hectic and harried and putting it all OFF!!!
 

Okay, guys, you have shamed me into writing. I do need a shout to get me in here sometimes and want one. Otherwise I start feeling left out, even though I know it's my fault. :( I have so many things to do but I'm just crying for some downtime. So, this will be it, along with some forbidden tea. The food and exercise have gone the way of the wind because I am so harried. I realize that this is my biggest problem. I am not made for this runaround. But what the ****, I've got to do it.


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NBK -- Thanks for the sweet words and for understanding my times of withdrawal. Between your kind words and stormy's kick A encouragement, I got back! At least I'm here but not really doing anything admirable. . . .You know, you sound so totally healthy all the time and so active that all this stuff about your blood just seems so out of line with everything else. Is this a hereditary thing with your blood? Can it be cured or only regulated? What causes it, not the symptoms, but the root of it? Do you know? Yeah, that was sweet the boyfriend made that in the sand for you. I hope you continue to get along and have fun together. I miss having a guy in my life like that. I was spoiled as a child because my brother was everything to me. Of course, we were just friends!! and maybe that's what I'm looking for in guys most of the time. Well, I mean, I'm not looking for it but those are the guys I have around me, all male friends. Problem is most can't even handle that, or the girlfriends or wives can't. Makes for lonesome times. The sig others don't believe I just want to be friends and more often than not, the guys don't want to believe it either. I think it hurts their egos. I am honestly happy having male friends. The guys I get involved with otherwise are usually jerks or I get bored with them very quickly. Oh heck, where did this come from. Must be the tea, which I'm not supposed to be drinking. . . Oh and yeah, send that boyfriend about here toute suite!! I need a guy that'll clean and do it happily. I am a natural slob. My abode would make any pig happy. I live in an overgrown, wild and tangled jungle, so thick it is impossible to see what is hiding in its midst. I want a male housekeeper to keep things clean enough so I can invite tons of people in for regular all-night bashes. He will cook delicious healthy vegetarian meals and make boxed lunches for me to take to work and other snacks for throughout the day. You know, really, if I were rich, or shall I say, when I am one day rich, I will hire people to do this for me. This is truly what I want! And then I'll just hire in guys to take care of other things as well. ;) Ah, that would be the life. Wow, this tea is really affecting me!

storm -- thanks for telling me to get my butt in here. It worked. Yeah, I've got to fess up, chocolate and more chocolate, ice cream bars and what have you. Damn. I just let go. Your reminder about VDay, which is a joke over here (girls give guys obligatory chocolate, guys do nothing but ask, "where's my chocolate?!"), made me angry with myself for having said I would be lose the weight and here I am doing zilcho about it. Discouraged, more like ticked off with myself, oh, just gotta find a way. Work just sucks my life away, takes all my time away. Oh well. Glad you got a good flight out this weekend. It must be fun to fly all the time. And the car coming back. 13 weeks, that is a really long time in the States I would think. People tend to live in their cars, no? What are Dove bars, by the way. I can only think of soap and it doesn't sound too good. No doubt a good thing! By the way, the meeting with the Olympic medalist is over. It was a press conference, not an interview. Sorry if I said that already. It was fun. I will tell you some things he said that made me think. Please remind me to do that, OK? You are shaming me into doing Pilates. Well, not yet, but I feel I must. It seems everyone is doing it and it's supposed to be really good for riding.

Crime girl -- yes, I am going to attribute my loss of balance to the lack of horoscopes! Always good to put the blame somewhere other than where it belongs! Sorry to hear life is overwhelming now but kudos to you for keeping up with the exercise. I am very impressed. I totally hear you with the grabbing food bit but, heh, like I said, the exercise is super important and will help change your body inside, right imbalances and all that and you will eventually get it all together! Keep it up CG, you are, and I think I speak for everyone here, an incredible inspiration. And I really mean that. Look at you, with everything on your plate (Irishism? no pun intended!) you still make the time to come in here and give each and every one of us a line and word of encouragement. I really miss you when you're not here, your colorful posts and upbeat tone, unflagging optimism even in the face of a work and study deluge. You're super!

grasshopper -- how are you!?! Are you detoxed yet? I still can't believe what you went through at your grandmother's. It sounded awful. Perhaps though it was meant to show you yourself just how much you really want to eat healthy now. As you said, it's not HAVING to eat like that, it's WANTING to and when you realize that it can mean big changes. I think this is something I have to look at constantly, not just with eating, but with all aspects of my life.

