I started a "new" calorie-counting diet four weeks ago today. Then I weighed in at my "highest weight ever" of 266 pounds. My goal for today was to weigh in at 255, a loss of 11 pounds in four weeks. Not undoable, right? Well, this morning I weighed in at 270 pounds.
Time for a "new" new strategy, because at the rate I'm going, I will weigh in at 300 by the end of this year, middle of next.
About myself: I'm 29-years-old. I'll be 30 in January. I've always had a problem with my weight (well since about the 4th grade, anyway). When I was a child, as soon as I got off the bus at my Granny's house I had food waiting for me. 2 pot pies, eggs and bacon w/homemade biscuits, bowls of cereal, etc--every day there would be great-tasting, very high-fat food waiting for me. I'd eat then and again when I got home to Mom & Dad's house. In no way am I saying that my family is responsible for me being fat, but the foundations were laid early. To this DAY, I still "have" to eat something as soon as I set foot in the door. It's a mind thing.
The first time I ever hit 250 lbs. I almost had a panic attack; went on a calorie diet and lost down to 219. For the longest time I kept my weight steadily between 230-240, and even though I wasn't HAPPY with that, I was OK there. I've always joked that 237 is my ideal weight.
I got a new job in October of 2003. Along with the new job came a new place of residence and, of course, a new boss. I began suffering anxiety in relation to the boss. Just couldn't cope--hated to get out of bed and go to work, which I had to anyway. Some people deal with stress by not eating. I'm the opposite--I eat and eat and eat!! Between October and March I had gained about 15 pounds. To help cope with the anxiety, I joined the gym in the city where I lived. I lost the 15 pounds, and was back to 235-ish territory. That was good.
Did I mention the new job? Travel was a part of that (yeah, that was back when the gov't had money ). In July I got to spend a week in Omaha, Nebraska. Ate out every meal. In August, spent a week in Little Rock, AR (ate out every meal). In September, spent a week in Kansas City, MO. Ate out every meal. In January, another week in Little Rock. I did, however, take my food that week (had a room with a fridge and a microwave). I had pretty much quit weighing myself by then, so I'm not sure exactly what I weighed at the beginning of that week. When I got home the following Monday, though, I weighed 256.
Since January, I've gotten transferred back home (Oh, I guess I should throw in the fact that I got married in November of '04), I've lived with my husband (who wants MEALS) since June 1st, and I have continued to pack on the pounds.
Anyway, that's just some background (very slight, I know).
Since today is August 1st AND a Monday, I thought today would be the perfect day to try something "new" dietwise. I am going to start eating at Subway. Yes, I'm going the Jared route and eating the "Subway diet." I know it'll be costly, but I'm willing to pay the price (my plan is to buy a footlong at lunch and eat 6" for lunch and 6" for supper). I also know it'll be the same food over and over and over again. I can cope with that. I actually am not bothered by eating the same things consistantly. Plus, I will add some variety by eating cereal for breakfast every day--I can change types of cereal--and eating a couple of 100 calorie snacks throughout the day.
I changed my ticker this morning. I put the scale away this morning. I'm not touching it again until next Monday. I'm trying to get away from the incessant need to weight daily.
If anyone wants to join me, no matter what diet, you're more than welcome. If not, that's fine, too. I really just started this thread because I thought it would help ME to feel more accountable for my actions if, perhaps, one or two were actually checking in and reading about my journey.
I won't check in every day. I don't have a computer at home, and I get way too busy at work to 3FC every day. I will do my best, though.