mom is in emeg. She has cancer in her breast, spine, kidney, liver, adrenal gland and now they are looking at her colon.
She was bleeding out this morning with blood cloths. Pretty serious. She will do 5 radiation treatments for her spine but there is nothing they can do for her.

Please pray for her. I will be away til after sept long weekend.

Dee, I am so, so very sorry to read the news. I hope they can keep your mom comfortable. I didn't realize it is as serious as it is. I am lifting her up in prayer and praying for a miracle to rid her body of cancer. My dad had cancer too, it is a horrible disease for anyone to face. Prayers will continue, it seems sometimes prayer is all we have. My the Lord bless you & keep you as your family suffers through this. If you need anything, please let me know.

Thanks Gayle. I am going to be away for awhile but I will be back to gather my hugs and strength from you all.

love ya

Praying your mother had a good weekend Dee. If you need anything, just shout.

I hope everyone here had a great weekend! Any big plans for Labor Day? AND no Cheryl, it is a holiday, don't get any funny ideas to go into labor early. ;-)

Janice, how is the new job?

Oooh, Gayle--way to early for me to celebrate "LABOR DAY!"

We had Jake's 1st visit to the ER this week-end. He was at Stewart's mom and dad's house (with Stewart) and he started running down the driveway, lost his footing and "rolled" down the small hill on the side of the drive. When they got him picked up and cleaned up they noticed that he was unable to put any weight on his right leg. Stewart brought him home to me and asked me what I thought we should do and I said take him to the ER. After all, he's just a baby and he can't tell us where it hurts. They took x-rays, and, Thank God!, nothing was broken. The dr. said it was sprained/bruised and that we need to watch him for a few days and give him ibuprophen.

I'm just so glad it was not a serious injury!

Just checking in!!!

Cheryl, I hope Jake's boo-boo is better! Trips to the ER are fun with kids! Don't feel bad, it is better to be overly cautious then to have something serious happen and not know it. We have paid some pretty hefty ER bills in our time but it was worth it for the peace of mind.

Cheryl - I hope Jake is feeling better, poor little fella.

Just a quick post....

Please continue to pray for mom, she has been in hospital twice in last two weeks. First was internal bleeding from her blood thinners, that is stable now. On saturday we went to visit her and she was in a lot of pain, dad took her in later that night, she has fractured her ribs from sleeping on her side that night. She has ostio from taking predizone in the spring. They gave her high doses to keep her lungs from shutting down and now she is paying the price. The cancer is running through her body quickly, she looks so tiny and old. It breaks my heart to see her and even to hear her voice on the phone. This is so hard to go through. My mind keeps wandering and thinking of mom dying. We don't how long she has as she hasn[t seen the specialist yet that will be early next week. Please pray for her and my family as we struggle through this.

love you.

Dee, you and your family are constantly in my prayers. I love you!

Janice, Jake is better now, although I am going to have to stop letting Stewart take him anywhere alone--he took him back to his mom & dad's house Sunday and Jake fell off a riding lawn mower (which was, luckily, sitting still). He came away with two scrapes on his forehead. Poor baby--he's going to get scars early at this rate.

Just checking in.
Dee- your family and especially your Mom are in my prayers. God be with you and help you at this terrible time.

Dee, praying God will comfort you in this time. May God wrap his loving arms around your mother, guide her and ease her pain and suffering.

There is a song: Shepherd me, O God, you can probably find it on the net. The music is haunting but seems to fill me with peace. I hope it can do the same for you.



Isaiah 41:10
Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, Yes, I will help you, I will uphold you with My righteous right hand.

Gayle thank you for the verse and song. I looked up the song on utube. It is beautiful and did comfort me. From there I listened to other songs and one being my favorite was Ava Maria. My cousin sang that song at Aunty Sally's funeral (grand daughter to sally). Sally and I would go to church in PV and sometimes there was a guy at the cathedral that would sing it. I cried everytime. My grand mother also loved this song. My mom has picked two mexican songs for her funeral.
I just got off the phone with her. She wants to die and said that she isn't coming out of the hospital. I am not sure is she is right. I don't want her to suffer much more but I don't think the lord is taking her home yet. I will go visit her tonight.

Thanks Cheryl and Janice for the prayers. It does give me strength. Please continue to pray. This is by far the hardest thing I have done. It is hard to focus on the moment and not my mom dying but I am ttrying to get through this. I know that everyone has to die but it is hard for the living to let go.

love you guys.