KJK -- I'm glad you checked in. I was worried about you kind of. I hear you on the work deluge. That's a shame. Just try to get through it without doing too much damage. I think grass' suggestion to get the exercise out of the way in the morning is good but maybe, if you're like me, you just want to sleep in so I can understand if you just don't have enough resolve to do that now. With your schedule I can very well understand it. I think too, after work, is very hard. This is my problem as well and that's why I've been trying to force myself to get to the gym before work. On days I'm not going to work I'm usually riding and that means getting up early so I do that. Hmm. other days, I try to incorporate a bit more walking into my commuting routine or force myself to take a break at work and walk. Can you do this? Do you drive to work? Can you park farther away than usual. Can you get out at all during the day? Tell me more about your day and maybe we can think of something. Also, you can still watch your eating. Maybe you can focus on that and not worry so much about the exercise.

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OK, I have spent way too much time writing this. But you all I know just want so very, very badly to hear from me?!?! Right?!?! Right!?!? . . . . shaking heads. . .silence. . . oh well. . .ciao tutti! :wave:

Hi guys - 3:30 am and I can't sleep. It seems to be the magic time of day when I either sleep through or wake up and stay up....need to look that number up on the eastern clock and see what meridian that is associated with...just for kicks :)

Red - now that I'm home and detached from it, it doesn't seem like **** anymore. It was very hard at the time though because while I like the way I eat now, who wouldn't want a can of pringles?? And to have someone who loves you waving things in your face constantly saying "this won't hurt you - you're just scared you're gonna get fat...well you're starving yourself to death as it is..." If BF did that I'd deck him! But I've been away long enough now I can remember the good stuff about the trip too.

As for the understanding finally and WANTING to eat this way - apparently that was isolated to my vacation. Last night it was all I could do to keep my hands out of BF's dinner - pasta with spicy sausage. Then I had these chocolate chip cookies that were made out of rice. I am not suppose to have them but had 4. I'm sending them out of the house today. No way I can go 5 days without those cookies and be fine - and yet NEED them now. It must be boredom. I wasn't hungry.

Red - I'm glad you're back on the board too! I'd love to hire men to do ALL of my work :) And one with good massage hands too :) As for the weight loss frustration. Been there!!!! Falling down is not failure! Failure is not getting back up. Get up and keep trying. You'll get there one step at a time. Maybe they're babier than you'd like but you're talking about a life change - not a fad diet! Life changes are NOT easy or we'd all make them every day. You can do this and we're here to help you.

I'm falling asleep now so I'd better go. Cross your fingers for our weather. I need to work today. Can't afford to keep losing clients to ice and snow. sweat dreams - or good day.

grass -- ox or the tiger. most people would say tiger but the signs really apparently overlap for two hours either way. ox is 2 a.m. and the two hours before or after, tiger is for 4 a.m. and the same. But I don't know anything about it really.

OK, glad to hear there were good things about your visit and I'm also glad you're still human and yearning for those bad awful foods too! ;) I like the way you say "I sending them out of the house!" I can just picture the Queen of Hearts in Alice in Wonderland or something screaming, "Off with their heads!!" and you pointing to the door and screaming, "Out of the house!!" to the cookies. :rofl:

Thanks for the kind words. You're so right. Getting back up. I had a really good quote about that, quite a crude one, from the SEALS but it is trapped in my dead computer and I can't find it. If I do I'll post it here. It always gave me encouragement.

It's funny you should say that about changes not being easy. I was so frustrated this morning riding because I just can't seem to get what I have to be doing (with my pelvis and hip joints and all) and the teacher isn't too good about saying I'm at least headed in or seem headed in the right direction. She said she didn't expect me to get it right away and if I did then she certainly wouldn't need to be teaching me because it would mean I had amazing talent. I did, by the way, get her to say that I looked like I was indeed heading in the right direction! Hurrah!

Ok, thought I'd catch you still awake but it looks like you're 'aslumberin'. Fingers crossed for your weather. :crossed:

Oh, yeah, one more thing. I just had a slap on the head from someone. Decided I was going to make this box of Kraft Macaroni and Cheese, something I grew up on and haven't had in years and years. I'd got it at the imported foods shop and it was sitting around and I thought I'd make it at last in a pigout kind of moment. Well, I'm thinking of eating it, yum, yum, with the pasta boiling away. Then I go to drain off the water and stupid me, I wasn't thinking and the boiling water goes over my fingers holding the sieve and I drop the sieve into the sink (which was in need of cleaning!). So all the pasta (but a little bit) felt out and was not salvagable. Now, was someone trying to tell me something!!? OK, I can take a hint!

