Brrrrrr, Cyan!! It doesnt look like we're even going to have a winter to speak of around here. We've had a very few days where it got down to freezing or below, but today it was more like Spring. I had on a cotton long sleeved blouse and was a little too warm outside. It was probably close to 70F.

Newie, still keeping my fingers crossed for news of dh's new job soon! I cant even imagine the anxiety of waiting and waiting. That alone is enough without having an aggravating cold on top of that. Very stressful, I know. Just hang in there...and remember we're all with you in thoughts and prayers!

Ok everybody else...Get in here!!! I miss hearing from everyone!!!

Miki

I am sooooo cold
 

hey ladies...I have been in a deep deep freeze the last few days...if it gets any colder....I will become a block of ice...I think I am halfway there.

Again...no intentional exercising...just necessary walking outside in extreme cold weather...so cold...your legs burn...your finger tips have no feeling and your eyes tear. Why did I leave my bed...I should be at home wrapped up in my down comforters watching the frost grow on the inside of my bedroom window. Even my poor cat who likes to go out on the balcony refuses to go...I opened the door for him and his little head snapped back and the wind slapped him in the face...his eyes squinted and his jaw slackened...he looked at me and if he could talk...he'd say...Man...its sooo cold...but his face alreday told me that...next time I looked...he was underneath my bed covers warming up.

Food wise has been decent..I am keeping steady.

Newie..have you heard from your hubby's job?
Miki...how lucky you are enjoying nice weather...send some up here..will ya?
I received an email from Reina...she is super busy with work but she will be back amongst us soon...hurry back

Well I gotta get back to work..later ladies

Cyan

Hi, everyone--I'm doing pretty well tonight--cyan--you must absolutely be living in a freezer--we've had it pretty easy in Chicago this year--a few cold days, but nothing serious--not much snow either. I wouldn't want to be where you are for anything.

Nothing on the job yet. John will call tomorrow. I'll let you know what he finds out. We're thinking if he was going to be turned down, that wouldn't take too long to do. We're hoping maybe since they are hiring 175 people that notification would be by letter. Who knows? Anyway, he has this "relationship" with a personnel person in the corporate office of this company (in Michigan), so he can call her to find out if she knows anything. I'm getting to the point where I've just put it in God's hands.

Did I tell you all that I am in the process of actually being hired for next year
in the school where I am subbing now? I've been so off and on lately that I forgot if I told anyone about it. Principal mentioned it to me last week, I told her I was interested, and I am getting my documents together for her--resume, teaching credentials, other letters of reference, copies of certificates, applications, etc.--it's a lot of stuff. It will be somewhere between 1st and 5th grade. That will be a load off myself.

My cold is better. I have these heavy duty expectorant pills that I got from my doctor that keep my larynx and bronchial tubes open--I have a history of laryngitis, bronchitis, and pleurisy with colds--miserable, so I really try to take care of myself. I am kind of tired this week, though, from the cold and doing report cards. Also, the kids have been so noisy this week--just NEED to talk whenever we change activities! John has been taking wonderful care of the house for me when I am at school. I am actually looking forward to dishes and laundry on the weekend.

I haven't gained any weight, despite some odd food choices. Last night I ate chocolate--I know I needed some type of emotional upper. Too bad I'm not using exercise for that purpose. But winter and exercise don't get along too well for me.

Well, ladies, it was great to read your posts; I wish I could respond to all individually--too tired in the brain though. More later. Take care, all :)

Oh thank goodness its Friday!
 

Its been such a cold week girls...I am so glad this week is over with...all I want to do is go home...get underneath my covers and stay there until monday morning. I hope the weather improves a bit...although I have my doubts.

I need a cyber kick...I have been soooo lazy with the exercising and last night I did not do good with the eating...my Dad brought home a big mac...and yes...I ate it....I know...this self sabotage is not helping me at all...why did I eat it...I am still trying to figure that one out.

Newie...I will keep my fingers crossed for you and your hubby...let us know how it turns out. Congrats on your teaching position.

Miki...how have you been doing...let us know

I feel so tired right now and I am dreading the walk and bus ride home...I wish I could just beam myself home...or better yet...somewhere warm...ah the thought of it...how sublime.

Ok Ladies...my brain is mush but I still have 35 minutes to go before my weekend starts...I cant wait...it feels more like three hours to go...I want outa here now

later

Cyan

Its Monday...again
 

Hello Ladies

As usual..the weekend flew by and once again its monday morning.

Food wise this weekend..I did reasonably well...I even turned down a free big mac and fries from my Dad...I said...sorry I just cant eat that..and he took it away and gave it to one of his buddies... :cp:

I shoveled snow and that was all about the intentional exercise I got this weekend..my challenge for this week is to get over my mental block that I am in concerning working out and get over it...just do it..like nike says! yeesh.

