Goodmorning Jill! Just a quick one from me this morning.. just wanted to wish you luck with your interview! Relax, and have fun :)

I am heading off to work, and won't be home until late.. poo work! I'll try and come back on here later! It's a HOT and sunny day here.. and I'm stuck inside.. again.. poo work!

-Aimee

We'll have to call you Two-Post Jilly. ;) Here's to a successful interview! :cheer:

Aimee, good to see ya. Poo work, I hear ya. At one job I had, I'd cry the whole time I was getting ready for work many mornings because I so dreaded seeing my co-workers (they were a cruel bunch and we were all crammed in a tiny office together). Oh, and I was clinically depressed, but not diagnosed as such for a few more years. Such a bad time...Be happy you're not in a situation like that. 'Twas the absolute PITS. I am now very thankful for every good day in life!

You've got a new job and all kinds of good possibilities ahead of ya!

The last two days have been exhausting, but good. we've been working on our driveway bed, getting it ready. Blogged about it all and posted pictures over at the Plot. More to do today, though my body protesteth much.

hi (again) ladies! I posted this morning... but WHERE did it go!?

Had a great time at my aunts farm... lots of fun stories but they're all about Lexi, and I don't want to bore you all with dog stuff. Sam and I helped out by digging post holes! WOW is that ever hard work! I still have sore thighs from having to do squats as you're useing the post hole digger. Stayed on plan and stayed the same weight. Much better than I anticipated!

At work now and it's busy so I don't have much time to write...

Good luck at the interview Jill... (it's probably done by now!?)

I'm never bored by dog stories....Heehee. Love my pooches (they're our furkids, don't ya know). ;)

I am mighty tired, but wanted to post so Jill will have more to read tomorrow ;) These long days (9 hours!!) really wear me out, luckily my break was well timed and I didn't get TOO hungry. My brother left this morning, his time here was about 12.5 hours, and then he's off to visit his pseudo-family in Victoria. He'll spend his long weekend with them, and will go straight from Victoria back to Seattle. We had a LATE dinner last night, and he took me for a quick breakfast this morning... we didn't get to talk too much, I had a sinus headache this morning.. but it was good to see him. He was saying how my belly looks smaller.. he's so funny sometimes. My belly MIGHT be smaller, I'm not entirely sure. It made me laugh though..

Kimberley - my job is better than my old one, so I'm defintely thankful for that. I'm also realizing that this is NOT my future, I don't think I could handle this drama for the rest of my life.. I'd go INSANE! Thank goodness you are out of that job situation, I realllllly dislike mean people.

Well, I think I'm going to go find a bed and get some sleep... see yah'll in the morning!

-Aimee

Heya, Aimee -- g'night! LOL I'm heading to bed, myself.

I want a garden, I used to have a lovely one when I lived in Australia, here we have nothing, just a little house built right onto the road, no yard - not even concrete!

This week has been good, but I feel uncharecteristically tired. Exhausted. Like I could sleep for a week. Not sure what is up with me!

My scales are stuck, not moving at all, but I am still losing. Had all my measurements done yesterday, my body fat has decreased 2% in the last two months, and I have lost another 30 centimetres from around my body, mainly my waist and hips.

I'm so glad I get to do that every two months, I would go mad if it was just the scales I was relying on, well madder anyway!!!!LOL

Right, off to my own poo work, I am training new people today, dreading it, would much rather be talking on the phone!

HAPPY FRIDAY! Thanks for posting, Aimee :D

I didn't have to work last night! After my interview, I went to the restaurant, ate dinner, and got changed for my shift. Right when I was about to clock in, a girl who wasn't scheduled came in and said she wanted to work, so I said bye! I went to my TOPS meeting. I was worried about weighing in since I had just eaten dinner (a peanut butter and jelly sandwich and a can of fruit cocktail), and I usually don't eat before the meeting. It showed--I was only down 1/4 of a pound. Still a loss (no gains recorded in my TOPS book at all yet!), but it should have been like a 2-pound loss. Oh well. It'll show up next time I actually get to go to a meeting (I can't go next week because I have both Monday and Tuesday off from the restaurant already, so I have to work my Wednesday and Thursday, even if only for the $$).