:) Red - your pasta story is too funny. Too bad BF's food didn't fall in my floor last night :)

I tried to sleep but it didn't work. So I did some yoga for stress and pilates for my droopy belly :) I'm fully awake and half functional now.

Oh, to answer your question - I am still detoxing. To fully detox takes 3-6 months. Most people detox that first bit of gunk with the two week programs. They get about 30% of the junk (and it's better than doing nothing!). I'm after as much of it as possible...because the last bit is all the chemicals and the strong stuff that was able to withstand the liver and everything else in the body trying to get rid of it :) :) Besides, after the stuff I was exposed to this weekend I have a bit of an extra detox headache right now. I did get a glimps of how I use to feel all the time. Anxious, in pain and feeling of being out of control of my emotions and thoughts - like they were completely running me and I was just along for a wild ride. It set in on the plane ride home. That feeling of "my god I need to eat crap and NOW!" I was completely losing the ability of saying "no you don't - you're not even hungry and you don't even like that stuff."

I think a big difference between my being able to not eat at night while there vs. here is that there I always had people to talk to. Family was coming to visit constantly - cousins were staying over - my sister and brother are both really late night owls....they all kept me busy. Here we watch TV and relax....that means I have more time to think about food and I end up eating late at night, when I'm not even hungry. I need to work on that. Find stuff to do - make soa, replant flowers, crochet on my blanket...anything.

I'm rambling now - I hope you're still around to read this :) hahah!!

ramblin' duo
 

hi there grasshopper -- yup, I went out to the store after the pasta loss and got the stuff for a salad. Got some other stuff too but we won't talk about that. Made and ate the salad. Hurrah! I've always said, it's like adding water to a fish bowl. You can't take the water out and dump in new or you'll kill the fish. Keep slowly adding fresh water (good food) and the old dirty water (the junk food) will go.

You know, reading about detox. It would seem that all these "cravings" people talk about are really just that the body has been poisoned. I mean, as a kid, I ate very well, good food because my mom was really strict. I never had cravings. And all this talk of pms and stuff. When I'm off sugar I don't even know my period is on the way till it's upon me. I think too that this is part of what you're talking about. All the junk that's put in food, so much doesn't even have to be listed and besides, what does the FDA know really. If big business hasn't bought them off then still, what do tests really prove most of the time. There is so much science doesn't understand.

You know, about the talking and not eating and watching TV and thinking about food and eating, I think a lot of that is pure habit. You know how in the States when you watch a movie it just naturally means eat and drink for most people. Well, here no one eats anything at all or drinks anything. Well, ok, a few people but they are the exception. I thought it was really weird when I first came here but now I'm the opposite, I find it strange when I'm in the States to see all this eating going on in the theaters. Then again, that doesn't mean it stops me from eating or anything. . . ;) So much of it is psychological cues, like with smoking and people saying they have to smoke when they drink or they have to have a cigarette after eating. We're all like Pavlov's dogs really and we can break the cues somehow I think, just haven't really thought about it much. With smoking I just said to myself, "I'm not a smoker anymore. I just don't do smoking." It was simple because it was black and white. Eating's not like that and people (at least I for one) don't like the sound of "never again" when it comes to our favorite foods.

Ramble on, grass. I love ramblers!

"Oni wa soto, fuku wa uchi!"
 

By the way, today (Feb. 3) is a Japanese traditional holiday.
It's called Setsubun and you get dried soybeans and throw handfuls of them out your front door yelling "Out with the demons, in with good luck!" It's to purify your house or office, wherever you do it. Just don't hit people with the beans! And be sure the beans are dried ones. Don't just like open up a can of baked beans and start throwing it, SPLAT!!
And then, for good health in the year, you eat the same number of beans as your age plus one extra.

Crime girl -- try it out at work and people will really think you're nuts!!

Wow - I bet the movie industy here is hoping that fad doesn't make it's way to the US! You spend more money on food than you do the movie ticket!! I had a friend with Cancer when I was younger and she had to eat ice chips or drink water..that's all she could drink there. They would charge her for a large drink every time she got water!!!!! We were in shock and I wrote a letter to the manager..he basically said - sorry, but rules are rules, if we break them for her we have to break them for everone. I never went back to that line again. They have since been bought out by bigger theatres and I can see why - if they conducted all their business that way.

