Well wow. It's November. Where did my year go? My year to make goal? Where did my motivation fly off to? I won't say this year was a total write-off. Not yet anyway, but it has been a year full of so much that was NOT weight related.
I have two months to do damage control, but realistically, that's about all I can do at this point. It's not as though the end of this year will mean the end of my chance to lose weight, not at all. The new year always brings new resolve, but I just wonder how this year got away from me like it did.
This weekend was so busy, again. Horses, kids, dogs, Halloween, moving furniture, cleaning Machine's room and switching dressers - all left little time for me.
Last night, after the kids got home (they went trick or treating with their dad), Richard got an IM from a woman he works with. Apparently one of the guys he knows from work passed away over the weekend. He was very young, only 29. He had recently gone through the gastroplasty surgery. He had been losing weight and doing really well. His father had passed away recently from complications due to high weight, and he wanted to reduce his chances of dying young to to being massively overweight. No one knows, at this point, the cause of death. His doctor's visits had all been going very well, so there was no obvious cause. Richard made a comment that we just never know when something is going to happen, and I told him that I had realized that and that was precisely why I was pushing so hard to do the things I'm doing. My mother died before my dad and she could enjoy the retirement both of them had worked so hard for. The same thing happened to Richard's father. I don't want to be dying and so sad that I didn't wring every last drop of living out of my life. Maybe Richard will understand that a little bit more now?
I didn't mean to be a downer on the new month's entry. But it has given me something to think about as we start our new month. What will THIS month bring?