June 1st, 2005
 

Hi Kingdom,
Ivanna is doing better today. She is journaling all her food, and just got back from the Royal Curves! 4 glasses of water down already.

I had an email from Anne Collins (diet person - I believe in Merry Old England), and she suggested that I use Trisha's death as a jumping off point. So that when I am thin and healthy, I can associate the feeling with our beloved dog. Good thought, eh?

More later - off to the Royal Job (or is it the Royal Pain in the A?)
Ivanna B. Svelte

Thinking of you, Anagram and Ceara! :angel: And you too, Ivanna.

I had a great overnight beach trip and came back to drama at work and a little in my personal life too. Oh well.... :o all will be well though. I'll feel better after the board meeting tomorrow. Maybe that uneasy pall will lift from the ol' workplace.

Sorry about the flyby. More later.

Thanks for your support, Amarantha!

Hello all!

Woke up nearly 30 minutes early but under protest..... about 15 minutes later, I was glad I had a few spare minutes but then 5 minutes later am hot flashing to beat the band.... Bearable, but still wonder if this is what the day will bring.... ah well...

Almost Friday....

Ivanna-- Can relate to wondering why we have weeks of eating higher than others... No explanation.... just can relate.... It all will work out... It did for me... :)!!

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Thought of the day :

"Never let your head hang down. Never give up and sit down and grieve.
Find another way."
--Satchel Paige

Question of the day :

"Do you shower/bathe in the morning or at night?"

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Eydie, glad to see you , you've been missed. subject of flowbees came up yesterday and II mentioned you still are using yours..... folks were impressed!

Here's to ALL of us! Let's make it royal no matter what it is!
Time to get lunches made!

KETTLE IS ON!

Good Morning all!!

I'm feeling blah today. Very tired. Must be the dreary weather. I have been so sleepy lately. I think the commute is getting to me. Even though I use the commuter train, I think it's catching up with me getting up so early, and then just sitting here all day. Who knew being bored was so exhausting!!!

Hello, all!!! :wave: Am havin' a crisis at moment re logistics, car repair and employment so this is a hi flybye!!

E, thanks for visitin' my journal ... said hi to thee o'er there as well!!!

Aria, thou art welcome and thou haveth mine support always!!! Thou be doin' great and holdin' steady ... I wish I were as consistent at thou!

I'm a lil confused between my cowgal accent 'n the royal pronouns, so shall taketh meself off now!

Huzzah to the Kingdom of Royal Losers! Raise thy Royal Head! Let NOTHING get in the way of the Royal Goals! Smile prettily, and don't let anyone know what is in Your Royal Countenance~! :):

Hello all.....


Empress.... hate it when we are beholden to the repair places.... just hate it....

Yesterday, w/o a doubt, a close friend made me realize how my weight loss is "affecting" her.... I am suprised as I thought she felt supportive to this point. Someone we both know had a heart attack about 3 weeks ago. This person carries at least 150 extra pounds....He is now recovering but must make choices about his lifestyle.... he assumes his traveling days are finished. I suggested to my friend that another choice could be made ( losing weight) ... My friend than pointed out that she had never seen our friend eat very much.... his weight must be from a medical reason..... I said that this happens far less than we think and that I too would eat more "at home" than people imagined..... WELL, that's when I got an earful.....

and did "back down" a bit that I didnt say never, that certainly, some medical issues and/or medications will put weight on.....

but what I was really hearing in her tone was that she was defending our friend from the "shame" of overweight..... That "maybe something like pituary"
is really "justifiable reason"
I could tell from her tone this has been something "pent" up .....

The "if you are overweight, you are a bad person and should be ashamed." mentality......

And got the message loud and clear that she believes I am "at the judges table" because I think I have become " a good person".....

Well.....

As you can tell, all of this still stings this morning.....

Another expression of how little I feel 'heard' for the past 5 years by this friend....

I plan on emailing her, just a few lines.... to let her know in black and white,
that the one thing I have learned for sure is that what we weigh is
NOT who we are.... no more than our eye color.....and that our mutual friend could have many more years of traveling, etc if he changes his eating and activity habits.....

The only thing about my life that has changed is what I put in my mouth and how I get around.... All the other stresses and problems remain.....
Including, self confidence and shame issues......

Reminds me very much about how different people reacted years and years ago when I gave up drinking........
Only those who felt self concious about their own drinking got very defensive w/ me.....but again, w/ very little instigation...


WW's call this type of mentality "Sabateours".... Interesting how I really didnt
experience it until I got to goal.....

Hmmmmm......