We do not have a dining room or a kitchen table. We have a breakfast bar. At first I thought it was a great save in space. I put a cabinet where the table would have gone - sold the table and all was well. now I'm seeing we'd probably be better off if we had one. We could eat together at the table. No TV and enjoy our meal and have time for each other. AS it is now we eat while watching TV - usually his food is finished first. And then I cook mine. By the time I sit down he's finished eating. Our time together is then watching TV. Usually me reading, him watcing some silly show he likes. I think that needs some tweeking.

Glad you made the salad and I think you're right about the fish bowl. Trying to change all your habits at once is so depressing - it leaves you wanting for every single thing you found comfort in before at a time when you most need it!

I bough a book - 10 habits of naturally slim people. It's really helping me. I attribute a lof of my ease on vacation to that book - and some of the lack of ease now, to the fact that I put it down. Basically they interviewed naturally slim people - weaded out the ones who have always been slim but have been fighting weigh their whole lives - so that all that was left was the people who really had been naturally slim forever. Then they interviewed them on how they eat, why they eat, what they do for comfort, what body parts they hate/like (most never thought enough about their body to hate a part - it was what it was and they liked it). I am enjoying reading about it and becoming aware of things that I do that sabotage my weightloss.....

for example - they say to look at how babies eat. They will NOT eat if they are not hungry. It doesn't matter that it's their favorite, or grandma made it (got me through most of the week!) or that it's a holiday or was expensive...if they aren't hungry they simply don't eat!!! I'm trying to remember that.

okay have to get ready for work. It's snowing outside. I'm scared we're going to have a traffic repeat of two weeks ago. It's not the snow that's the problem - it's a million people hitting the roads at the same time with the snow and ice...no one can get anywhere. At least they treated the roads this time. bye for now!

Hahahaha!! i was thinking of Crime Girl trying it the whole time I was reading along!!!!

Well good luck with the demons! :) And good luck with the beans too :)

"If we have to break the rules for one, we'd have to break them for everyone" :?: This guy would definitely not do well in a logic class. You know, it smacks of Japan though, they're always going on about, "this is what EVERYONE does" and so you (me) can't have it another way. And I'm constantly saying, "I don't give a rat's *** (or Japanese equivalent term) about what EVERYONE does, I just want to do it this way." :lol: Yeah, really, some people need to get knocked over the head. I can't believe that theater said that. Pathetic.

What's the name of that book? That's not the "Thin for Life" book, is it?

Babies not eating when they're hungry! :bb: Again, I have pictures of us following this quite literally, picking up our forks and spoons and just throwing them across the room, slapping at waiters' hands as they're setting a plate in front of us, plate and all the food falls to the floor -- and best yet, realizing we're not hungry after we've just taken a bite of something and just spitting it out, sending it shooting across the table. I love it! Gotta try this!! I'm sure people will find me just adorable!! :rofl:

Oh, heh, take care out there today, grass!

Hey -the book is Ten habits of naturally thin people. I can just see you sitting in public spitting food..throwing peas! :) Great ;) :)

I saw the way we learn guilt and emotional eating in action on vacation though...an aunt had her grandson there and she made him a dessert plate - first it had 3X an ADULT portion - but then she made it AFTER he told her he didn't want any and she begged and begged him to try just one bite. The poor kid finally had a bite just to get her off his back - but none after that. I just sat there thinking OH MY GOD - THAT'S HOW IT STARTS!!!! She MADE him give hugs to all of us too - I'm a stranger...how do you MAKE your child hug and kiss a stranger. I left the room so he didn't have to hug me. I know this isn't weight related but you CAN'T teach a child good touch/bad touch - trust your instincts and be careful with strangers if you're MAKING them hug and kiss people they are scared of! An attitude problem is one thing but making a standard rule that they have to kiss people bye just because it's cute and makes the ADULT feel good - that's crap!! The adult needs to grow up if their self worth is so fragile a strange kid refusing to kiss them can destroy it!

wow, I'm pissy today. Better get ready for work. I have a staff meeting today and this is where the dumb doctor usually attacks me with stuff he's not said all month. i'm tryig to get my game face on and make sure I don't let it effect me. Talk to you guys after work.

Strange but lovable???
 

Okay- I am sitting here laughing my *** off (I wish literally) because I am going to do the "bean thing" for the Japanese holiday and quite frankly perked up at the idea when you were explaining it Red. The funny thing is- you guys have me pegged. :lol: I have every intention of taking beans to work and doing this ritual at lunchtime. I also had the image of people throwing cans of beans outside when I first read it. Good thing you clairifed that Red. :lol3: Otherwise- I probably would have taken some canned beans to work and really mucked the place up! Is there anything I have to say?? If not, believe me I will make something up to give the appearance I know what in the **** I am doing.