So yeah, my interview went well (I think). They said they only interviewed 3 people in person (after weeding through resumes and phone interviews) and would be making their decision soon. It seems like a really great company, and the two men I interviwed with (a Program Manager and the President/Owner of the company) were both really nice. When the Program Manager was walking me out, he asked if I thought the interview went well. I said I thought it did but that it didn't really matter what I thought! He laughed--always a good sign :p I just sent them a follow-up email letter this morning thanking them for their time and attached my professional references and blah blah blah. We'll see, though. I think they think I live too far away and that the commute would be too much for me. If I don't get it, I suppose I'll have that as the bright side to look at--no commuting into the city every day. We shall see...

Well, Jeff will be at my place way before me today. His shop is closing at noon for the holiday weekend, so he will leave his office by about 12:30. I can't leave here until around 1:30 or 2, so he'll beat me by maybe a half hour. Better than me having to sit around and wait for him--I hate when he gets stuck in traffic and ends up being like an hour late. I always start wondering if he was in an accident or something, ya know?

Anyway...off to do some work. Kick off the weekend well, ladies!

Jill, you might consider also sending them a hand-written thank you note. Every employer I've had has commented on that after I've been hired, so it must be unusual enough to make you stand out in a good way.

That's great about losing the inches and body fat. I struggle with whether or not the scale is helping or hindering me; on the one hand, it can be really discouraging, but on the other, it seems to keep me accountable.

Speaking of those evil contraptions, I barely lost 1/2 pound this week, so I'm at 224 1/2. My ticker's staying the same at 225 since I can't do 1/2 pound increments. It's time for change here. I'm dropping my calories to 1500/day, and I'm not going to eat after midnight (3 hours before bedtime). I'm also going to make SURE I drink my water - I've been slacking off and I know darned well I'm retaining water because of it.

Today it's gorgeous and I'm anxious to work outside in the yard. Our stone wall to the right of the driveway is going to be rebuilt soon, probably around the second week of June - yippee! I posted an ad for bartering at Craig's List, saying I'd trade photography services for a landscaping professional rebuilding my stone wall.

The next day, a local landscaper wrote back and we've been writing back and forth finalizing details. She just got married last year and wants me to do portraits of her family out at their farm; she would like black and whites, some with them wearing black t-shirts and jeans, barefooted. That's just the kind of casual portraits I love doing. I'm excited!

Anyone heard from Marge? :?:

Goodevening! I got up this morning.. LATE, and then tried to get on here, but the site went down. So I went on with my day, we drove about 100 km's to Harrison, which is a small town along a glacier fed lake. The drive was beautiful, as always, and when we got there is was HOT HOT HOT! We went for a walk, I walked in the water for a bit, and we had something to eat. It was a good time, a little TOO hot for me though. For some REALLY odd reason I only put sunscreen on one arm, I need to be slapped. However that didn't help at all, I got a slight burn along the straps of my tank top. I'm going to put some aloe on it and hope for the best!

I haven't heard from Marge yet either.. I left her a msg a week or 2 ago. Hopefully her computer is broken at work and at home?

Alrighty, I am off to find my aloe! Have a great night all :)

-Aimee

Hellloooo?!?! Anyone hoooomeeee? ;)

Well my "sleeves" are still hurting a little... my burnt literally looks like sleeves. It's funny, but oh so bad for the skin! I've learnt my lesson! I will be buying some SPF 30 sunscreen on Friday, hopefully our heat wave will have calmed a little bit, cuz it's SO hot! It was 30 degrees out at 11am this morning! We are holding steady at that temperature.. and I am SO looking forward to working in airconditioning! (Thats 86 in American ;) ) We have a nice cross breeze going on in my house, thanks to 2 fans. I have a nice short shift today, I was asked to work the entire day, but I'm tired of being called in for shifts. I like my time off, especially since my bf has the day off as well. We will likely go for a walk after I'm done with work, along the ocean. I love the summer :) Have a great day all!