Where is everyone...get back in here and post...looks like this group is falling apart...come on ladies...lets get motivated...its still the new year...lets make it happen..lets lose the remainder of the this weight and lets start our maintenance programs for life...are you with me?

I can't hear youuuuuuuuuuu.

big hug
Cyan

Cyan, glad you're still popping in! Where is everybody???? Maybe in a slump like me??? I have got to get myself on track!

Ladies, if you're in a slump, get in here and post! We're all in the same boat and we cannot let ourselves give up!!! That's an order!! lol

I miss everybody bunches. Hope to hear from everyone SOON

Miki

the end of yet another workday
 

Ah its only tuesday today but I guess I should be grateful to be alive and experience another tuesday of hopefully many more to come.

So far I am doing fine food wise...dont know what I want for christmas although I do have mahi mahi defrosted and ready to go..we will see what happens.

I still havent motivated myself to exercise...I think I am having a crisis of sorts..time to have a meaningful word with myself..or perhaps self administer shock therapy by way of trying on clothes that dont fit anymore :s:

Hey Miki...looks like it's you and me in here...but hey...I am still plugging away at it even if its just me left here in this ole post.

like Dido sings...I will go down with this ship! I wont surrender.

Well once again...the last thirty minutes of work feel more like 30 hours although I have absolutley no complaints...my work environment is amazing..and my co workers and boss are fabulous...for real :D

I am just in a mental slump...I think I am suffering from SAD seasonal affective disorder...this past christmas I bought Ivano a sunrise clock and he swears by it...he used to suffer from SAD too and now he says he is much better and can get up without headaches...I think I need to get one for myself too but they are kinda pricey at 207 bucks..ouch! I guess I will wait and see what happens..maybe for next winter.

Cyan my little fur man wanted to sleep with me last night so as usual, for a feline..he sure takes up a lot of space in my bed...so tonight...I dont care how pitiful his meows are to be let in..he will sleep downstairs...and thats final...unless ..ofcourse he meows very sadly..I am such a sucker. :^:

Ok...gotta go

later ladies

Cyan

Hi Cyan!

Sorry I got disconnected or whatever yesterday when you and Lisa were on MSN. I hated that. Dont worry, I'll be right here with you for the duration. I am not giving up on this weightloss journey nor can I afford not to come here and post. This is a large part of what keeps me going.

Today was an extra long busy day for me. I went in to work at 8 am and didnt leave til 6 pm. I had no break at all...not lunch or otherwise. I was swamped!! Needless to say, I am tired and havent exercised tonite. :^:

The one good part was that I had no time to eat. lol

Well, better run for now. Just wanted to be sure to check in.

Miki

PS...I love that Dido song...very cool lyrics!

:censored: I just tried to post and got "unlogged in", and my post was deleted!!!!! :mad: I spent a long time on it too! :?: Anyway, I'm here, not doing the best on food and not exercising, but hanging in there. More soon.

Its hump day
 

I mean wednesday...get your minds out of the gutter :lol:

I slept so well last night....out like a light...it felt good...it was like resorative sleep.

food wise was good...I have added more protein to my diet after many years of eating more carbs...my goal is to even them out..so I try to have protein with all of my meals..last night was portuguese stlye broiled chicken...soooo good...my mouth is watering just thinking about it.

lunch today was peanut pad thai with shrimp...it was ok but now I am craving pizza :jeno: which I will walk through the urge...so dinner...hm what to have..I think I will have tuna ...we shall see.

Miki...good to hear that you are sticking around...we will not surrender to a life of fat...we will not surrender to a life of inactivity.... :cp:

ok I have two hours before I head home...looking forward to getting out of here...weeeeeheeeeeeeeee

Cyan

its thursday
 

Its kinda empty in here...oh wear oh wear have my cyber gal pals gone..oh wear oh wear have they gone.

:bubbles: its rather lonely in here all by myself.

well...food wise...verrrrryyyyyyy bad yesterday...I binged..its been awhile but I did it...my best friend's Mom is in the hospital and it could be generalized cancer....she has been like a second mom to me and now...her too she has fallen ill. She keeps asking for me to go visit but with work and taking care of my Mom...its hard to go during the weekdays...I can only go on the weekend...also, my Dad will lose his driver's liscence starting feb 2 because of cateracts ...thank goodness my cousin...the laywer is taking care of that for me...I also have to take my Mom in to see her doctor this monday because her highblood pressure is too high...as well...she is due for another blood test....and she is more agitated lately....ahhhhhhhh :stress:

I dont know why I ate at 9pm...I just opened my mouth and inserted the food and then gulped it down with three cans of full fat soda.