Also- I now have a mental image of the opening of a bad restaurant. It would be a room full of food critics throwing food at the waiters and each other like children. :lol: There is a lot of truth in that though- my brother lost 80 pounds following the premise that he would not eat until hungry and exercise is necessary like food and air. He is a marathon runner now. I should take his advice and follow those premises.

Red's horoscope of the day:
Beware of flying beans today. Life is like a flying bean- full of nutrients if you can catch it and cook it up for yourself but dangerous if you allow it to hit you in the head with no attempt to try to gather it's goodness.

Man- I am definitely amusing myself today. Thought you could use some humor Red. :lol:

red- Thanks for the kind words- you are always so sweet to me and I appreciate that. The funny thing is the things you feel you see in me are indeed things that you possess yourself. You have a high capacity to truly care for people and that is a rare trait. Don't get discouraged and let that fade. Keep your ability to see the good in people and to **** with the bad people in life. :D
As for getting back on track- I have absolute faith that you will do just that. I think you also probably sabatoged yourself with the pasta although I have to admit that was a truly funny image you painted.
I think we all bounce through life not fully knowing what we are doing and I think that is what makes it so fun. If everything was neat and tidy and worked out like we hoped- we would be so bored and as humans would create some drama somewhere. The pitfalls in life are sometimes a blessing in disguise. Often we learn and frequently it makes us laugh. Humans are such uniquely weird creatures when you think about it. Anyway- too early to get too deep here. Hang in there!
Congrats on the progress in riding- I know that it is an important part of your life and am happy that you are beginning to excel there. Good job!

kjk- Glad you hopped back on the board- keep coming back!

stormy- so school is this weekend- glad you get to fly. Is your car where your school is located? So you fly up and drive back?? Good luck at school and keep up the good work.

Little grass- WOW girl- you need to get some sleep! Sorry you were up so late last night. Hope the weather cooperates and lets you see clients but if not- at least you can catch up on some sleep.
I think red is right about the habits in eating- that is one reason I cut off my cable. All those commercials and people in shows eating food. I would end up snacking and watching because in my family growing up that is what we did.
I am going to check out the book you were talking about- love to read about how others have done it and suceeded. ;)
As you your episode with the child- I hate to see people do that. A child will eat if he gets hungry. I think it definitely sets a precedent for bad things to come. We need to teach children that eating is a necessary thing to keep living - nothing more nothing less. So- I can see how it would frustrate you seeing her set this child up for failure. It is a sad thing.

NBK- Have fun with the bf! He sounds like a sweet guy. How much longer is he with you before he has to go back?
What is the deal with your blood tests? Are you OK? Do we need to be alarmed? Fill us in, would you? We worry.

Okay- I really have to go. I am now late for work but I feel it was worth it to get to talk some this morning. Thank you ladies for all the inspiration and kindness. You have made a real difference in my life and especially in my struggle to try to lose weight. So- Thanks! :D
Have a wonderful day everyone!!!
(Throwing beans) and Have a happy Japanese Holiday!

One word.. hungover... gaaah....
he he .. well not really, just went out drinking last night with the wireline boys and BF and we were out until 1am... would have been alright as I had stuck to heineken and vodka lime and water/lemonade.. but then bf said he'd never had jager meister, and someone bought some jelly shots... grrr.. if I don't have too much sugary alcohol I am normally fine..but when we got home it was too hot to sleep, had to have a COLD shower.. still only got 4 hours due to heat. Had toastmasters this morning, gave and evaluation for the first time, I was so tired I got dyslexia.. couldn't spell or get my words out right he he.. still I made it there.

Ok - Red - you rock!. I have lots of male friends. That's what I look for in a guy. I get really pissed off with guys who take me being their mate the wrong way (unfortunately the ones that do this are always the weird stalker types, not the hot, cute funny ones I wouldn't mind...). Well done with getting your position in the right place, I remember when I was a kid, my instructor almost broke my leg showing me where my thighs should me, I was that inflexible! he he. As for the pasta.. pasta can be your friend try lemon juice, spinach, toasted pine nuts, garlic and tagatelli or another flat noodle type pasta. Oooh put fresh toms in it too and a little bit of parmesan (I figure you're vegetarian? if not put some bacon in).. it's not too un healthy and provided you don't do what I do and eat a family of 20 sized portion you'll be sweet. You'll forget all about macaroni and cheese too. As for me being active and healthy... pffft lazy and unhealthy more like it. I love to sleep! It's seriously my favourite thing in the world.. well after the bf and cheese..lol.