-Aimee

Yeah, definitely usually slows down here over the weekend. I am usually guilty of only posting from work, so I can't blame anyone else :p

So, I had a rough night last night. **warning: VERY personal information ahead** Jeff and I were watching tv and started messing around--no big deal, very normal. Well, he wanted me to *ahem* get on top :o So I did (it's not fair for him to have to do all the work all the time ;) ), and when we were done, I went in the bathroom and just started crying! All these thoughts that I feel like "normal" people never have to worry about--I should NOT be afraid I'm going to hurt him if I'm on tope, I should NOT have to worry about how gross it is that my stomach hangs down and touches his when I'm sitting up, and I should not have to worry that my thighs are like 3 times the size of his! I was just so frustrated and fed up with being FAT! Not that I'm not fed up with being fat every day, but it was particularly bad last night. One of the worst parts is, when I came out and sat back on the couch with him, he asked me what was wrong, and I just said nothing. Why can't I talk to him about it?! In the year and nearly 3 months we have been together, I have only ever mentioned my weight as an issue for me ONE time. I just can't get myself to open up to him about it (maybe that's why I spill so much on here to you guys every day :D ). I know I should be able to talk to him about anything, but I also know how helpless one can feel when someone has a problem you can't fix, and I don't want him to feel like that. I also know how unattractive it is to a guy when a girl is so insecure about her body. On the weekends (when I'm with him) is whenI go horribly off plan, but it is so not his fault. When I first started, I cooked healthier meals for us at home, and he never once complained. Now, we're back to eating out for almost every meal again. I know I'm still losing weight slowly and semi-steadily, but--I don't know. I just don't know :?:

We're going to his mother's house today. Plenty of junk food, I'm sure, not that that will be different from any other Sunday, so I'm sure my strictness throughout the week will make up for it just enough, as per usual. Why must all holidays revolve around food?

Sorry to be such a downer, guys. It should be a happy time--3-day weekend! I'm just struggling to deal with some issues. Catch ya all later--hope you're all feeling more FABULOUS than I am :^:

Oh Jill... how I know your feelings ALL too well! I struggle not to feel self concious when I'm "intimate" with Josh, I keep reminding myself that he doesn't CARE if I got a belly roll. But guys just don't think the way we do! They just wanna see nakedness, and breasts. YOU rock his world, thighs, belly and all.. :) See if you two can have a little "routine" of making eachother breakfast? Or doing it together.. one healthy meal a day is better than none :)

Alrighty! I must go to work, stupid stupid work... yesterday was a VERY busy Saturday, and for some reason I ended up working 80% alone from 2:30-6pm. My manager felt the need to go into the mall and talk to her friend for AN HOUR! To top that off, another girl left sick.. well she sure looked fine to me. Perhaps it's just me, but if I'm not contagous (spelling?), I'm at work.. barfing, fever, migraine and all. On that note... I'll be back after work!

-Aimee

Hi everyone!!!!!!(((((hugs Jill))))) I am no help on the topic of s*x and weight. We don't seem to do that anymore, don't know why. I thought it was my weight, but since I have started losing (I am now lighter than when we met) it hasn't got any better. I am trying not to let it get me down, and I keep telling myself it's me not him, but who knows????

I've had a busy day, swimming and gym, no housework yet, that might be tomorrow!!! We have a three day weekend in bonny old England too. We seem to have a lot of those at the moment.

I feel really tired so I might crawl off and have a nap. I'm not sure why I am so tired, old age I guess!!!! I'm so not excited about turning 33 (OMG)

Aimee's right, Jilly. Nakedness and breasts, that about sums it up. ;)

Thing is, you've GOT to be able to open up and talk to Jeff about it. What's worse, having your girlfriend tell you she feels uncomfortable because of her weight...Or going off and crying after sex, with no explanation? A million things could be going through his head as he tries to figure out what happened, what he did wrong, what the problem is. See what I mean?

As far as the going out to eat thing goes, that's something else you've got to get out of the habit of -- and back into healthy habits -- before you cohabitate. You need to set your boundaries and keep doing the things that you know are good for you. You can do it!

Talk to this man, honey. (((Jill)))