Praying things are going well today Dee. My thoughts and prayers continue to be with your family.

Hello everyone!

I hope all is well with my Floozie friends.

My 24-week appt. is Wednesday. I'm praying everything looks good on this u/s.

Cheryl let us know how it goes. Your getting closer....

Gayle thanks for the prayers. My emotions are like a roller coaster. This last week my brother Garry and I have been planning mom's funeral with her. Today I am getting the music ready

Janice what are you up to? We haven't heard from you in awhile.

Shelley my dear come and post over here. Leave facebook games to tell us what is new in yhour life. We miss you.

My mom sees the oncologist this afternoon. Dez and my sis, and bro and dad went with her. I felt that there was enough people that I didn't go. We will see what she says but mom wants to die now. The morphine isn't controling her pain. this all seems surreal.

i don't know about you guys but we finally got summer about 3 weeks ago. It is nice and hot out. Too bad Larry took down our pool for good yesterday. The summer was so crappy I swam 4 times in my pool. Last year I think it was 6. We aren't home much so I think it is the best thing. When I am home I am swimming at the Y. If we really miss it we will put one in after a year of doing without.

Enjoy your day and tell the ones you love that you love them.


xox

Dee, please let us know what the doctor told your mom today. Cancer is a horrible disease that takes everything from a person to the point they lose hope also. God bless your mom, dealing with the pain. Are they allowing her any treatment for pain control? Do you guys have Hospice set up to help out? I know it seems like alot of questions, just concerned... Prayers continue sweetie...

Dee - I can only imagize who you must be feeling. I am praying for you and your family. My heart is with you and breaks for your sadness.
We had wonderful weather last week, I was in the pool everyday. This week is much cooler, still sunny and nice just not pool weather.
I got two kittens on Sunday so have been working it out with Maggie and Angelica trying to keep them from being jealous. The girls don't have names yet. Any suggestions. One is black with white under her chin, and the other is gray with tabby stripes.
Cheryl - that little peanut is growing. How did the ultrasound go?

I am sitting here crying. I don't even know what to say.....thanks for the concern and love guys. This is the toughest thing that I have done.

Gayle I don't even know what hospice care is....is it palitive care? Mom is on morphine that is unlimited, she will be put on haldrol (sp?) for her mood. I am not sure if I like what it does to you. She is seeing things from the morphine and she is really tired. No good news yesterday. The dr said that it is estrogen based cancer and there is a pill for it but it takes two months to work. My sister was quite upset about that as they knew about mom's condition since spring but cause of summer holidays they didn't do anything about it. Basically what the dr is saying is that she has less than two months to live. She isn't eating and only drinking abit so I know it won't be long. She said that she is dying this week. After the meeting with the oncologist yesterday my dad, brother and Dez came over. Everyone was pretty upset. We did get the music ready for the funneral and other things were put into place. My mind doesn't let go of the fact that mom is dying and I can't stop thinking of it. I cry so many times in a day by myself cause no one else cries.
I just want to thank you for the continued support.


xox

I went to see mom last night with Jason. this is the first time Jay went to see her. He is scared of hospitals and seeing Gramma sick. My dad ended up coming at the same time. We had a wonderful visit. She was happy and for the most part dealing with the pain very well. We even laughed and joked lots. It so hard to believe that the end is coming. I want to see her as much as possible when she is still herself and is realitively ok. I know that yesterday was a really good day and it might be different today but that is ok.

Thanks for the support.

Yes Dee, they are the same. It is a wonderful organization that will allow the patient to have quality of life and dignity until they pass. I sent you a link you may be interested in looking at in your email. There is a question and answer section and it also explains what one should watch for and how to cope during this time. {{{HUGS}}} Our hospice also offers bereavement sessions.
I'm happy to read you had a nice visit last night. The time you spend with your mom now is cherished and you will never, ever regret one minute of it.

Thanks Gayle {{{HUGS}}} to you too.

I spent the day and evening with mom yesterday. She had a lot of visitors plus drs, palative care workers, and a spiritual councilor. Her day was not as good as yesterday.
She was in pain and grumpy when I got there but it improved as the pain meds did their work. She is in better spirits than last week though. She will be moved to a semi private tomorrow.