Sorry for such a long me, me, me, vent..... and really about something that only was about a 3 minute conversation.... but the volume and tone said it all...





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Thought of the Day :

"Git her done."--- from the guy on the Jeff Foxworthy Show
("You might be a redneck if....")


Question of the day :

"Can you remember your first haircut?"

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Hi, Froggie 'n Ivanna!!! :wave:

:queen: s I am running late. The car checked out ok and apparently my stress from the accident is still with me because I am still compulsively feeling unsafe, checking tires every few hours, etc., will deal with it. :queen: E gave me a good idea re feeling safe again ... thanks, E!

Kaylets, a three-minute conversation can bother us for years, so no need to be sorry. I was interested in what you had to say because I get this also ... and I think you nailed it with this sentence re when you gave up alcohol: "Only those who felt self concious about their own drinking got very defensive w/ me.....but again, w/ very little instigation..."

Yup.

Qod: I do remember my first haircut ... mom took me to the lady across the street who was a beautician, I think. She "thinned" my hair (why they wanted it to be thin I have no idea). We then made maple syrup candy in the snow and ate it with cashew nuts (for some reason).

Good mornin' all! :wave:

Hi!
About ? of the day: I remember my first haircut well. My mom took me to the lady who cut her hair, a place she ran out of her basement. She proceeded to chop off all my hair--something she called a "pixie cut". I was devastated and it was all made worse by my older twin brothers teasing me mercilessly about it, following me around chanting. 'pixie, pixie'
Ironically, I now wear my hair in that same pixie cut and probabaly will the rest of my life! No more wasting time at the salon though. Long live the Flowbee!!!! ;)

Confession time! My weight is up 5 pounds :o so I'm officially no longer at goal. I really am [and I mean it THIS time] going to start my BFL for women thing starting Monday. I really do feel too heavy right now and my clothes aren't fitting so well, so I have to do something.

Hey, E, we are twins ... I use a flowbee like thing (it's not THE Flowebee, though) to "pixie cut" me hair!!! In winter I let it grow somewhat ... hadn't realized what I do to it is a pixie cut until you mentioned it. And yea I'm with ya in not shelling out the biggie bucks for salons ... anyhow, I hate anyone touching my hair! :lol:

Dinna worrit about that lil ol' five pounds!!!! Maybe it's water, maybe it's muscle, maybe ya might have slipped a little in eating habits, but HEY as you've pointed out to me, we're human, right? And ALWAYS maintaining a perfect weight slows down a human's metabolism and makes one sluggish and unhappy o'er time, so really YOU ARE IN JUST THE PERFECT PLACE right now and poised on the take off of your great BFL adventure ... honestly, I don't think you'd have wanted to do that if you WERE at your perfect weight because your bod would not be ready ... now your bod is asking for change! It's gonna be great!

Workday for me but I gotta go pay a bill and get some food first.

'Cleaning the Royal Kingdom today - well, not CLEANING, but getting rid of piles of junque. We are having tons of company this week, and I need to find a place for them to sleep - under all this clutter!

Actually, I am quite looking forward to having this place look nice - then I am having people CLEAN it on Wednesday.

Should be great for the Summer solstice -

Love to all, Ivanna

DTimpma, have you been following the van cliburn competition live on the web, by any chance?

hello all....

Yesterday went completely awry when my cell phone landed in the toiliet.... Don't ask! Bottom line, water damage is NOT covered w/out the extended insurance.... luckily I had the previous phone w/me which the phone service still uses...
The damaged phone was reactivated and the total time w/o phone service was probably less than 2 hrs but it was nervewracking.....

Was unable to get back in the rhythm of the day -funny the hair cut discussion continues as I wound up there myself yesterday but it was so busy I wound up waiting 4X longer than the cut itself took....

By that time, Dh was home from work and we did a few things but our timing at the library was off and the movies we borrowed turned out to be either, stopped after 10 minutes as we already knew it was a waste of time... or dark and the disturbing... ( ie The Game w/ Michael Douglas and Sean Penn)....Fitting w/ the dark stormy day.....

Today is much sunnier but DH is already icing his bad shoulder and is short tempered. I am wondering what chores I can complete b/4 he's ready to go out to the vegetable store...
There is lots and lots to do... especially since I am hoping to bring a car load of things to my sister's yard sale....

One of the first steps would be to empty the car....

hmmmm....

Eydie-- How is your Dad??

To all...

Thanks for listening yesterday!

KETTLE IS ON!

Holy cow (apologies to our neighbors in the next pasture :lol: ), Kaylets! That IS a terrible way to start the day.

