Ani Yay for being back! :)

So I had a talk to myself over coffee and a gingernut biscuit (zipit! I hardly ever have biscuits in the office, this is prob. my 3rd one in a year. My issues are around portion control and savoury foods. But it was calling to me and its given me a little jolt of energy. OK, enough justification :D)

What I realised was . . . that I am expecting too much from the scales. When I got on the scales last week and ****myself, then lost 4.5kg in 4 days I did not think that those 4.5kg meant anything bcos in my mind it was just TOM bloat. Whether it was or not who cares, those kgs are now gone.

So when I hopped on the scales and saw a 200g increase and had a meltdown this morn, it was bcos I actually thought I'd be down another 4kg in a few days. INSANE.

This is what sticking to unrealistic plans has done for me in the past!!!! Made me expect to dop kilo's like that - and in the past I have, BUT SO WHAT. I AM STILL HERE AND STILL FRICKIN TALKING ABOUT LOSING WEIGHT.

Phew.

OK. Rant over :D

So I will happily accept all weight lost from now on with grace and dignity. No matter how big or small, until such time as I am no longer big, but small.

according to the calender - since may i have lost 400grams basically that includes a dozen gains and a dozen loses big and small but i am still 400 grams lighter than i was then
now i am focused i have to lose weight, my body just cant handle it anymore

ani - woohoo you back, i was about to sms you, a little worried, 6kg..... girlfriend WHAT is going on?? you can so lose it again, it HAS to be what you have been eating?? coz your job is still active and has not changed, holidays explains some of that......

julia - dont worry that he has just broken up with wife. honestly. most people that are seperated have been seperated in their relationships for a long time just not public or official. i know from experience. i met benji 2 weeks after officially seperating from my ex husband. if i had waited just for the sake of waiting i would lost the most wonderful man in the whole world. benji broke up with his girlfriend when he met me and THAT was messier than my break up with my exhusband. do what your HEART says not your head

oh ps- danni - 4kg in one week??? unless you are on first week of shakes or soup diet that is NOT going to happen
fix your scales, work out how much you weigh, weigh yourself same time same place every week and then DONT think about it
think about how damn hot you will look at wedding
think about how damn hot you will look at xmas shindigs
think about how healthy you will be and how you will then be able to focus on something else and NOT THINK about it anymore

DONT THINK ABOUT IT

DO IT

(says me that has put on a disgusting amount of weight while dieting hehehe)

Ha! Awesome!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Just dooooooooooo eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet.

I cant wait to be slinky again.

Shall I post a pic so you can see what I am aiming for?

The before was 122kg . . . the after I dont know, I last weighed before I left Sydney at 73.35kg and then this was after I had been in NYC for 2 months - when I got home I was around 70 and then well, we know what has happened since and we will not discuss it cos its not polite :D

I will prob pull this down later in case people from my real life track me down, snoopy buggers . . .

*snip*

ok so what do you weigh now? (i dont do pounds)

and by the way you look hot in after photo
you can be my work out buddy

i did 45 mins on the cross trainer today
BEAT THAT (and i was entertainer jemima at the same time while she was playing in the yard)

45 minsssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss sssss!!!

Insane!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

lol

No gym for me today as I will be at work late-ish, but . . . no reason why I cant go home and do Jillians 30 Day Shred DVD eh?

OK. I will lock it in and do it!

I am only counting my last lowest weight ha! So 95.8 (if you want the actual just add 200g from this mornings weigh in - but I am not counting little moves up, if I go up again this week I will adjust my Christmas Challenge stats below). I wanna be 82 by Chrissie. I settled on that cos its very close to 80 but not so close that it seems scary impossible lol

Gawd. Makes me ill Kel :(

Gosh Julia, that would be a deal breaker for me I think, but then I always use any excuse to get out of a relationship that's going well, so don't listen to me.. haha. It wouldn't be the fact of the ex-wife so much as the weeks/months of deceit that would get to me.

Gosh life is confusing sometimes! It's not a deal breaker for me but has given me a lot to think about.

He's joined the gym and is coming with me tonight. Someone to work out with wheeeeee!!

I had not thought of the deceit either. Only you know the right thing for you though :)

i had not thought of the weeks of deciet side of things.... i was always honest open and upfront about everything when i was seperating from my ex and getting together with benji

you must be important to him for him to have kept it a secret from you
and he must realise it now to make sure to not keep any secrets from you?

gen - your neice is so so so so cute you so need to buy her heels and a crown for xmas

Apparently she went to the shopping center like this and got many comments haha.

I love her handbag!!!!!!!!!!!! So cute!! :)

Strangely, I'm not concerned about the deceit. I can understand his reasoning behind not telling me straight away even if I don't agree with it.

Love the photo of your niece Gen, she's adorable :D