Woohoo Lindor! Congrats on your loss and on your jump! Sounds like you are really buzzing :D

I feel sick at the moment. I've got a super busy day ahead of me at work today and have just realised that I've made a fairly major f**k up. Need to talk to the boss and hopefully find a way around it. My stomach is in knots.

Last week ended up being a very lazy one. I didn't go to the gym on Friday or during the weekend so that = just 3 days with exercise last week. I hope to do better this week but can't even think about that at the moment I'm so bl**dy stressed about work!


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Good luck with work Julia...often what we think is a major f**k up turns out to be something that can be easily resolved. I hope the chat with the boos makes you feel better.

Can someone explain to me how one can be on such a high one day and the next be dragged down to such a low?

Yesterday was awesome for me.

Today I have a rather unwell dog, and I suspect when I take him to the vet shortly the news is not going to be good. He is 16yrs old and had a funny 'moment' on Saturday but pretty much recovered from that after about 20mins. Although he wasn't entirely himself yesterday, he seemed ok. This morning he appears to be in some pain and he is not touching his food or water. In fact he is curled up in a tight ball on his bed.

He gave me a scare back in March where I was certain I'd be advised to have him put down. Although he was in no apparent pain then, just very weak, the vet advised me to take him home for the weekend and say my goodbyes. But he came good again. So now I am too scared to make that kind of decision...in case he might come good again this time.

If he'd just pass away in his sleep I'd be ok with that...but the though of having to decide is killing me.

And sitting here waiting for the clock to tick over to 8am so I can get into the vet is driving me mad!!

My dog is in biventricular heart failure :(

And still I couldn't bring myself to have him put down. I hate myself for that!!!

He isn't living...he is merely existing. He is deaf, he is blind, he is incontinent, he has no teeth, now he doesn't have the energy to stay awake for more than an hour at a time! What sort of person lets that suffering go on??

So now I am prolonging his life by shoving a fistful of pills down his throat every day until he eventually dies!

Cruel!!!

Julia . . . I feel for you on the work stuff. I hope you and your boss were able to come up with a way around it. These things happen to the best of us.

Lindor - I am so sorry about your pup :( I hope things went ok at the vet. Hugs.

Oh I just saw your post . . . :(

Am sorry sweets, x

lindor - you are amazing and awesome for the jump and you are amazing and strong with your dog and you rock for the weight loss and commitment :carrot: hang in there - what is your dog's name?

everyone else i had so much to say but jemima has just spilt coke on the desk so i have to go fix it

i lost 800grams this week!!! woohoo

Oh Lindor, I'm so sorry to hear about your poor poochy :(

Congrats Kel on your loss, that's awesome :D

I think I've found a solution to my problem but it involves breaking lots of rules. My boss has okayed this but if the people in the auditing department find out they could well scupper the whole thing. If that happens, client will be FURIOUS!! I'm trying to fix the problem without having to let the client know that I've given him wrong information. Unfortunately the problem affects 3 different dates and I will have to amend each mistake on the day. So many things could go wrong!

Thank goodness I'm booked in for a massage tonight, I'm going to need it!

You can do it Julia!!! Says she who works for a law firm that frowns on backdating anything :D

And congrats on the loss Kel!! :) All that working out is paying off!

So . . . I am putting this down to TOM on the way (so am also not weighing cos I dont need to lose my mind right now). I just feel crappy. I feel that "I am not losing weight" tape stuck in my head again. I have lost over 6kg since the end of June. THAT IS GREAT!!! I know some of it was just bloat, but stilllllll down is down!!! And yet my head seems to be stuck on "yes but you still have so far to go".

I am hoping that a trot on the treadmill tonight will silence the noise.

I also downloaded some Jillian Michaels pod cast thinggos and am listening to those on the way to and from work on the train. I just feel like that "click", that "here we go the weight is coming off" thing hasnt gone off in my head. Although perhaps this is the whole point? I do not want to be on a diet ever again. And usually that "click" signals that I am in "losing" mode. I guess I am so used to the get it off quick!!!!!!!!!!!! Hurry!! Restrict calories and never get off the diet til you are skinnnnnyyyyyyy!!!!! approach that this new "change small things and take small steps and take breaks every now and then" approach is making me kinda sorta uncomfortable. hmmm. But I worry if I speed it up that I will be here in a year fat again and trying to lose the same blasted weight.