So today I am paying the price with bloatedness and generalized feeling of unwell...I think I am retaining lots of water...ugh :dz:

ok I gotta go...two more hours and I cant wait to go home and hide underneath my blankets

yes I know its where...not wear

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Hi, everybody! I am still here; I've just been having trouble logging in and staying logged in. My messages have been getting deleted. I fixed my cookie settings after posting a help message to Suzanne, so I am hopeful now things will be better. :^:

Just to let everyone know that hubby finally got the call about his job on Wednesday--HE'S 100% HIRED!!!!! :dance: Thank you, God!! There isn't a set start-up date yet, but he will be called when it is time. He was told to check in at the beginning of February if he hadn't heard anything before then. That is such a load off my mind. I was really starting to lose it :stars: --too much unemployment over the years. I just couldn't take it any more.

I've had another piece of information about my status at my school. I will be teaching there for the rest of the school year. This week some very bizarre events took place. First, I heard on Wednesday the teacher whose place I am taking wants to come back. The principal has told her she must not come back on a part-time basis (what this teacher wants to do), that she has to wait till she can come back full-time. There are various reasons for this, the first of which is the children. The other teacher and I are completely different in our teaching styles, and it would be very traumatic for them to have daily interruption in their schedule. Anyway, she could come back as early as two weeks from now, depending on what she decides. That made me sad :( because I have become attached to my first graders, and to the school routine, and even though I will be there full-time next year, I didn't want to leave my little ones so soon. Moving on in the bizarre--shortly after I learned this teacher was coming back, I learned that the teacher who was leaving at the end of the year for retirement (and who I am being hired to replace) had suddenly become very ill and was in the hospital in ICU. I was shocked and sad to learn about this, and at the same time thought that maybe I wouldn't have to leave the school so soon after all (maybe they would need a long-range sub to take her place while she was getting better, or maybe for the rest of the year if she decided to retire early because of her health). I let the principal know I would be available to help if she needed it, and she told me she was already thinking that same way. Later in the day, she did tell me that when the first grade teacher did come back, I'd move to the other classroom for the other lady for the rest of the year. Anyway, here's the really difficult part of the whole situation--later that day, the sick teacher died!!!!! I didn't know her well, but she was a close friend of my hubby's brother's wife, which is how I originally met her a number of years ago, and she had even talked to me about her own retirement and that I should look into the opening at the school. It's so weird that's she's gone so fast, and even more weird that I benefited by her sickness and death. Yes, I wanted a job, and yes, I was glad I wouldn't have to leave the school so soon because I really like it there. But to get a job because someone dies!!!!!--that is very creepy. I don't know how to feel about it. :?: I guess it's not an easy thing, and one feeling doesn't really cover it. I am very sad and feel the loss of this lady. I feel sad she doesn't get to retire and enjoy her life in some leisure (her hubby died about 2 1/2 years ago). But at the same time, I am glad I get to stay in the school because I feel it's where I belong now, and I didn't want to leave after the first grade teacher came back. I also feel guilty for being happy about my good fortune because it comes at someone else's expense. The only thing that really helps me resolve those feelings at all is when I think of that old song/biblical reference: "There's a time for everything under heaven." I can only look to God's plan and think that it was this lady's time to go home to heaven, and that God was calling me at this time to a new direction in my life, which is this job. I guess it was just time for it all to happen. I feel a very strange mix of feelings though. :?: The principal is a very sensitive woman, I must say. After school yesterday she came to talk to me to ask me how I was doing. I told her I really didn't know the deceased teacher very well, but that I was feeling very strange at how I am getting this job, not realizing that was what she was referring to when she asked me how I was. She knew it was a very weird position for me to be in. I am glad to have that type of support. :goodvibes:

Anyway, getting on to food--I've not been doing well at all this week--eating cookies :cookie: --not many, but for me any can be too many--cravings. Last night in the middle of the night I had quite a lot of pretzels. :hun: I think it was the stress :stress: of the week, and I had/have a migraine headache :headache: as well. I did discuss with hubby about me going back to my Atkins-like program after he was hired, so I am going to take advantage of that now. I really want to get back on track. Perhaps the new beginning in my life can also include a me who weighs less and feels healthier. :crossed:

Well, ladies, I am so sorry I have gone on and on like this. :blah: As you know, I am a frustrated writer :write: who sometimes works out her problems through words. :thanks: Thanks for bearing with me, and even if you look at this huge post and think to yourself, " :yikes: Oh, my goodness--there she goes again!!----that's too much for me today!"--you've helped me deal with life and food just by the fact that you give me permission to talk. I hope everyone is doing okay. I miss the posts, though I've read from Miki and Cyan. It has to be the winter blahs. I know I feel like hibernating at times myself during this time of year. Take care. Bye for now. :wave:

Hey Gals

Its tuesday..I took my mom in to see her family doctor so I did not post yesterday...looks like it dead in here.

Eating has been average at best and exercise..non existant..I have been in a slump for awhile now...I am working on it but it is proving to be challenging.

I will keep you posted at to what happens next on this journey of mine

Cyan