Hope ya have a great finish to it, though.

I lost .2 of a pound and am happy w' that! :)

Hi there, Royals. Taking a short break from medical duty, suhs!

Ceara, glad you're doing well. Going home will be an adjustment.

Congrats in loss, Empress. Eydie, I too am in the gain column - not happy, not resolved to restart yet. But also not beating meself up because circumstances be not the best yet. Brrrr! I do report the damage is nowhere near what it would have been before I resolved to become COURTLY.

Things awry in the dh dept. I'm sure good docs will eventually get it straightened out, etc., etc. and there is naught to do but put that famous one step in front of the other, breathe deeply, etc. Today I am missing dance recitals of two famous little princesses and I have a sore spot in my heart re that too. But in the scheme of things....

Kaylets, hope thee gets out from under the stormcloud. Yesterday was just sort of a horrible day, 'tweren't it?

But today's bright here too and while I'm not fond of hot weather, I think it will cheer up many including dh. Back to reading the paper on the Patio of Peace and Tranquillity (at least if all the mowers would stop).

Re haircut QOD - at least, I THINK it was my first haircut except for when Mom trimmed bits & pieces herself. I think it was about the beginning or end of first grade - prior to that my hair was long, thick and curly - Mom did it usually in the Shirley Temple fashion. It was sort of a "pride & joy" thing to her. We were living w/my paternal grandmother (Dad away because of war). I don't know if it was in the fall or spring but weather was warm and I think I'll go with fall but I know I started school w/long hair. Grandma took me to beauty shop w/her and while there decided it was time I had a haircut (without consulting my mother) because my mother had too much else to do (expecting her fourth child) without bothering with my long curls. Beautician got carried away - did a short bob. Mom REALLY UPSET. Hair eventually grew back, less curly. No more long curl style. Long until I reached 12/or 13 and decided myself I wanted it short, curled up again somewhat. Been short ever since. Not curly anymore, wavy maybe, bushy sometimes. If my children's paternal grandmother had done same, I'd have really been ballistic.

That's a sweet yet funny story, Anagram. Actually I think it was rather cool, if misguided, of your grandma to be concerned with takin' the burden off of her DIL.

I used to hear stories all the time about my mom's experiences with dad's family; they didn't like her, I think. Thought she had ruined their son by marryin' him!!! :lol:

I posted in the journal about another setback in my mental recovering re the driving life ... or rather I didn't post about it exactly as it's too stupid. This is gonna go on for awhile, I guess. But anyhow posted about my new "car doll" (don't ask, it's also a stupid thing in my life which I shared with Eydie but haven't posted about) ... a friend secretly (anonymously, but I know) snuck a new one in my car this a.m. ... her name is Maisie Tamara Ariana.

So I didn't do much work today ... went shopping, read books, ate too much (but legal food only). Tomorrow is deadline so must shape up or ship out ... I REALLY wanna ship out!

Good-day all!!

Been calling around trying to get someone to pick up a bunch of stuff that we want to donate. How come no one wants to come pick it up???? This is my frustration today. Everyone wants the items, but no one wants to come and haul them away. We are talking furniture, a big freezer, a grill etc. I don't have a truck for this or I would gladly haul it to them.
And no, even with giving all of this stuff away, our house will still be full o'junk. I'm just trying to weed out the not needed and neglected. Maybe someone else could get use of stuff that just sitting here in my way. I'm nesting for some reason and NO we're not expecting tadpole number 2. (I already checked and I just got my visitor yesterday, so no babies.

I have been awefully tired lately. I've got the ideas but no drive; very sleepy. I think my bloodpressure is low. I've had extremely good blood pressure all my life, even while preggo. It did dip down a bit then, so maybe once again I need to excersise or something before I become a blob on the couch....


OH GUESS WHAT!!! Sydney said MaMa for the first time yesterday!! She's been saying DaDa and GeeGee (that is what she calls my mom). But MaMa came twice yesterday. Once in the store and once at home when she couldn't see me. She has also learned how to sit up from a laying position. Usually, we sit her up, but now she can do it herself. I beamed yesterday!!


Sorry for the me me me post.

"MaMa!" Oh! How precious, frogger! :bb:

That's a shame you can't get someone to bestir themselves to pick up all the stuff ya wanna donate, Froggie! Have you tried a Boys & Girls Club? They like to get stuff for the kids to use.

Sydney sounds like an extremely intelligent young person to be talkin' already and she's sitting up already? I remember when she was but a gleam in your royal eye! She sounds darling.

Hi, Aria!!! :wave:

Here I be postin' when I HAVE to work! Sigh.