Sorry gals, these thoughts are better out than in sometimes . . . ;)

i'm doing this eating food thing and exercise thing
and it seems to be working
i eat now when i am hungry but dont find myself hungry between meals coz i have more meals
but just smaller ones....

Oh Lindor, I'm sorry. It's heartbreaking, I know. It sounds like you already know what to do though - if you're keeping the dog around for you and not for him, it may be time. What did the vet think?

Sometimes I think it's nicer for both of you to choose the time to let him go - you won't have to wake up one day to a horrible surprise, and dog won't have to suffer. Dying of heart failure is not a pleasant way to go - and the medications don't help much.

Hope I didn't upset you more :(

Thankyou Gen.

The last two visits to the vet I go in fully expecting them to say he needs to be put down, but instead they give me 'options'. And I always opt for a little more time with him - last time was four months ago.

The vet today seems hopeful although not entirely confident that treatment will help for a while. I stupidly - perhaps selfishly - took her glimmer of hope.

Kel, his name is Mista.

He has been a part of my life for nearly half my life! He is my most trusted and loyal friend. At 16yrs old I have known for a while that his time was nearing an end. I thought I was ready...

I lost Mistas mother to heart failure also, she was 13yrs old, and you're right Gen, it's not pretty...it nearly killed me!

The vet was surprised this morning that I was not aware that Mista had CCF. No vet has ever mentioned it yet, knowing his mothers history, I always asked when they listen to his heart. Their answer was always 'his heart is behaving consistantly for a dog of his age'.

Why I opted for treatment for him this morning I don't know. It's not fair on him, and I hate myself for making that decision. Yet, I still can't bring myself to let him go :(

Its hard to say goodbye to someone . . . a pet that you love :( I'm sorry that you and Mista are going through this. Poor little puppy. How is he doing tonight?

Oh poor poooochy! That's so sad Lindor :(

Danni it sounds to me like you already know the answers. You're doing the right thing and are heading in the right direction, just keep on keeping on mate.

I had a blissful 1 hour full body massage last night and it only cost me $45! I wish they had specials like that more often.

Tonight I will go to the gym and will do weights and some cardio.


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Awww lindor im sorry about mista. :( but i woiuld have done the same as you a little glimour from the vet would have been enough for me too .. poor baby . 16 is really old for a dog you must have taken really good care of him .

Julia $45 is so cheap!!! Massages are great . . . *thinks longingly of being covered in oil*

And thanks for the vote of confidence :) I think I need to stop worrying about being too regimented etc . . . just bcos that works for other people (and has for me in the past) its not the way for me at the moment.

Today I am feeling much better in the ole noggin' - I really think that working out is my therapy.

I have dental work to get done at 4pm today so I will be having a late lunch. After the last lot I was not able to eat very well that night so am thinking that I will be skipping dinner tonight and hitting the sack once the needle wears off.

Hope all are having a good day!

Lindor - how are you and Mista doing?

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Mista still plods on. Actually, he is a little more himself today.

I hessitantly went to work this morning...had a chat with a colleague, got all teary, but realised I only went to work in hope that if I can get things back to normal everything would be alright again. See I never went to work yesterday because of Mista. And I had the weekend (a three day weekend at that!) to be with him...and watch him deteriorate. There has been a lot of tears over the last few days!

But at about 12.30pm this horrible feeling swept over me! You know the feeling you get when you realise two hours later that you think you left the iron on at home? This feeling I got was like that 100 fold! I was so sure Mista had slipped away at that point. I just got up, told the office I had a horrible feeling, and walked out. By the time I got home I was dry retching with fear.

But there laying quietly on his bed was Mista. I put my hand in front of his nose (he's blind and deaf...he works solely on smell) and his little tail just wagged! Seems like forever since I've seen that!

Look...thankyou all for your well wishes. I do appreciate it.

I can't help but wonder if keeping him here is causing just as much suffering for me? I know if I put him down I will feel a great sense of relief...I'll miss him terribly...but I know I'll feel relieved. And part of me (and there are a lot of parts of me in this dilema) wonders if the reason I can't put him down is because I'd feel like I was doing it for me? I don't know if that made any sense at all, but I am feeling very selfish either way I go.