Today i will just call her. I know that my sisters are both going and dad goes twice a day with my brother. We have most of the funeral preps done. It was difficult for me yesterday to pick a picture out when I know that the next time I look at it she will be gone. I din't sleep well last night but I am feeling ok.

Now i better get to the Y for my healing time.

Thanks guys for being there.

Dee, I just don't know what to say right now that can come close to offering you comfort. Don't ever feel bad about crying--you say you're the only one, but the others may feel the same way, thinking THEY'RE the only one. Knowing what's coming doesn't make it any easier. I wish there was something I could do for you.

Thanks Cheryl. You Gals have been wonderful support. I know that I can come here and vent and cry too.

How is the baby doing Cheryl, lots of kicking? Are you feeling uncomfortable? We just had one girl at the Y have her first baby on sunday. It was a girl. We also have another girl expecting on the 25th. The girls have the same due date and it is both there first. The other girl just wants to get it over.

I hope you all have a good weekend. I will try and pop in if I have time.

The baby is good--I got a good report at the DR on Wednesday. I had to get a scrip for Nexium (man that stuff is HIGH) for the acid that I'm having with this one! She is kicking a LOT--she's still in breach, so I'm feeling lots of movement in my lower belly.

We think we're going to name her Joycelyn Sybil. Joycelyn after my mom, whose name is Joyce and Sybil just because we like it. I'm not sure how we're going to spell it yet.

Cheryl I like the name. Now you will have two children with their names beginning in J. That is unique. I hope that she turns soon.

Mom had a horrible night last night. She was scared and halucinating. She thought that she was dying and called us all to be with her. She is so wacked out on morphine. It is so hard on us all. She is just not her self.
I hope that none of you will ever have to go through this. It is so hard.

I am so sorry your family is suffering through this Dee. My dad passed peacefully in his sleep but Steve's dad went through the extreme highs and lows for days. we called the family in several times because one just never knows. Is she still in the hospital? I am happy you have Hospice in place. They make a world of difference in pain control and helping the family understand what is going on. Prayers continue here...

Love the name Cheryl! Will it be pronounced JOYCE - LYNE or with the "cel" in there? Make sense what I am asking? :-) Happy to hear things are going well!

Today is day 1 of HFHC Also known as: Hall Family Health Challenge. :-) Steve, Allison and myself are trying to become more aware in our food choices and intentionally adding in time for exercise each day. Steve is out of town tonight, but planned ahead. He will go to a place with a WW menu.

I say it without the "cel." My mom calls her Sybil. :)

Gayle i don't think that I answered your question about mom being in the hospital....yes she is. She is in a palative care room, so it is a private room. We thought last week that she would come home for awhile or even a day pass but with the state that she is now she won't be home.
I went to visit her yesterday morning with Jason and will be back this afternoon with Gail. She is really bad and so high on the morphine. I told her yesterday that I was praying for her and she said I am not going to make it. I said I know through tears but I am praying for peace and comfort for you. I told her that us kids would be ok and that we would look after dad. She said I hope you take care of dad. I also told that she can go now and see her Sally and Marg and all of her friends and family.

When I walked out of the room Jason was waiting for me and he put his arm around me and walked me down the hall. That meant a lot to me to have his support. It isn't given as freely as Dez's but it sure was great to have him with me. We went out for coffee after and talked about mom and his trip to toronto on the weekend.

thanks for being there girls.

mom is failing quickly. Gail and I went yesterday. The nurses said that with past experience in what they have seen that she has days or a week or two at the max. We cried alot. She is not comfortable nor cohearent most of the time. Once in awhile she says something but the morphine keeps her pretty quiet.

We all ended up at my sister Rachels last night and had a family meeting. Dad went to the hospital to be with mom. It was too much for him. We did finish off the obit and talked about any thing we had left loose. Someone will be staying with her all day and night now.

Sorry for burdening you guys but i just need to pour out my heart.

You will never be a burden, Dee. know deep within your heart, we are here for you and you can share anything. This is your mom, your one and only mom, you have to be feeling pain... it's normal. We would be thinking you were crazy if it wasn't upsetting you. I am happy Jay & Dez can spend time with their grandma and be there for your support. Praying God will hold your family in his comforting arms...

Dee, don't apologize for coming to us--no burdon at all--that's what we're here for!!!!!!!

This thread is getting long, so I'm starting a new one for FALL.

Maybe Janice and Shelley will come around?