On deadline. Must go.

:queen: s, I'm splittin' from 3FC for awhile; I'm finding myself responding to posts that seem to be baiting me ... not on this thread ... and I likely need a life because I just keep doin' it and obviously need some form o' forum therapy! :)

Will be in the land far far away and back here anon ... or sometime!

Oh NO, Amarantha - don't GO! Just stick with us - the Royal Ones. We will support you, not annoy you!

No, haven't been watching Van Cliburn competition! I don't think we get it here! Always a great thing - but the repertoire list is SOOOOOOOOO long! Boggles the mind.

Doing well here - only one major boo-hooing today regarding the departed Hound! Went to Curves and have had a VERY clean day of eating.

How's the rest of the kindgom?

Two weeks till the solstice! Let's really put it into high gear!
Ivanna B. Svelte

I, too, am hoping that Amarantha will keep checking in with us. I think she will! ;)

Ivanna, it'll get easier--really. Two of my beloved dogs have been gone for years and I still miss them terribly. As a friend of mine said, "they're not really gone, just gone ahead."

Started my Body For Life [for Women!] challenge yesterday, and I feel better already. What a difference a day can make if we only let it! :D Am thinking of starting a journal type thread in the challenges section--will you come visit if I do? :^:

Please stay Amarantha!! I agree, just stick here to us and be not annoyed!!!

Is anyone else as discusted with not losing any weight as I am? Why can't I get the motivation to do anything about it? Maybe it's not really the motivation issue. I have plenty of motivation, it's the actual action part I'm having issues with. I did it before. You ladies where there. Almost 80lbs gone before Sydney. And now I really only need to lose 60 this go round, but I just can't seem to do it. Dang me!!!

Ok enough whining...back to the drawing board...

Amarantha ~ Please don't go!

DTimpma ~ I was watching though the Van Cliburn Foundation website! You could access even in Europe. I agree with you: the rep is a killer!

Hi, all! I'm here ... it's just that whenever I get on 3FC, I tend to go wanderin' in the hinterland o' controversy and can't stop meself from answerin' back when folks get nasty! :)

Like I say, I need a life, but will be here! :)

:) Oh good!

Aria - so what is the addy for the website for Van Cliburn? I can do a search. Are you a singer? I play the Royal Clavier!

Our son is doing the Second Kraft Timpani Concerto with the San Francsico Symphony - 7 concerts have been sold out for 6 months. (Also Beethoven 9th on the program) Seems like all of Boston will be staying with us (family is from Boston) in the next two weeks. I wish I had lost this weight! I want our son to be proud of his mother! Oh well, too late now - but I have been "clean eating" for the past week, in spite of the passing of the Royal Dog! I take it as my personal challenge to continue my clean eating through the orgy of parties and restaurant meals.

Check Sfsymphony.org

Much love,
Ivanna B. Svelte

Test! Sorry :queen: s, I just changed something and need to test.

Huzzah!

DTimpma, I believe it is http://www.cliburn.org
But now the competition is over, so if you want to hear anything it would not be free. They do have an interesting blog covering the events though that is truly dramatic, lol.
Congratulations on your son's success! Did you have him take piano lessons when he was younger?

Just a flybye to report on my new challenge, inspired by Aria's countdown to summer (posted on her journal) ... hi, Aria! :wave:

Here's what I posted in my journal (and now I MUST go to work):

Inspired by Aria's countdown to summer (and somewhat by my outta control cal count and lack of exercise motivation even WITH paying a personal trainer), I'm starting a 12-DAY COUNTDOWN TO MY SOLSTICE GOAL!!! For these 12 days I will eat no more than 2000 cals (tops, plan to be lower, though) and DO A WORKOUT OF SOME KIND each and every day. The penance yard work doesn't count! (Except I haven't been doing that either as the weeds haven't grown back yet) ...

Day 1: Cals ?, Workout: ?, Day of My No Sugar Existence: 141!

Aria, let's do 'er!!!! :wave: Anyone else wantin' to kick some summer solstice, er name of anatomy part delicately deleted, please post a countdown!!! Sis boom bah ...

YESSS!

YES! I will join in a major "DO" - I will break 180 by the Solstice - Hey, isn't it June 21? That's like 14 days! Right?

Ivanna

YES! I will join in a major "DO" - I will break 180 by the Solstice - Hey, isn't it June 21? That's like 14 days! Right?


Oh yes, my son did do piano! Big time! As a matter of fact, he didn't have a private drum lesson until college. I thought drums would help his piano playing - see where that ended up?

Ivanna