At the moment, he has his head up, his misty blue eyes (cataract blue) are wide and alert, and he seems very comfortable. He ate well this morning too...something he hasn't done the last couple of days.

Lindor big hugs for you and Mista. I have a 14yr old doggy and I've looked at over the past few days and gotten all sad thinking it will prob be soon. she's partially blind but her hearing is great. rotten little bugga can hear a chip packet sneaking open a mile away. they become so much a part of your life. lately shes just been laying around but still jumps up when u say her name (even whisper it) and runs around after the kids in the yard. cant take her for walks though she starts wheezing.

Kel wow u rock sista. 800gm.

We have a 12 week fitness challenge starting here but it is so expensive and time consuming. u like have to go 5 times a week plus extras.

gotta go.. matt just rocked up and will spew seeing me on here again haha post soon

Lindor is so terrilbe loosing a good friend, whether its people or animal. If it was me I think I'd give it a couple more days and see how things progress. Honestly having the choice is hard but if it was a people friend and you knew you could end their suffering would you do it for them? I think I would. Still a very hard decision to be made. My heart goes out to you. XX

I had a job interview last week and it went really well. Got a call back today asking if I would like to come in for a couple of hours to see if I would like the job! Sounds promising. Fingers crossed!

That's great news Barb, sounds really promising! Best of luck with it :D

I've applied for a second job and they're having an open recruitment evening next Monday so I'll be going to that. The stink thing with having 2 jobs though is that the secondary tax rate is so high that it really is a killer.

Lindor I'm glad to hear that Mista is a bit better today. Whatever you decide to do, I'm sure you'll do the right thing for both of you. It's not fair for him to suffer and it's equally unfair for you to have to watch him suffer :hug:

I had a good session at the gym tonight, did a spin class followed by weights. Weighed in and am down 300g which to be honest, I'm a bit disappointed with. Trying not to be though ... after all, it's 300g in the right direction and as we all know, slow and steady wins the race!


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just got back from the pool ... there was a great motivater there in a group of tall hot guys that kept standing up one end.. lol there was all girls in my lane and we were all drooling and giggling ... we would all get up the pool fast so we could turn back and see some more ....great workout ... and boy did i leave the pool smiling.. :) after my hour of laps



barb well done on the job.. :) whats will you be doing?

Oh man, I was having a great day and feeling really happy and then ......

I've misquoted somebody. She's not happy. I feel sick. It's not a massive drama really but I hate knowing that someone feels I've given bad service :(

I hate that work can affect us so much :( Sorry you are having a bad day Julia.

Amy u nawdy girl hehe.... nothing like a hottie to get us motivated.

Hows Mista today Lindor?

Kel how r u plodding? miss u heaps. i think in 2 weeks my roster eases so should be able to get together soon :D

Julia what a bummer bout work. but i'm sure u can work things out.

everyone else a big hi. how y'all doin?

teehee - very cute guy at my gym too, his name is elliott and he is adorable... he has a very nice normal body (ie not gym put a pin in me buff body) and he has this cute as pie hair style and is lovely
i saw him this morning and then he phoned to see how i was doing with my membership (ie is there anyone else i can refer hehehe)
so i referred my friend!!! she is going tomorrow night to join and she is so scared but she is at least 60kg over weight so i am MAKING her come and since it is only 6 weeks if she commits to that she will feel amazing about herself - she needs to move she needs to let her mind go for half an hour every couple of days she needs to breath

i went to the gym this morning and then went for my jemima walk RUN this arvo and plan to do same tomorrow AND boxing tomorrow night with Sterling
(i love the guys at this gym Elliott and Sterling - it is like some posh boys school)
i think though i am still eating too much food - my portions are all out of whack HOWEVER i think the types of foods i am eating is more on track

mentally i am feeling awesome too - i was a grumpy bum this arvo but it had to do with "work" and having a 2 year old - i wanted to get stuff done she wanted to play - so i got frustrated.... i am going to try and prevent it from happening tomorrow etc as that is what the doc said would get me off my meds, finding ways to prevent and manage my frustrations, i dont want to think about anxiety at all i dont want to think about it until i have to - i really want to get off the meds and i am on teeny weeny dose now so will half it again tomorrow for a packet and see how i feel
i think exercise is helping me in so so many ways - i cant believe i stopped everything for so long

vonni - i know where you live!

Working out is like therapy for me. I feel so much more together when I have done SOMETHING.