LGH- I hate people who do that to their kids. My parents didn't thank god. I think because mum had had an episode with the priest who was to christen her. She wouldn't let him pick her up or go near her (she was 3) for anything, so Gma and Gdad had to take her to another church. years later there were allegations of this priest being "innappriate". You know you a bf do have something really good in your time together in front of the tv, you can be relaxed and independent but still together. Alot of people feel the need to be doing the same thing constantly or fill the silence with talking.

CG-I hope the bean ritual goes well!. I have a genetic blood disorder called thalasseamia. It is hereditary, but I seem to have some ******* mutant version of it, as the minor form, which I supposedly have is meant to have no symptoms what so ever. But I have a lot of the issues that people with the major form have (just on a lesser scale) if they live after birth. I wrote to the foundation in the states and they seem to think all my problems are NOT caused by it, but do agree there could be an intermediate form, but apparently I'm not severe enough to meet that! It's ridiculous.
It got into my family courtesy of the Spanish and Portuguese raids on cornwell at the bottom of england... well that's the only way we can work out how mediterranean blood got into it. I am definately not asian or african so that's it. As for the blood thing, basically I am just not absorbing B12 at all, and my blood cells are consequently a bit more unstable than usual (normal peoples lasts 2-4 weeks, mine last ~ 4-6 day). Hence the fatigue.

Well I had best get cracking on work. Sorry if this seems a little disjointed, or I've missed anything, I am still feeling decidedly below average!

You are all such inspiring people. I really enjoy being able to talk to you all.
Tiff

Crime girl -- Definitely strange, DEFINITELY lovable! :love: Just up here. I guess it's too late to tell you what to do with the bean thing as it's already 4:30 p.m. there but it's what I said, "Out with the devils, in with the good luck!" or you could just say "Out with the bad luck, in with the good!" However, the devils, especially at a workplace is an interesting twist on things. In Japanese, it's what I wrote at the top of the message, "Oni wa soto, fuku wa uchi!" (oh-knee wah sew-toe, foo-koo wah oo-chee) Oni means devil, soto is outside, fuku is good fortune and uchi is inside. Ok, Japanese lesson of the day! It's a fun holiday. You'll see celebrities, sumo wrestlers especially (I don't know why) on TV throwing beans at the big temples in Tokyo. Anyhow, if you really did it at work, CG, I'm sure WHATEVER you said was interesting! :lol:

To be continued. . .

Heh there people. I spent so much time catching up on another thread I haven't time to write here anymore. NBK, just wanted to say, remember that boss at work who made things miserable for me late last year? Well, today is his birthday. I haven't even spoken to him yet this year. Just have nothing to say to him not because I'm giving him the silent treatment or anything. He's such a wimp he hasn't said anything to me either. He's no devoid of you know what. . . Anyhow, since it's his birthday I was wondering if I should say something. . . oh well, just take it as it comes. I have such a soft spot for jerks!!

Hi guys...

Red - I have no idea what advice to give you - I'm a softy too and I'd probably say happy birthday because it's what I'd want if it was my birthday. But I hope I'm never as stubburn as he is, so that I don't end up in this situation. You're funny though saying you're a softy for jerks :) :) I think you're in good company unfortunately.

Are you ready to start your day?

NBK - FORGIVE THE YELLING! :) I hope you had fun!! Sounds like you and BF are really doing well - that's great!! I can't imagine how hot it is! Last year our A/C went bad and we had a few nights that were too hot to sleep - you have my sincere sympathies!!!

Crime girl - I'm still laughing! I KNEW you'd celebrate in style!! Tell us how it goes. People may think you're crazy now but they'll remember you forever (as the crazy girl) but STILL..... :) Glad you're feeling so cheery.

Stormy - back to school this weekend? So close to the end! Hang in there!!!!!

I'm leaving people out I know - sorry. I'm SO tired. I'm about to go see if my regular girl can cut my hair the way I want it cut.

I've always wanted the messy Meg Ryan Bob cut. Since she first got it I've loved it. I was just afraid my face was too chubby. Well after seeing my entire family with short hair (and my mom too) I decided to go for it...I'm having a wierd "did I already type this" moment.....Did I?????? Sorry if I'm repeating info! I'm just exciting....I'm going to get it all cut off :) :) Right now I have long curly dark brown hair - I'll keep the brown :) But short messy bob is coming up :)