jeanne. You can get over the downward spiral, you just need to get moving and refocus your mind. Do you have any pictures of yourself that really make you want to just rip them up so no one else sees them? Or some pictures of you at a smaller size where you'd like to be again? Sitting and just looking at those, I mean really looking and studying them, can make you feel motivated again. I found some pictures of me when i was 180 and I would just love to be there again. I want to go a bit below that, but it is still so motivating to look at them.
I did yoga this AM and I LOVE it! I am going to start doing it every morning! I pulled out all my old workout tapes and made a schedule for September that uses all of them, trying to shake things up a bit ya know. I have this AM Yoga tape (can't find the PM now) and I have had it for like 5 years or more and this was the first time I ever actually put it in the VCR...shows how old it is since I get DVDs now lol but I just LOVED it. I felt so relaxed and peaceful and ready for the day. It was great and will be my new best friend for waking up at 5AM. I feel so much better today :D Even though our husky ran away :cry: and we can't find her anywhere. We just got her and now she is gone already. Frustrating, considering we took her from a tiny cage where she had lived her entire life not even able to move, let alone run. Put her in a very large backyard where she could run to her heart's content, and that wasn't good enough. I was brushing her every morning, she always had food and water, kids loved her to death...so, why she wanted to runaway is beyond me. Her brother got out as well, but he was just sitting on the front porch and willingly went back into the yard. :cry: Cadwell, I am scared of the motorcycle as well. They are so dangerous. Hubby hasn't gone out to get it yet, so I keep convincing myself he will just forget about it...NOT. I won't have to ride it much, since we have the kids and no one to watch them for us to go out riding that often. So, I will mostly just be worrying about him on it. He thinks now is the time since gas is so high and his truck just guzzles it up and takes lots of $ to fill. He's right, but I still dont' like the idea. I said we should just go buy him a small car that will take the regular gas, but he didnt' like that idea ;) Theresa |
Jeanne so glad you are back! I had a similar thing happen to me few weeks ago and was incognito for about a week. You made the right choice-forget it and move on.
Theresa-very proud of you! I am hoping they get better over time too and I know alot of my stuff stems from issues with men also. Alot of lousy boyfriends when I was young and two really crappy husbands-almost a tossup which one was the worst. While the one thing I want more than anything is a healthy loving marriage, I also am scared to death to make yet another really bad choice in men and wind up starting all over again. I am still trying to dig myself out financially from the last marriage while he walks away when it was all his freakin fault in the first place. To add insult to injury he owes me a huge amount of money in child support and it doesnt' even bother him. So obviously I still have issues LOL. Good thing I have alot of weight to lose to work through it all. I have an old pic of me in the hallway and I see it and want to cry! Course I want to cry when I see more recent pictures of myself also. I also identify with sabatoging myself when people start to notice that I am losing weight. I haven't really told anyone about what I am doing other than my mother but geez I tell her everything. Makes a person wonder why we do that-take it to a negative level when it should be something completely possitive and make us feel all warm and cozy inside. Maybe because I fear then men will notice too-dag nab-is this a viscious circle or what???? Ok need to take Josh's bike up to put air in the tire and drop off an invoice to my mother since she sold another doll dress on auction yesterday. Keep soul searching-the answer is there! Melissa |
My goal this month is 10 pounds to be at 213. I am doing weekly goals also which really help me along the way.
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wtg ali!!
welcome back jeanne. i was wondering about you. it's great you're getting back on the wagon! theresa, hope you find your husky. glad you're feeling better. well dh has to play video games now. see y'all later ;) |
I know setting goals helps me alot and also gives me quite the sense of accomplishment when I do them-making me want to get to the next one all the more. Keep on going Ali!
Melissa |
Here is a new twist and to keep things in perspective:
What seems to be "nuturing yourself" through food is really self-abuse! When I read that today in my study, I had a light bulb moment and that statement is so very true! We aren't doing anything nice to ourselves when we do those things and truthfully, would we do that to someone else? I am going to try and keep that in my mind and putting it on a card and sticking it on the fridge so it gets stuck in my head to stay. Melissa |
Today was a really hard day. I had food on the brain. I should have left the house, but I didn't. I did some work for our company and I cleaned the stove and put up a shelf to help organize my never neat kitchen. All I thought about was food, but I managed to stay OP. A miracle.
Laura |
That is what is important Laura-YOU DID IT-even though it was hard you did it and you should be very happy with yourself. I am told it gets easier and there are fewer episodes. Guess we could take this just like addicts-one day at a time and with the passage of time, we strengthen. I think the hardest part about food being the drug of choice is that it isn't something you can put down and never touch again. We need it daily to live. I am really proud of you!
Melissa |
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