You are doing great Kel!! :)

Kel be careful tweaking your meds without your doctors say so! You sound like you're really enjoying the gym which is great. Maybe start a food journal and show it to one of the staff at the gym and get their input on what could be changed??

I got yesterday's dramas sorted, thank goodness. Today I've got residual drama from a few days ago to deal with. Gah!

Had an awesome session at the gym last night. Did spin and the instructor chucked in an extra track so the class lasted over 50 minutes rather than 45. It was great! :cheer3:

I've started today off with a yummy breakfast of 2 free range scrambled eggs and a chicken sausage with tomato chutney :T:T I'm leaving work an hour early today and will hit the gym again.


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Man my tooth is frickin killing me... had root canal monday and got a temporary filling, need a crown...not getting it finished until Friday. Called the dentist and he said "oh, that pain is normal, try not to bite down"... Oh good! No eating til then? That would be good for my diet haha... never had a toothache before - not fun!

Ouch Jen!

Amy I'll be doing payroll, accounts payable/receivable amd admin. I can't wait!

How's your pooch Lindor?

Ugh, Gen there's not much that's worse than toothache :( Hope it improves soon.

I'm feeling soooo bad right now. A couple of girls here at work are sharing a birthday on Saturday so they shouted morning tea - chocolate biscuits, muffins and lollies.

The lollies wouldn't stop looking at me!! I ate about 8 at morning tea and then scoffed probably about 20 at lunchtime. I'm so mad at myself for doing it :mad:

Where is Ani??? :?:


Mista cost me an awful lot of money in an afterhours vet call out last night. He had diarrhoea full of blood, was in obvious pain and was shaking. I was sure he was reacting to his new meds and was going into shock.

By the time we got to the vet, Mista was enjoying his night-time drive. When the vet said 'hi' to Mista, Mista wanted to play!!!!

The vet felt the diarrhoea was a reaction to the anti-inflammatory meds he was on...so we have stopped them. I was given something to settle his tummy too.

To justify the expence a little more, we managed to draw the bloods we couldn't on Monday. The results came back today...liver and kidneys are working perfectly!!

Oh...and here it is...

My jump!!!

Now, I hate that my face is floating over the 'net, so this probably won't remain here for too long! But I had to show off the new Bart Simpson hair doo I acquired from the jump :lol:

Is that link working?

And if not...what did I do wrong???

It worked!!

Lindor that is soooooooooooooooo cool!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMG my stomach started to lurch when you were about to jump out! Eek!

You look so happpppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppy.

That made me smile so much :) Thank you for sharing your vid.

Julia - how you feeling sweet cheeks? I know it sucks when we fall into temptation, but I hope it didnt affect the rest of your night. Thats my issue, I dont always bounce back well . . .

Gen - How are your teefies feeling? I had some gum issues these past few weeks and am so glad they are starting to feel normal again.

Barb - when do you start??? So cool!! :)

Yeah...that was before Mistas problems hit home. Seems so long ago!

But I do smile every time I watch the video...which is kinda often at the moment! :D

Thanx for confirming it worked Danni.

Awww poor widdle Mista :( Does the fact that his liver and kidneys are working well mean that he is doing better than the vet first thought?

You are such a rockstar Lindor! I dont think I could ever do it. I am a big skeerdy cat.

The fact that his liver and kidneys are functioning so perfectly is remarkable for his age...even the vet said she was surprised!

It doesn't mean his heart has improved as such, but it does mean it is less risky having him on the meds that are going to help is heart pump stronger thus circulating the oxygen around his body better...making him feel better.

wow amazing video girl and that was defaintly bart hair... i love the sound track on it.. free free anf fun.. and what a jump ..... perfect landing too by the looks of things... so when you going again???? lol


im glad mista is ok.. the kidney and liver test sounds like good news was the vet surprised by that? what sort of dog is he?? any chance of seeing a picture of him?


barb congrats on the job sounds great

Kel im glad your motivated and doing this thing the right way.. :) lol those shakes didnt help you at all ... cute guys at gyms are a nice little motivater hey...... lol

Lindor - you look great! It is awesome. Also, the dude is hot!

Have to admit I didn't mind being strapped to him Gen! :lol:

Amy...I'll look into a pic of Mista for you...

Oh yes I forgot to mention the dude . . . very noice :D